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What could it be? That feeling fleeting from our capturing ∘ Where will we take these thoughts to the stairs of heaven, I suppose. Shall they accept these words of the little possessed? What else might you answer for at those mighty righteous gates? That of which only Bill has come before & left richer than any of us combined ~•
The pursuit of (12/28/25)
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Absorb those vibrations of triumphant victory from a God so loving ∘ Emanate from your soul those vibrations of winning ∘ You are a winner
Win with all your might ∘ feel those obstacles and overcome them with that strength blessed upon you by God
The Universe is full of those lights that send to you energy so full of strength that you pull off feats of immense GLORY ∘ Find meaning within yourself and realize your miraculous, loving ability to be unstoppable
You are that which is most righteous & most successful
Angel of light, love & Glory
Warrior of God
Widest smiles for miles
Vibrations of immense strength
Unstoppable being of iron
Welded by the hands of God
Frequencies of victory flowing with righteous strength
We bring the biggest booms
Savage full of animalistic testosterone king of Glory
Eat up the opponent
Divine spirit, protect those gifts blessed upon you protected by God’s loving angels against the darkness as you spread your divine light
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Glory flowing through your very being ✧ Ultra warrior of divinity • Lovely righteous wonder
The entity of magical resolution
you are that which is beautiful
your blessed vibrations bring the most joyful feelings to the spaces around you • Colorful heart and loving soul • Blood of love
What are your most righteous ponderings? I do quite enjoy showing my writings online
You are so cool and joyful and make people so happy to be alive and want to be alive! Positive love and thoughts flowings like God’s greatest most successful angels ∘ loving beautiful glory ∘ Angels • God Heaven sent ∘ Reality maintaining victory seeking • Belief and love in yourself to become that which you envision your life becoming
Say those most wonderful loving things in your mind so glorious and full of wonderful thoughts ∘ Carry your beautiful body forward and leave the world in awe at your magnificence • Silence of the minds finds new noises that flitter about your darkness • Will we find solace in the depth: of difficulty? What does your soul tell you to do with your body and mind? The frequencies vibrate through you • Bring forth these mighty shocks of God and EARN righteous victory • Being of glorious loving righteous powerful unstoppable invincible divinity • Love, Robert ♡
Today is the last day of September and in lieu of a holiday spirit, coupled with a seriously rainy Tuesday vibe, I want to spill & spew whatever words do come to mind • • ∘ such seed we sew so soulfully • serene sea surfer
God Righteous entity turning dreams into reality • Super strong hands always writing that which emerges most divine
Righteous, loving soul giving the world all of the energy you possibly can without relenting especially in the face of adversity
Constantly raising your skill levels • Does profit always mean success? What does it mean to be free? to have freedom over your body->
Ethos (9/30/25)
What freedoms can you surely carry out? Where are you experiencing restraint? What is holding your freedoms back? How freely can you move your body? What movements can you make with your body? Who can you talk to and what can you talk to them about? What do we truly want to do with our freedoms? What levels of power can you exude from your very fingertips you bloody righteous awesome fucking God of Olympus you freak of nature
He dug deep to find what God had gifted him at birth the flaming sword of Michael embedded within the fabrics of his red blood cellular structure bringing forth on the world God’s divine will so that you may have lived with Ultimate Righteous Action ∘
Plentiful golden rays loving rivers of life running to bring the villages nourishment & so does the oil man run drums back & lo for our very nourishment, a liquid life unto glory ∘ Will the guitar be playing for you at the gates of heaven
So full of glory, it overwhelms
Take in the blessings of the Lord
God almighty & spread about peace and goodness as you endeavor for great success in your quest to fulfill true meaning & understand of the self, a journey worth more than any dollar amount could ever reflect ∘ With divine muscles & a positive upfront confident go getter attitude, you can accomplish anything ∘ your mind is so powerful as you direct your body through those difficult times, strengthening your resolve & heightening your sense of spirit, making you that much closer to divinity in beauty, righteousness & love forever
Righteous greatness flowing through your muscles & bloodstream to create and emanate divine source so that we may bring such awesome & glorious vibrations that are most golden as they fly past the collective entity •
Your powerful body, powerful mind & powerful spirit bring out the best from within yourself onto the world as you heal the world’s harmed soul in pursuit of loving and bringing life as success is achieved & accomplished through righteous effort that outweighs the lazy demons and defeats them with your righteous, gnarly, flaming sword from God’s great heaven, spreading divinity •
feel yourself into immense victory as success flows from you & to you • Earned with the effort exerted propped by muscles fed by the divine blood flow of your warrior spirit that maintains glorious harmony
• Powerful body ∘ Powerful mind • Powerful spirit ∘
Engage with your heart & discover momentum toward wealth & righteous wellbeing bound into the healthy confines of your beautiful body as you bring forth to the world a value so intense, it cleanses the collective spirit of evil & enlightens that which is good & most good for life & love
you can prove anything can happen by the sheer will of your glorious fortitude • Peaceful Resolution within your realization & subsequent loving of the divine gifts blessed upon your wonderful soul by the giving source of the charitable universe • Gratitude flowing through your being • Righteous glory shining from your powerful body
May your glorious tale reign supreme in the wake of the collective liquification of our individual battling’s where our strengths mesh to create the golden aura of powerful, loving, divine souls of glorious harmony that sings through the sharing of vibrations so bright with the light from the depths of your inner star which emerges with certain calm
Life & Victory creating energy flowing upon your wonderful, historic timeline as you become the most ultimate Robert with a massive net worth & super good, fantastic health as you take care of your family with infinite kindness & love and smiling that cures diseases & ailments with it’s divine shine and vital articulation of words so beautiful, lovely, inspiring & seductive with sweetness vibrations of heavenly God fueled victory ∘ Strength growing within muscles that carry blood blessed with cells of kissed by God’s Greatest angels
I wrote the date before writing anything on the page • I should write more.
here we are on this glorious Wednesday manifesting immense amounts of love, success, energy & wealth • you are so righteous • your muscles are so strong and powerful • you have a righteously powerful mind, body & spirit with waves of colorful light emitting from your eyes and fingertips so bright. Continue on your path of righteous excellence as you achieve your goals & manifest your dreams into reality with courage so great that the challenges before you tremble in cowardice as they cannot bear to withstand your ultimate strength powered by the divinity of God in heaven with love
Starry eyed creature, look back to me so dearly, tender do you harken my loving wave of cherishment ∘ lovely pie so sweet, cherry, apple, lime, complete •
Create with songs of goodness & bring happiness & joy wherever you carry yourself as you attract immense success & wealth to yourself, a powerful spiritual magnet for the manifestation of dreams ∘
Cut through blockages like a sword so divine & sharp as it penetrates the opposing force in holy rite • Clouds of appreciative rain fill the air with a quiet solitude for the lovely to bask in with fervor with their lovely eyes
My eyes are a lovely shade (8/19/25)
of grey, yet they often appear to be quite blue. I believe exercise keeps my body, mind & spirit in tip top shape as I carry my righteous, loving, star filled being through the infinite radiance of life, spreading that which is most good & attractive: love, wealth & further goodness as I achieve immense success & exemplify monumental glory ∘
The story of an absolute legend beast whose being glows with golden aura that redefines value systems • A literal Market Maker, you shift reality & subsequent understanding with your beautiful words & actions that enlighten the loving world as she yearns for more of yourself from you for her ♡
Confidence flows through you ∘ you walk with strong stature • you are power • you are ultimately articulate • Wealth & success flows from the universe into your divine soul giving your body holy power that carries you into your dreams & vision into a life of abundant wealth, love, joy, happiness, glory, life, success • You are God like in your speech and confidence & you are so ultimate with your behavior as you have total control over your emotions & actions ∘ you are so physically attractive & irresistible as you’re a magnet for beautiful vibrations, good health & billions of dollars
Super righteous being with ultimate strength coursing through my body blessed with God’s glorious light that fills my soul with divine love of which I carry into the vast array of life where I share & spread goodness as it returned back to me, improving & enlightening me so that I take the righteous path and succeed in my dreamy endeavors to become an ultra rich, extremely healthy, well balanced individual
love & Glory
Intense, righteous success as power wealth glory love light redemption & magic flow to & from you with an amazing ease as you smile and give forth life to the world ∘ Increasing your net worth exponentially & becoming stronger in your muscle growth & powerful in your control of mind, body & spirit ∘ Becoming a righteous angel warrior of God • The glory of victory is attained by your powerful hands, held to your heart that pushes blood of Gods through your beautiful, magnificent body that acts as a vessel for the flowing divine goodness that bless it with eternally wonderful health & beauty with love & glory
to the belly of a God
tis not for the faint of heart
At least won’t you reconcile your
soul with me, for but a
moment, if be there a moment
of yours to spare for a poor
old chap as myself?
(7/3/25)
Traveling through a garden together; I’ve never felt so at peace – here, it feels like home • like being gathered ’round fireplace on some winter’s eve, and stories are being told, whether aloud or to yourself, and the moment is held with serene acknowledgement • forever at peace in this moment of everlasting life
Must do something ∘ What do you want to be? Be your boss • listen to your own commands ∘ Be your own kingdom
you are your own monarchy
Capability ∘ Leadership ∘ Bend to your own will ∘ Who is still next to you? If you’re the person of worth you want, your reign will rule strong
Focusing on what should be done in this moment ∘ Value ∘ invoke glory • Thank the sun for it’s beautiful rays of light ✧ Glorious, glittering shine • Divinity • Glory
A chance to bring about everlasting life
What work can we get done now? Are we prepared to undertake action?
What can we do to prepare for what needs to get done – to defend our lives against the evils of lies
Fulfilling your obligations (4/8/25)
Strengthen yourself • glory from our ancestors, from God & the Universe
Effectiveness of your work ethic ∘ Well intentioned man ∘ What is the price we pay for procrastination? ~> a wasted life
Become instead your own boss of whom carries expectations of you to fulfill the assignments that need to get done in order to keep the business afloat & in turn managing to maintain some sort of semblance of what it means to be human ∘
Righteous loving glorious
beautiful divine waves of love
coursing thanks to you & me
9:15AM (4/8/25)
He woke up again
Hell yeah • Here’s the day, again.
“I need it” he tells himself “to feel the glory, again”
He looks around at the empty room he built for himself.
Such a small castle; and he gets out of bed to look out the window, forgetting to rush into assignment and thinking only of the word, again.
Household Codes (4/8/25)
May we carry our home in peace & harmony ♡
♡
All my life I want . . .
. . . Respect my mind。
(4/9/25)
4:47AM ∘ Dark, cold, writing this outside under lamp light
Weighing in (4/9/25)
at around 181 lbs, at least, two weeks ago [LOL]
(4/10/25)
Taste of the divine
(4/11/25)
∘ Become super famous & loved globally for infinite positive/good reasons ∘ Spread joy & peaceful loving vibes • Build • Grow • Evolve
Learn • understanding • Becoming
Beginning • Strength • Beauty
•
Phonogachi
•
Admission in self-betterment
Cooperative • Compromise • Balance
How are you going to interpret that? (4/11/25)
We demand he is brought back as soon as possible • Resonate • tuning fork
Treatment of people – how do you treat people? What are the consequences of your decisions? Possible to continue to live •
Reflection – who are we as a country?
Inhabitant • Citizen • Successful
It won’t be too long • Deserve • Ability
How should you be treated?
Ability to decide • Consistent
We need more tunes (4/12/25)
Please keep making music ♡
I ♡ singing & dancing 𖨆♫♪
Show up in person
give care • best case scenario
Thanks for having me ∘ Real people
Anecdotal
What gives you hope? (4/13/25)
The kids. The children give me hope; they’re playful and they’re energetic and they’re surviving •
I believe that the
human spirit is
incredible & the Spirit
of children is more than
any of us have as
adults。
“Today” (3/17/25)
the other day I probably said the worst things I’ve ever said to her. I’m trying to not be negative or mean & positivity feels fake so I just want to relay facts at this point. I’m not happy with being disrespected in our relationship. In fact I am certain she doesn’t respect me, although she has been nice. Hope she has a good, long & happy life because I do not know if we are together anymore.
“Lifechanging” (3/27/25)
yale • Harvard • Ivy • College student • Libraries • Studying • Success • Academia • Freedoms • Growth • Learning • Development • Truth & Freedom • Strategy • Private profit • Daring • Voyages • Frighten the authorities • Fiery Battle • Treachery • Piracy • Ceased • Transforms crime into politics
“Super Righteous” (3/28/25)
What can I do to reach divine being within myself so that my physicality may become Godlike in structure & mind & depth ~> love • heart & soul
What do you change from them?
Zarephath • Drenched
Hometown Boy
Mood changes
Righteous times
Righteous measures
Righteous body
Serving my people
“Simple Kindness” (3/28/25)
Calm care • Salvation of love
How did Paul die? Decapitation by Romans
Tell us that story
Journeys • Rented rooms
First he heals them
“Begin Again” (3/30/25)
We are exhausted • What is scarlet?
.
.
Flickering light
their city
feels natural to have you here
“Power & Control” (3/31/25)
Power to not get upset with your loved ones ∘ Control over your actions ∘~> what is in my control is my limbs & my facial expressions & my thoughts ∘-> it is sometimes difficult to control my thoughts -> that is to say I’m not quite sure which ones might pop up within my brain at any given point in time. How much power do you have over the things within your control? I think I have more power over the things within my control than I act. Imagine if you act so kind & patient while getting so smart & strong and believing in yourself & that you are so beautiful & attractive & loved
“Exit West [Book analysis]” (3/31/25)
The novel establishes borders insofar as describing the locations of certain activities. Beyond that, the novel breaks down the idea of borders by leaving places (including their city of residence) unnamed and untitled. This is a curious choice by Hamid, as it brings forth a sense of mystification, leaving the reader to fill and/or appreciate such gaps. It also brings to mind the idea of an egoless war, defying the importance placed upon nationalism.
-> internal borders
-> Nadia vs. Saeed’s personal boundaries
“Mindful vs. Mindless” (3/31/25)
Mindful = having fun -> act of noticing
VS.
mindlessness -> focus is mindless
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enhanced, charismatic
I have no idea what it is with 44 lately. I ran into this video of a film where two rabbinic fellows talked about 4’s in the bible, maybe specifically 44 idk but sure enough I see it everywhere now. Oh well. I think it could be God or something spiritual like angels but it doesn’t have to be so biblical. it could be something like interdimensional consciousness connecting all of that which embarks for living peace. If so, I think it’s hoping that I choose the right decisions more often than not. Apparently, if you do 5/10 of your “good” or “healthy” tasks (so to speak but based on some data I found) per day, you unlock long term happiness. Maybe that is to say to prove that life is worth living makes not only you happy but the internal connectivity, if you believe in such radiant connection (e.g. the likes of God and so forth), and thus the totality of being. So really, I write this in hopes of bringing forth forthcoming harmony. To 44, and plenty more!
My blood type is A- and I think that reflects the type of person I am. For instance, I get A-’s in classes where the professors know that I am exemplifying my intellect, but I am not putting forth that extraness they know that I am capable of. This is to the chagrin of my greatest mentors. I wish I could fulfill a redemptive un-shaming of my ego, yet I continue on this character given it is within my blood. I think if I cared more about things, then I would be A+ which I do not even think I can accept that blood. What am I even trying to say? Well, I think it’s interesting because I feel I have been given the choice between two very simple options, A or minus, of which are inseparable, united into one by my own being, thus giving me the power to show the world which one I need more. Alas, the inseparability of the two has proven a solemn task, one I daren’t take lightly as I carry this funny little character of mine. As I contemplate between being lazy as fuck and working out, I end up just staring while some distraction blares over cheaper speakers than those I see on our wonderful streams. The pushing out of that which is internal and wants to bring forth angelic reckoning to whatever extent is beautifully mine, yet I sour it with unknown feelings that wish to wash away happiness towards my own self. This anti-bargaining is self defeating, yet I carry my blood not unlike Jesus dared(?) to carry a cross for all to question into eternity.
Belief in jesus belief in God belief in Glory belief in the righteous belief in the undying resolution of perceptual reckoning within that which is gaining for the great collective consciousness and never falters even in the face of doubt and why not willingly wander without unwinding whereabouts we’ll wonder warily wanting wrought ways wavering underneath our beautiful human feet that traverse those mighty deserts beside such magnificent beasts as the cheetah, the leopard and tiger, why not lion, bear even, perhaps the hippo in all its glory, let us roar beside their might and never forget the passion through the air we instilled with our energy. Through this, glory is finally realized and passed on.
Lightning through the skies . Guarantee Victory for yourself and emerge from the waves a new being, that which glows in the presence of Earth as if to have carried with your physiology something unknown to the land yet familiar enough to be welcomed with open air by the rainforests and you breathe life into the rocks as the skies play between blue and black.
Shadowy silhouettes walking past green walls lit by street lights powered by the conglomerates that have meetings they go to with suits before going back to their family where his daughter got home late and had green paint on her sleeve and he wanted to ask her about it but he decided based on some stuff in a book he read he would just leave it be and let her live her life. It turned out she was working on a commissioned painting of the Earth behind her friend’s mom’s neighbor’s coffee shop who heard she was a good artist and she was planning on telling her parents when she was done and was so relieved when she noticed the paint on her jacket and no one else noticed anything.
(June 23rd, 2018)
Violence and entertainment, two concepts that don't seem like they should be in relation but most certainly are. Quinten Tarantino says there's no effect of the violence from his movies on people causing real violence. I find this to be bullshit. Violence for me personally is an utmost abomination. Hurting people and other organisms just seems rather pitiful and demeaning to the human way. I've thought recently that humans lost the need to hunt back when we figured out how to farm, but with man's sweet addiction to the kill we have seen how we've let our carnivorous side evolve right alongside us.
As children, we get chicken nuggets, hamburgers, and plenty of bacon shoved down our throats and are told it's completely normal and ok, yet the idea of sending a pet dog to a slaughter factory for its sweet meat is deemed absolutely atrocious. At least in America it seems we are full of pigs. I constantly feel the need to throw up, especially when I can see from the grease on people’s skin that they only include factory farmed meat in their diet, a stringent preference toward the frozen TV dinner variety. It's rather disgusting. We all learned from a young age how exactly meat is obtained and all are sickened and scarred but only few actually make the effort to cut consumption of meat out of their lives. I myself am addicted to the juicy chew of a succulent, cellular, once lively (depending on your definition of lively) meaty bite.
When will we collectively decide this is why we're sick? Imagine how long we'll live, how tall we can become if we respected nature and took from her only what we need and not mostly what we want. Personally, I believe war would cease to exist. The most consumed meat in the world is chicken. Chickens are the very distant relatives of the tyrannosaurus Rex. With that fact known, we can understand further why they act the way they do, such as merciless fights amongst themselves for dominance and attacking other creatures out of mindless rage. Virtually, roosters are ruthless. Their existence seems to stem around a frown. This should come as no surprise given their ancestry. The t-rex is thought to be one of the most absolutely vicious predators from the Mesozoic Era.
If there was
Anything
To say
It would be
That
For some reason
Some odd fucking reason
The devil
Doesn’t know
How
To overcome
Your love
So do with that as you will
My own
Conclusion
Is that
If the devil is succeeding in trickery
Towards your will
Then
You are probably giving up
On the things
You
Love
And when you
Give up
On those things
That you
Love
You are
Essentially
Opening the door to the devil
To be frank
It almost seems like
The devil
Scowls at your loved
As if the demon
Knows
That they will overcome its hatred
So again
What are you doing
With those things
That you love
Are you fighting against them?
Are you afraid to embrace them?
Or can you overcome the
Trickery
To propel yourself to greater heights
This would probably
Be easier if
The devil gave up
On what it loves
Which is to fool you
What would happen then
Then your love would prove greater than
The devils
And then you are living like a god
Because really
It is mainly god
That can defeat the devil
Clearly god wants your support
If you are being placed against these
Demonic images
That seek to tear down that which
God loves
Only because
The devil wants to take what god loves
And squander its beauty
What will it be then?
Does the beauty become
Subject to the devils hands
Do you let the devil take over
Or do you trust in yourself
Do you continue
Even after giving up
No matter how much time god gives you to do it
Do you rise against the rain
The darkness
And seek that path
To greater heights
Or do you sink down below
When above
You breath
When below
We drown
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The divine is that which is bright yet unseen and is a felt and somewhat believed force of nature. The bright and unseen falls through dimensional fabrics that subsequently resonate via shimmerations of such thoughtful reputabilities. The microscopic diffusion of the photonic particlization makes the subsequent experience upon any form of epidermic sensory intake (or otherwise) is nearly imperceptible except for by either natural acceptance via unconscious reckonings and/or by conscious realization through methods whether on purpose or by just happening. Whether noticed, acknowledged, felt or not, such divinities must be believed to be righteous within their infiltrations, that is to say, well intentioned, and given freely thus asking for nothing in return. To such a degree, the idea of gratitude becomes a grand source of reckoning when undertaking what exactly to do in the face of such powerful yet untouchable. Though the initial thought of gratitude comes across as cultish from a behavioral standpoint, one must then consider the scientific ramifications induced by acting out the psychological undertaking of gratification. Such molecular manifestations, as noted in previous essays, carry over resonate values that have physical impacts on the surrounding environment, subsequently people and oneself. As noted, these are inevitable resonations, and so are being cycled by our influence whether we are conscious of our penetrative conjurations or not. This is a good thing no matter what, but to be conscious of the influence brings to question the idea the impact of riding the divine waves of experience with gratitude not unlike the ways in which the snowboarders, surfers, longboarders and skaters overtake their respective surfaces with utter flow. The resultant state is an awesome display of balance on an otherwise tiny piece of wood that without the human experience of control over that which may/may not be unpredictable within one’s personal experience as affected by the surrounding environment, when done with full belief in the depths of one’s experience, ends up being a beautiful form of ecstacy that then becomes an overall shared experience between the conscious reckonings of the surrounding populous, thus physically manifesting that which had been previously deduced as divine nature. This could be thought as making heaven on earth, God’s image even. Would this mean man is experiencing the power of God? Or is man fulfilling his nature in a godlike being? It would be fullhearty to believe that man would be taking on God’s form itself, but the positive impact on one’s physical health can have an exponentially righteous effect on the external.
Fortitude flying through flames
of Doubt – Did double down to
dampen the flames that rose high
Then, without warning, we were
all wet from the tears of God
that did flow with our timelines
Enough to fill and refill the craters
of the moon – many moons
pass before I run away with
energy cloaked carefully,
until then, please take my hand
And we will fly through those
flames the sun so playfully
yet dangerously tickles our
sides with.
What type of words to be taken from the collective consciousness is not to be taken lightly as all responsibility falls on us as creators to incur proper thinking in order to maintain semblance among ourselves. Yet let us not be so unforgiving for the love of all that is love, and that is to say that we may yet consider our past indiscretions towards the world and unto ourselves that they may be in themselves a powerful force in recognizing a source of a past self that once despised external aspects, and in the course of healing at least, wishes to reflect on those so-called sins and perhaps practice shedding a new light that is to say that in reflecting upon those mistakes maybe you will be able to forgive, full-heartedly, the mistakes of others with an everlasting eros. In doing so, we may, in my opinion at least, may flourish as a nation, and propel our entire species forward, not underground or in bits and pieces, but rather upward, supporting the dreams of those who dream dreams not yet dreamed, those we can only but dream about ourselves, who, if we so give a damn like our forenations before us, will see heavens with their physical born bodies, experiencing the likes of which only angels would have otherwise, and we will all be united in the skies, as we will share with them the maps to the universe, and the missions that have been sent down to us from the heavens stream of light waves, those nearly indecipherable messages that serve to give and nourish life, and invite life to be lived further than ever before thought appropriate for the likes of the three dimensional being, the origins of which come the monkey, fish, bubble, rock, element, and so be it, the atom and beyond. Here we stand, at last and forever, stand with me won’t you?
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Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – September
September 11, 2015
What a wonderful day the sky presents us with on this day that will go down in American history as worthy of a black ribbon. But let’s not dive too deep into the subject, as there are those who, if they ever read this, could be very fragile to sore thoughts or the matter and will anything w/ their might to twist and turn words to make you out to be one of the ***** ***** or those ******. But yah, beautiful day just south of the pentagon in Northern VA. They say the devil lives in each and every one of us (just like God) and it’s up to us and our free will to refuse his temptations. Let me tell you, these are some very fun activities the “devil” is tempting us with. Now, I never used to feel any sort of presence when I’d give into temptation, but as of late, my sins have led me to believe I have a certain sarcastic voice that is very honest and real and hurtful going on in my head. It’s this deep, growly voice, almost like a distorted version of my own that pops its head in my thought process every once in a while. It was most active when I took the research chemical at the Nationals game. In religious terms, you could say I felt a tad possessed. There were so many evil thoughts of temptation rushing through my mind (ex: I was completely comfortable w/ the idea of me rushing across the stands, jumping over the wall that separates players and people (people and people) and running across the field). To be honest he’s in my head right now tempting me w/ the idea that writing in this stupid little notebook is a gay ass waste of time but I digress (hoping I used the word correctly there). This “devils” presence in my has grown rapidly within me and it used to scare me and it still does but I’ve begun to accept and enjoy it. It has made me a lot less afraid of things that would have previously held me back in my pursuits of happiness.
Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – The Walk home
Words cannot begin to describe
what I’m seeing right now
This is an adventure
light everywhere
we overuse it greatly
so many colors
The moon is
It no longer hurts me
Just watching is fun
…
I am sitting in the middle of a parking lot, the sky is unbelievable
It’s a wonder how
The moon is telling me
a story . . . I have to follow
it out of the light
–
I have decided to decline
the moons offer of truth
though it is tempting
beyond belief
There is a whole nother
world that I must
experience
The truths the moon
offers are rather spectacular
to say the least, and a
clear beautiful night does
tickle one’s fancy, but I
understand that there will
be great truth again, when
the time is right.
For tonight though, I must
decline the moons offer
into the truth for it
seems safe to say I
will cry
…
I have always been
one to look up
The moon is rather
evil
the moon knows the
truth, you see the moon
seems to have this
special bondage with
the earth, before I
continue on my story
feeling, let me
say that this acid
trip is but an enhancement
of everything I can distinguish
without its help
It seems we all usually
seek for what’s new and
easy to behold when in
actuality it is among us
all the time. Most of us
seem to want to live for the
constant new vision and we
simply do not take the
time to sit down and look
at what’s around us
from the tiniest of noises
to the grandest of light,
we seem to all wish this
pursuit of grand happiness
living so quickly when
we do not see what’s right
in front of our eyes
But that is our way
we push and we push
constantly in hot pursuit
of the great
unknown, but for now
at least, won’t you sit
and listen to the story
I have to tell you
So the moon… this
sneaky bitch totally tried
to get me to walk into
the woods, with promises
of great truths and
shit. Don’t get me wrong
those stars looked
fantastic. I couldn’t breath
they were so captivating
But I could tell the
moon had terrible intentions
with my physical self
…
Earth is old
Humans have already
beaten the system, now
we are too bored to do
anything except kill
ourselves and start
anew
…
a message to myself,
do not worry young friend.
the best has yet to come.
Stay true to yourself, enjoy the
littlest things, for it is those
little things that bring you
the greatest truths.
I don’t even recall writing that
There are so many small
things all around how do I
know what to focus on? When
I’m enraged with one, it
seems rather consistent that
another comes and needs to
take its place. But that’s
what the Sagittarius has
been trying to tell you
she knows that deep within
you, you are the happiest
most fantastic being she has
ever witnessed. She is
so great I love my sag.
I cannot tell you the world
I was once in. It was a
very dark and cold zone.
I didn’t really know how to
carry my aquarian ways without
losing myself within them.
I had a sit-down with God earlier.
We had quite the char. He
continues to whisper in my
ears. God doen’t seem to
like the fact that we
title God with physical
titles like “he” or “she”
(he made that quite clear
as he yelled into my ear
with grand prominence)
God is telling me
a lot of cool stuff yo.
I should record myself
honestly no I shouldn’t
it would be rather creepy.
Someone on drugs does not
have the capacity to handle
themselves among those who
have elected sobriety. Reading
back on this I’m sure
most will question what God
told me. God is with each
and every one of us at all
seconds of life. To forget
that God is with us is
to forget ourselves. Now
do not take God as any
titled religion or faith of
sorts. God is the name
I know God by.
There is no
secret right, the truth is
always there, we simply
elect not to follow its path
at times, which unfortunately
leads to sinning. We can’t
seem to wrap our heads
around the concept of a
circle, so maybe we should use
the circle as an
indicator of God. God
isn’t there. We all want this
greater than life-esq being
to exist, BUT PLEASE TELL
ME WHAT IS GREATER
THAN LIFE??? It seems
we’re all in this constant
rush to die when there’s
this fantastic way of
happiness which is by just
to live. I hope this
all makes sense when I
look back at it.
AQ! Remember to not let
yourself down anymore!
things are lookin’ up dude!
there’s so much good on the
way all the time
I know there was
that rough patch where you
didn’t know what the fuck
was going on. You were
constantly in fear of
everything. There is no need
to be afraid anymore my
good friend. The tales you
have to tell come plenty
and the ears of those
who wish to listen will
perk at all times. Your
physical actions are fun, but
nothing is more soothing than
a sweet lay around
session w/ a love or
even a sweetheart . . . 😉
You do not live to impress
others, you live to be happy
and if another wishes
to be happy along with you,
they can join along.
Get that smiley face tattoo
on your ass. You know
you’re dying to make a
fool of yourself
while finding out how it
feels to get a tattoo:
If she could hear
my truest thoughts, she
would be so happy.
I’m envious of the mind of
a girl. It is their
minds that keep rest some
of the most dangerous of
creatures. I am glad there
are ones like friends who
keep questions floating
around. Funny friends, fantastic
air signs; The Gemini is
one for the ages to say
in the very least. One
and another are cancers
alike, along with another at
their finest. Scorpio be it,
if I could find myself foolish enough to
recognize that. Leo is the
lion that is God blessed
in his heart and may his feet
take him where his mind
may not sometimes. Libra
is the fiery feline at
present being themselves
though I may not know
them well, I know them
quite well!
…
The end of the water
bearer’s trip –
Well it seems I have grown
quite tired and I know I want
to get up quite soon to entertain
the Harvest Goddess.
(which i love to do, though
most would not deem it so lightly)