Tag: feelings

  • BO$$ Money (12/11/25)

    Make money from your content
    Hopefully they

    like it!

    (12/28/25)

    I was quite creative on both of these days ∘ I’m surprised I haven’t written in this fucking thing since then. Life smells really good sometimes, for no immediately apparent reason, so all we can do is sit back and enjoy the odor with a hesitant composure as to what may be true about the occurrence.

    More to go! (12/28/25)

    I like to write words because they are very pretty & I can make them very kind & powerful at the same time no matter what that’s what’s so interesting about words for me I guess is their innate ability to impose within anyone certain feelings and understandings of which they themselves expound upon in their most minute mannerisms, so clever are the ways in which they hide their thoughts, yet we can still feel them so clearly as if to be reaching out physically through mere uncanny telepathy via pattern recognition

    Writing your goals (12/28/25)

    I have so much more to write, wish I’d take more time to do so. I wonder if writing actually improves my life. I used to accept just feeling different meant that all of this was worth it, but my moneys are still low; Would writing … well, let me try and we’ll see:

    My goal is to finish

  • Glory flowing through your very being Ultra warrior of divinity • Lovely righteous wonder

    The entity of magical resolution

    you are that which is beautiful

    your blessed vibrations bring the most joyful feelings to the spaces around you • Colorful heart and loving soul • Blood of love

  • March, 2025 ☘︎

    “Today” (3/17/25)

    the other day I probably said the worst things I’ve ever said to her. I’m trying to not be negative or mean & positivity feels fake so I just want to relay facts at this point. I’m not happy with being disrespected in our relationship. In fact I am certain she doesn’t respect me, although she has been nice. Hope she has a good, long & happy life because I do not know if we are together anymore.

    “Lifechanging” (3/27/25)

    yale • Harvard • Ivy • College student • Libraries • Studying • Success • Academia • Freedoms • Growth • Learning • Development • Truth & Freedom • Strategy • Private profit • Daring • Voyages • Frighten the authorities • Fiery Battle • Treachery • Piracy • Ceased • Transforms crime into politics

    “Super Righteous” (3/28/25)

    What can I do to reach divine being within myself so that my physicality may become Godlike in structure & mind & depth ~> love • heart & soul

    What do you change from them?

    Zarephath • Drenched

    Hometown Boy

    Mood changes

    Righteous times

    Righteous measures

    Righteous body

    Serving my people

    Simple Kindness” (3/28/25)

    Calm care • Salvation of love

    How did Paul die? Decapitation by Romans

    Tell us that story

    Journeys • Rented rooms

    First he heals them

    Begin Again” (3/30/25)

    We are exhausted • What is scarlet?

    .

    .

    Flickering light

    their city

    feels natural to have you here

    “Power & Control” (3/31/25)

    Power to not get upset with your loved ones ∘ Control over your actions ∘~> what is in my control is my limbs & my facial expressions & my thoughts ∘-> it is sometimes difficult to control my thoughts -> that is to say I’m not quite sure which ones might pop up within my brain at any given point in time. How much power do you have over the things within your control? I think I have more power over the things within my control than I act. Imagine if you act so kind & patient while getting so smart & strong and believing in yourself & that you are so beautiful & attractive & loved

    Exit West [Book analysis]” (3/31/25)

    The novel establishes borders insofar as describing the locations of certain activities. Beyond that, the novel breaks down the idea of borders by leaving places (including their city of residence) unnamed and untitled. This is a curious choice by Hamid, as it brings forth a sense of mystification, leaving the reader to fill and/or appreciate such gaps. It also brings to mind the idea of an egoless war, defying the importance placed upon nationalism.

    -> internal borders

    -> Nadia vs. Saeed’s personal boundaries

    “Mindful vs. Mindless” (3/31/25)

    Mindful = having fun -> act of noticing

    VS.

    mindlessness -> focus is mindless

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    enhanced, charismatic

  • Resentment Toward Yourself

    Do you have resentment towards yourself? Are you unhappy with the quality of human you came into the world as? What’s so wrong? Does your brain hurt to think about…that part…and how it makes you feel to think about how other people feel about it? And so be it, but what is it truly? Is it dissatisfaction or envy? Hm why not both? What is it then? Envy formed out of dissatisfaction? Or vice versa? Hm. And what does that mean for the likes of those around you? Must they suffer at your suffering? What a drag. Is that why they’re called drag queens? They’re all dragging us down with their ultimate showcasing of dissatisfaction with their natural born bodies in embodying that of which does not physically appear when they enter the shower? This cannot be the case, can it? Are our identities based on envy? I don’t even mean envy, I mean a certain adherence to an image that has overtaken one’s mind. I think my relationships with both women and men alike have shaped my identity, and although it may be a world of my own making, is it not those around us that assist in shaping our own inner realms? To such a degree, I most certainly may have myself had an impact on the identities of those I’ve come into close contact with. Thus it comes across as a nearly inescapable circumstance that we as living organisms undergo in our fluctuations through our vibrational undertakings via living. Would it benefit anyone to remove oneself from the whole of it? It comes across as unlikely that a mass flux will suddenly seek such isolation, so one may likely find plenty of space to develop an identity beyond the immediate surface of every day interactions. The key at that point is embarking on the meditative mind, of which will be in conjecture with the idea of enlightenment, if that is what one so desires, otherwise, perhaps at least, they will find solace in emptying the mind of memories, at least temporarily depending on the individuals connection to such memories (and the value placed towards them).

    If this all sounds too weighty, then continue on the path of identity swapping. My estimate is that it may just be an element of societal normality, thus pivotal in the process of collective evolution, thus likely evolving the individual (albeit blips of resistance as keys enter their respective holes) to such an extent that may blow any idea of resentment (and ultimately rejection) of ones natural born physical state out of the spectrum of thought entirely. that is to say our evolution may propel us forward with such masterfulness that we won’t even notice the shift in attitudes that will occur collectively, of which will be a soft, gentle, yet massive wave of acceptance that will coarse over each and every one involved in that warping being. It may in fact be reminiscent of that individual who sought escape from identity sharing, that is to say that the whole will be like the one, and so separation will be simultaneously assumed while also never existing to a most comfortable extent. In trying to understand this moving forward, perhaps take a really long time to look at yourself in the mirror and try to think about as many other people than yourself as you can while you’re staring into your own eyes. Try not to get lost in the abyss on such an endeavor, although if you do, have fun!

  • Poetic Reckonings

    Fortitude flying through flames

    of Doubt – Did double down to

    dampen the flames that rose high

    Then, without warning, we were

    all wet from the tears of God

    that did flow with our timelines

    Enough to fill and refill the craters

    of the moon – many moons

    pass before I run away with

    energy cloaked carefully,

    until then, please take my hand

    And we will fly through those

    flames the sun so playfully

    yet dangerously tickles our

    sides with.