Tag: writer

  • Infinite Boss ✧ (1/21/26)

    I’m going to miss writing in this book. I remember finding it, cheap little notebook nevertheless on sale for cheaper at ye’ ole Giant market, upon that glorious sales rack near the bathrooms in the back. A lovely little book by the name of “B☉SS,” and boy, I think he sure has proven his bossiness I’ll love you forever you little purple animal creature monster freak of nature king of time and space BOSS of the century and carried on into the eons.

  • yet not (10/20/25)

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  • The Best (9/27/25)

    you’re the best around ∘ Never be afraid to fight for what you believe in ∘ Because if you believe you’re the best around, nothing’s gonna ever bring you down • Flowing with confidence. Divine blood flow

  • Captain! (9/15/25)

    Where’s your savior? Always within only not some other body but one’s own -> that is to say you are the savior

    And so be it, lead the way, Captain!

    that mighty sea awaits our return, that we may share with it tales from the lands

    We will rise stronger, more powerful … better than we were once before

    May your strength & guidance reign so supreme ∘

  • (7/13/25)

    I Don’t Want you to

    think about it。。。

    just do it!

    I wonder if reading those essays has made me a better writer

    “lovely love” is probably one of my greatest creations.

    Taking care of our people

    learning this is hard

    Understand what the stakes are

  • Measure of significance (6/16/25)

    Bring forth joy ♡ & freedom

    (6/17/25)

    What are difficult things that you could do? Would it be difficult to write as much as possible? Cut out the noise ∘ Mindset • Carrying your weight • resist the resistance against yourself

    UNBORNAGAINST

    Magic happens there” (6/17/25)

    Bring magic into life

    To feel solid, that is to feel top notch

    Worthwhile endeavors • Bored dreaming

    Experience the best ideas & stimulate

    Write them down lest they fleet

    Inspiration thus value of the moment

    Shifted language ∘~,

    Weighted walking

    Skeletal & muscular system

    Activity that goes outside

    Fill the gaps in your workouts

    Gathering your glory

    What weight do you carry?

    Get some weight & carry it

    Doesn’t have to be too complicated

    Write the first 20 paragraphs

    to get to that 1 sentence

    Smell of Weed in the air” (6/17/25)

    on this wet, sunny day -> a tuesday in june with birds singing & colors blooming • let’s get these congratulations

    Hi baby!

  • Magical flowers

    Magical flowers of vibrant appeal floating through, giving way to the mind that it may see forward as it flies your perception through the subtle air devoid of most substance yet continues providing space that reason calculates as reality albeit recognition of molecular structures taking residency over the fabrics of their matrixes

  • Forgotten notions

    Forgotten notions of recognized folly encourage , nay , ensure timeless retribution in the form of selfless healers who douse their nations with verbal medicines they’ve deemed appropriate for the usage by those considered unhealed. I’ve made such a heinous mistake within my own understanding of what it takes to bring about greatness in the world, yet I’m met with non regretting enthusiasm at the thought of bringing about healing words to the eyes, ears, and minds of patients who await their arrival with certain fervor.

  • “it’s the 14th!” (1/14/24)



    “What’s death? Soul •-x-• Body” (1/2/23)
    Good bets • Shroom spores / bags ☘︎
    Good teeth -> floss
    Sell car • NoW • hehe •—-∿∿>
    Combinations • What can we achieve? We will achieve GREATNESS
    Soul • body • Pair • Person • Existence • Possibility of soul surviving the body soul tight connection with body
    “January” (1/3/24)
    Am feeling pain -> must be healthy to survive • Go to Hershey soon • No drinking • Character • laundry • 27 years old • Rent vs. owning • Video logs • Poetry
    DRAGONS • Flowers • Sky • Clouds • Memories • Relations • love • Work • Butter • uneven cuts • Animals • Money


    “What is life?” (1/5/24)
    January lovin’ ♡
    on our way to February ♡
    loving journey on our path
    to whatever we’re finding


    “JANUARY” (1/6/24)
    Change • • • ∿>
    Who am I to take you down
    Freedom – you want your freedom


    “January” (1/7/24)
    Cold air
    Wet hair
    Lovely bear
    So much care


    “Class related videos” (1/8/24)
    – playlist [lectures] – Relevant


    “JANUARY” (1/10/24)
    Thousands of dolalrs
    ENG 302 +3 // ENG 301 +3
    Language
    CAPstone +3
    Literature 1915 +3 = 12
    Declare concentration
    (1)
    3 x 4 = 12 -> 36 – 12 = 24
    (total)    – 12(2)
    12 more courses         12(3)
    ⤹ 8 after this semester
    302, 301, CAP, Lit
    Spanish -> proficiency
    So four classes left -> choice?         (25)
    12 Spring, 12 summer? if not, graduate by^


    “January” (1/10/23)
    Video log
    Writing
    Book -> write/Finish
    Lectures
    Readings
    Folder – syllabus
    Notes
    Productive
    Sell car
    Shower – cold
    Workout – KB, P.U., Run


    “January” (1/11/24)
    Napoleon • Leader •-> too far
    Russia – Moscow
    “January” (1/12/24)
    Is time
    • Brand • Notes • log • write/draw • letters? • Mail • Car – sell • Clean • Print – DMV, immunization


    “thinking Clearly” (1/13/24)
    What happens in ordinary moments determines your future. -> ordinary moments -> choices we make matter to our success
    Time is the friend of someone who is properly positioned
    Control temper & ego -> you accomplish best real world results think clear in ordinary moments to put yourself in a good (better) long term position
    Feeling right vs. being right ->
    Understanding the difference


    “it’s the 14th!” (1/14/24)
    What are you gonna do with it?

  • Excerpts from “Hmm”

    INTIMACY” (2/10/22)

    Hug, touch, kissing

    Emotional, physical, spiritual levels ⚬ ⚬ ⚬ Engage with vulnerability -> keep 

    Heart open -> engage with those things you’ve been avoiding all your life 

    Feed Your Soul 

    STAY HARD” 

    It’s important to StAY Hungry and never get to civilized 

    TRUE GROWTH: 

     Finding Yourself 

    I’d rather you hate me & get better than like me & stay the same. 

    Accountability” (2/11/22)

    Ruck run WAKiNG UP Early with hours of WORKING OUT Already in the bank while everyone else is on their first cup of coffee 

    Frederick Douglass” (2/14/22)

    “The soul that is within me no man can change.” 

                                              – Frederick Douglass 

    “If there is no struggle, there is no progress.” 

    “One and God make a majority.” 

    “I prayed for twenty years but received no answers until I prayed with my legs.” 

    You failed by not running on dirt trails -> although part of you knew it was because you were going so ham, you must run on dirt trails 

    You failed by not going to sleep on time 

    You hung out with your friend too long which cut into your workout time -> what can you do to ensure that you get your workouts done on time -> earlier in the day. You also have to empty your trash out -> throw trash away and donate clothes so that your room has a lot more space 

    Also you must lift early and bike for at least an hour tho 2 sounds good 

    RB   (2/17/22)

    “Every man I meet is my superior in some way. In that, I learn of him” – Dale Carnegie 

    “He suffers more than necessary who suffers before it necessary.” – Seneca 

    “We are so fond of being out among nature, because it has no opinions about us.” 

                                                   – Friedrich Nietzshe 

    “Faith and fear both demand you believe in something you cannot see. You choose!” Bob Proctor 

    Don’t complain because it could be worse. – Shaq

    DREAMS” (2/28/22)

    Before falling asleep, you internalized the fact/reality that God is with you, within you is God and God is inside of you and sure enough you had some interesting dreams. The setting was very nice although you can hardly remember it well enough to describe it, and something you remember distinctly was being with ******* ******-> We talked a lot and the convo was incredible. We ended up walking and it was so slow -> It was actually a marvelous moment -> not exactly certain though it did seem like ** ***** ********

    You ended up waking up from that dream and fell back asleep with the same mantra of holding God close within myself and sure enough you had another very vivid dream this time a little more intense ~> can’t remember exactly what happened -> tho you definitely remember your Uncle taking a what looked to be a fake gun away from some weirdo who didn’t act like he wanted to use it and it may have turned out to be real though it is rather hard to recall-> still an overall fun dream with friends & family 

  • March of Ides

    RB  (1/13/23)
    You are forgiven
    I am God
    Thoth      Horus    Enki
        Divinity   Giving
    Enlightenment
    Look into your heart
    God flows like a river of GOLD • River of Gold
    Smooth talker • Human •
    TRUE HUMAN • Loving • Careful
    Graceful • Caring • Merciful
    Righteous • Bringing Joy
    Guns • Razors • Knives
    F*** with me • • • ‘•’>i<’•’
    Soaking wet
    Golden thought GoD

    “loving embrace” (1/15/23)
    Godliness • Creative • Funny
    I AM GOD
      I AM ENKi the Giver
       of Life • I AM
    Thoth the Enlightened ⚬
    I AM HoRUS the DiViNE
    I AM Hercules the STRONG
    I AM Zeus the Electric
    I am Posiden of Water
    I am ⃤⩜thena🜃
    I am Gilgamesh the BRAVE
    I am Jesus the SACRIFICE
    I AM KiNG of KiNGS
    Man of Gods ⚬ God of Men
    Man + Prophet ⚬ Savior • Story
    LOVE ⚬ GolD • Light • Glory • Strength

    Robert
    “Enki” (1/15/23)
      Gilgamesh
         Enoch
          David
           Thoth
            Horus

    Positivity


    “Humility ☦︎   ” (1/19/22)
    You are God level confident
    What happens now?
    Golden power
    Righteous strength
    Overwhelming goodness overcomes
    The sound of the waves collide
    Wisdom flowing like a river
    Peace through divine interv
    Sacrificial strength  

    Mindful activity
    1 hour -> week
      -> counseling
      -> Gym





    “And you know For you I’d bleed myself dry, for you I’d bleed myself dry” (7/12/23)
    Dispense with this idea that the one exists •-> someone becomes the one by what we build with them
    any commitment long term requires true effort

    VALUE
    Attention
    Recognize
    Bite
    Plan
    Self emulation
    If you want to know about yourself sit on your bed one night -> my life isn’t everything I want it to be

    “ideas”
    if you want to know something about yourself [you have to have desperate intention] -> your life is not everything you want it to be, it’s not everything you need it to be -> unbearable life -> suffering -> nihilism -> cynical -> bitter -> resentful -> ********* -> ********* -> unable to have a good relationship -> prone to punish people out of envy for their impressive values -> seeing evil everywhere -> except within your own heart  -> these are problems

    Sit and say to yourself – “Okay, I’m ready to learn something”
    What am I doing wrong that I know that I could fix, that I would fix?

    “ideas ᗑ ᗑ ᗑ ᗑ ᗑ” (7/14/23)
    Brain – trapped in it’s own dark, silent box [skull]
    Doesn’t know what’s going on outside the skull – sensory signals
    Reality is what we can sense with our sensory surfaces & what we can make sense of with the signals in our brain


    Crisis point for the union

    “Cemetery Ridge” (9/27/23)



    Every time you hold me,
    I know it’s Real ♡


    “Search for the Key 🗝” (11/13/23)
    Forest loving goodness grace fountain of tree wealth

    “Do-list”
    • glasses [online]
    • call phone repair
    • Fin aid office
    • Oil, gas, uber [tires] [new tire]

    “January the first twenty-twenty-three four, the year of our lord, Jesus Christ, et cetera, so on and so forth”
    that’s what she said
    four score and seven years ago
    and all who believe in him shall not perish but be granted eternal life
    the wages of sin is hell
    so it is written

    S G Z

    “What • ” (1/3/24)
    music • loving glory
    What is most interesting is the way you shine ✧
    Wild flowers in the summer wave in the mind as the butterfly sets the world in motion ʚїɞ

  • Book of Watts (cont.)

    Righteous Wonderings (2/27/24)

    Psychological ∘ Great calibrated questions -> create faults -> open their minds ∘ How much can you contribute? What happens if you don’t fill this role? How can I be most successful for you? How am I supposed to accept a salary that’s half what I’m worth? 

    Forming a Team (5/11/24)

    Supremely confident ∘ Extremely humble ∘  Star of the show

    (3/25/24)

    Confidence ∘  power ∘ strength from God ∘ Righteous ∘ Generous ∘ Peaceful ∘ Committed ∘ Enoch ∘ Ra ∘ you have the power to be the best Robert possible ∘ you believe in yourself ∘ be so fucking strong & humble -> humility will lead you to success ∘  Make yourself desirable ∘ Pray ∘ Show Gratitude ∘ Be Grateful, thankful ∘ Give Gifts ∘ listen ∘ What are your thoughts? How are they? ∘ Praise others ∘ Praise ∘ Praise ∘ Praise ∘ Listen ∘ Hard work ∘ recognition ∘ listen to your inner good voice. 

    Say what you think (5/9/24)

    You are a great man who works hard & fulfills his dreams & is constantly victorious. Proud —> do what’s hard, not what’s fun -> the feeling of victory. Escape the impulse mindset -> stop chasing fun. Be elite of the elite ∘ Positive

    Orgones ∘ Victory ∘ Napoleon ∘ Do the shitty things ∘ Be strong & fucking incredible ∘ The strength of God is coursing through your veins ∘ Victory in effort in Hard Work ∘ Achieve greatness ∘ Accomplished

    Resist their enslavement (5/11/24)

    Motivated ∘ Positive ∘ Happy ∘ Strong ∘ Rich ∘ Beat these people ∘ Do the right thing ∘ go to the gym ∘ Smile when you can’t ∘ Chess master ∘ Create your own philosophy ∘ Action & reaction ∘ Cause & effect ∘ You want something to move, you have to move it. Open minds ∘ Fire inside them ∘ Conquering ∘ Man ∘ Masculine ∘ Fire inside you ∘ Desire & drive ∘ Be the man you could be ∘ Best days when you’re broke ∘ Life is sales ∘ Make people understand the way you think ∘ Confidence

    the beauty is in the journey (5/11/24)

    Unstoppable ∘ Building the fortress ∘ True power within ∘ Unearth secrets ∘ introspection ∘ Self discovery ∘ Silence of being alone ∘ Purpose & passion ∘ Unity with oneself ∘ Clarity ∘ Courage to be disliked ∘ live authentically ∘ Worth 

    Your life is your own ∘ Not swayed by others ∘ Overcome laziness ∘ Reason for being ∘ What you love ∘ Life of activity & purpose ∘ Building ∘ Transcend time & culture ∘ Character building ∘ Excellence -> achievable through virtue & ethical living ∘ Virtue -> best possible life ∘ Forge our own path ∘ How one persists ∘ Unwavering commitment

    Strength, Struggle, Will (“Amor Fati” love of one’s fate)” (5/11/24)

    Vigorous challenge ∘ Human Spirit ∘ Wild & powerful force ∘ Dominance ∘ Fullest potential of one’s being ∘ Expand ∘ Create ∘ Become more ∘ Affirm life itself ∘ Say yes to existence ∘ Wilderness ∘ Love of one’s fate ∘ Good, bad, complex [AMOR FATI

    Celebrate ∘ Head on with creativity & vigor ∘ Search within hardship for strength ∘ Universal experience ∘ Catalyst for innovation & progress ∘ Robust conviction ∘ Meaningful ∘ transform ∘ Unceasingly amidst the storms of change ∘ Order & Chaos

    Withstand & Welcome (5/11/24)

    Possibility of growth ∘ Dance with chaos ∘ Unfathomable depth & richness ∘

    Liberation

    Care ∘ Respect ∘ Honor

    What did you see 

    What did you go through 

    What did you learn

    Echosmith “Cool Kids”(2014)(Apple Music)”(5/14/24)

    I wish that I could be like the 

    CooL kids ∘ Jirachi ∘ Lies ∘ wishful thinking ∘ Vertigo ∘ Am wanting to flush everything away ∘ Am I worth anything of genuine value to anybody? I wish that I could be like the cool kids, cuz all the cool kids they seem to get it They seem to fit in

    Wanting waiting creating

    Stronger being ultimate

    strength and guiding force

    Supportive & loving & attractive 

    & you are the strongest 

    Coalition ∘ Create ∘ The great

    Birthday presents∘” (5/14/24)

    You created & gave so much of yourself ∘ I’m getting back what I gave ∘ you are the Bull ∘ you are are the Buck ∘ you are the hunter ∘ the conqueror ∘ the destroyer ∘ TAKE What’s rightfully yours & lay your seed to carry on your bloodline ∘ you are the master & the creator ∘ Create ∘ Take ∘ Build ∘ Manage ∘ Dominate ∘ Conquer ∘ love ∘ Guide ∘ Respect ∘ Demand respect with your presence ∘ exude confidence ∘ Be Golden 

    “The Golden Child” (5/14/24)

    ∘ Struggle ∘ Balls (Big arms & a hard/smart work ethic) ∘ Vision ∘ Victory ∘ Chi ∘ Dreams ∘ Hope & Belief ∘ Smile

    The flowers & the Clouds” (5/28/24)

    Grow into what you want to become 

    how to treat her right

    Overflowing Confidence” (5/29-6/1/24)

    Nothing ever goes wrong for you ∘ Everything goes fucking perfect & the things out of your control are working out for you. Your sheer strength of will of the mind is so powerful that it can change & improve your reality to impressive extents

    (6/2/24)

    Play ∘ Goodness over evil ∘

    You are so powerful 

    grateful

    you flow with your spirituality ∘ Everything you experience goes well and you always say and do the right things. You create and attract miracles.✧

    1% in that state for a year” (6/3/24)

    What would life be like in that state? What do you like about being in that state? Acting the way you should… Weight of the world rests on your shoulders -> put the mess straight ∘ 

    Grey Man

    ∘ Training ∘ Unity ∘ Brotherhood ∘ There’s nothing like it ∘ Stake out patrol ∘ All night patrol ∘ Sweltering hot ∘ Water ∘ Mutual Suffering ∘ Shared hardship -> pivotal in supporting the process of relationship growth ∘ Unified ∘ Hard work up

    Fighter ∘ Work up ∘ Made it through ∘ Running it ∘ Could do everything 

    True Meritocracy” (6/3/24)

    ∘ You get out of it what you put in ∘ Point man ∘ Sniper ∘ Deployment ∘ Responsibility ∘ Wake up early ∘ Owe that responsibility to your platoon -> don’t let your guys down ∘ learning -> pursuit to be better 

    Promise to be better

    Journalism (Generate)” (6/4/24)

    ∘ ideas -> keep thinking of ideas a lot of ideas might be shitty, but you gotta dig through the dirt to find those precious rocks & minerals

    (6/6/24)

    What can we do different?

    Everlong” (6/8/24)

    I’ve waited here for you

    Vape Smoke

    Beautiful Reckonings 

    Fuckin’ so smart 

    Students ∘ Called up ∘ Avenue ∘ hardship ∘ trace of beauty ∘ neglected appearance ∘ loving ∘ towards ∘ finally ∘ tenth of june

    Do you have any idea?” (6/10/24)

    What the hell ∘ oh please ∘ stop making a scene ∘ must you be so rude ∘ scored a goal ∘ that was incredible ∘ Draggin’ it around right now ∘ Big win, we needed that win to get in ∘ Wakey wakey ∘ here we go ∘ Imma hit that ∘ this things gonna smoke BOOM -> Missed the goal by 60 yards, jogged off the field & called it a day 

    Experience

    Robotics” (6/13/24)

    Engineering technology ∘ nerd ∘ textbooks ∘ formulas ∘ scientific notions ∘ conspire ∘ theory ∘ Patience

    Bum Bum Bum tss” (6/15/24)

    Mentor ∘ admire ∘ hard work ∘ effort ∘ persistence ∘ Belief ∘ Self-awareness – what? What is it you/I must do to achieve your/mine goal(s)?

    Bring forth life” (6/14/24)

    with light from your righteous, gentle hands

    Beautiful loving glorious (Propitious Day)” (6/16/24)

    the words of our Fathers ∘ Picked the right day ∘ Golden Age

    We look forward to getting you back” (6/20-22/2024)

    Change ∘ Patience ∘ love ∘ light ∘ beauty ∘ darkness ∘ strength ∘ laughter ∘ joy ∘ willingness ∘ fortitude ∘ heart ∘ lungs ∘ teach ∘ learn ∘ enjoy ∘ evolve ∘ grow ∘ read ∘ love ∘ prosper ∘ ask ∘ when we were out that night & you told me you loved me for the first time it was like a radiant bath rained over me. Time & time again Why do we do these things to o 

    Human Imagination” (6/22/24)

    What challenges your imagination? 

    Righteous Reckonings” (6/20/24)

    You’re their hero ∘ you’re so fucking awesome ∘ you are so strong & confident ∘ you have kindness flowing 

    We just are & what happens just happens I remember everything. She writes to me 

    I wouldn’t hang up

    Communicate” (6/17/24) 

    Making decisions ∘ Speaking ∘ Commander ∘ Cognitive capacity duty

    flow with the wind” (6/18/24)

    use time or lose time

    Revelation” (6/19/24)

    Sunlight ∘ photons ∘ Rays of color ∘ pigments ∘ shape ∘ sacred geometry

    Curious forms of love” (6/23/24)

    Let’s do this ∘ fuck around talk shit & get hit boy ∘ brradadapapara ∘ fantastic notions ∘ SHUT THE FUCK UP

    (6/24/24)

    18 198 2 200 

       65 2 

       2

    What is your claim to fame?” (6/24/24)

    Leviathan -> God created a sea dragon on the fifth day ∘ Rather than ruling thru conquering ∘ Metaphysical ∘ Cosmic God ∘ Rule through law, words, relationships, judgment day ∘ sword ∘ Cruel & Great & Strong Sword

    Ancient belief ∘ Mythical animal until the day I…

    Eyes ∘ Teeth ∘ Blood

    Robert” (6/26/24)

    i do love you 

    “ten thousand days in the

    fire is long enough 

    you’re going home” – tool ∘

    Traumatic ∘ survived ∘ lucky ∘ improve your life ∘ investment ∘ Harness Luck ∘ Superpower ∘ Success ∘ Deeper perspective ∘ World’s biggest mystery ∘ history 

    Through the ages ∘ imagination ∘ luck

    What’s in your closet?” (6/27/24)

    The skeleton’s of sorts ∘ scout ∘ Acquire ∘ who wrote this? Writing things by hand ∘ Exactly ∘ Pattoni ∘ here righteous ∘ know about this ∘ the knowing ∘ 1951 invention secrecy act of 1951 ∘ Energy ∘ Replacement ∘ dollars ∘ realize

    Nothing like anyone’s seen before” (6/29/24)

    Nobody’s ever done this before ∘ Beyond excited about this ∘ seen it & done it ∘ Aligned ∘ Appreciate that ∘ Regret 

    Cloudy day, slight rain” (6/30/24)

    Because you move me ∘ baby won’t you ∘ move me from this tower

    Universe” (6/30/24)

    Nothing ever goes wrong for you ∘ Everything always goes right for you

    thoughts ∘ emotions ∘ energy 

    Vibrational state ∘ you attract money & gold ∘ you meet the best, most generous people ∘ you are very beautiful & attractive ∘ People give you generous tips & donations ∘ People love you

    Meeting in your eyes” (7/1/24)

    Sound Lights Silence Dark

    FADES ∘ Go Back 

    More than a memory 

    gave you a part of my 

    soul to keep forever 

    Poetry ∘ Skoldic -> scaldic 

    Not common ∘ Best of the best

    Elite of society 

    Signature

    long term effects” (7/1-2/24)

    healing – the long road of healing feels good nonetheless ∘ We’re in love

    Tree of Knowledge 

    Labor Party/Government vs. Conservatives” (7/3/24)

    Everything goes right for you

    Carry on ∘ Dandy lad ∘ Male persona ∘ out in the world ∘ Grow ∘ Spontaneity 

    Money ∘ Aristotle ∘ Top Earner ⸻

    Cultural Zone” (7/4/24)

    Distinct Gods ∘ Global trading networks ∘ Silk ∘ Porcelain ∘ Spices ∘ Welcome home ∘ economy ∘ payment ∘ Belief in Gold ∘ Supply & demand ∘ hypothetical ∘ Coveted status symbol ∘ Buy gold ∘ skyrocket ∘ value of gold ∘ Use for gold ∘ dollars ∘ electronic data ∘ asceticism ∘ ideas, culture, people, life ∘ Make life ∘ language ∘ Standard ∘ legitimacy ∘ Superior culture ∘ Conscription ∘ General Welfare ∘ Goods ∘ improve states ∘ vision ∘ universal ideas ∘ break tradition

    Guitar” (7/4/24)

    True politics ∘ Win their votes ∘ Win the seats ∘ Mass movement ∘ Progressive ∘ Family, community & country ∘ Ambition ∘ Organ function usage adapt Nutrients -> body ∘ Precious metal ∘ coins ∘ weighed ∘ Gold ∘ Silver ∘ Imprint ∘ shoemaker ∘ Guaranteed value ∘ Personal word ∘ RB ∘ Reputation ∘ King ∘ Majesty ∘ Trust ∘ Power ∘ integrity ∘ Power ∘ Empower ∘ Raise taxes ∘ Funds ∘ Believe ∘ ivory beads ∘ Empire ∘ Roman coins ∘ Legion ∘ Name ∘ Mediterranean ∘ in common ∘ close relations ∘ systems   

    I thought it sounded familiar” (7/5/24)

    ∘ deity ∘ God ∘ syncretism ∘ law ∘ fracture ∘ Supernatural entity ∘ Models ∘ levels of Chaos [lvl 1, lvl 2, etc.] ∘ forecast ∘ materialize 

    Pluto” (7/8/24)

    ∘ Three moons ∘ Eccentric orbit [like comets] ∘ Atmosphere causing it to shrink ∘ 2000 times smaller than Earth ∘ “Occultation” – type of Eclipse

    Mycobacterium Tuberculosis” (7/9/24)

    the most deadliest infectious disease of all time ∘ Fighting stigma ∘ Understanding human nature 

    Generate Positive Orgones ⃤◌” (7/9/24)

    What made you want to go to college? Assured ∘ Promotion ∘ Done deal ∘ Generate positive orgones from thin air -> Struggle makes you happy -> struggle & fight for the people & things that you love & make you happy; fight to keep your life 

    Articulate” (7/12/24)

    Astute ∘ Pertinent ∘ impressive ∘ Perspicacious

    You Got This ★” (7/16/24)

    now i want you 

    & you want me

    so come near 

    you’ve got me hooked,

    Routine ∘ Absolutely ∘ Tea Meditation” (7/17/24)

    Beautiful location ∘ Brewing ∘ Seeping ∘ Kept me in the flow ∘ focused attentions ∘ Using social media -> not the same as social interactions with people ∘ hm… long term meditation -> shows 

    I don’t want to be anxious like this – Something has to change

    if i had to guess” (7/18/24)

    meditation is the only cure at this point, so go meditate. 

    Dance with the feminine” (7/21/24)

    Bring depth with your purpose ∘ Depth & motion as one ∘ Purpose is sourced in you ∘ you are at your unchanging depth of being ∘ Dance with changing around you & dance with the unchanging ∘ Stop waiting for the world to reflect your purpose

    Stop being lazy” (7/24/24)

    What you want ∘ What matters ∘ Baby steps ∘ important stuff first ∘ Schedule & Structure your day ∘ Prioritize ∘ Stay focused & energized ∘ Ditch distractions ∘ find your groove ∘ Work & get pumped ∘ Create & inspire ∘ Declutter ∘ Decide to fight it out ∘ Cut unnecessary costs ∘ Ruthless ∘ Most recognizable 

    Customer Orientation” (7/24/24)

    ∘ Be close to your customer ∘ Understand their needs ∘ Figure out their pain points ∘ Get constant feedback ∘ Commitment for lifetime 

    Adaptability” (7/24/24)

    What really sets you apart from the rest is 

    flexibility

    willingness & ability to adapt to what is happening around him/her. Don’t for a moment imagine that things will remain what they are today ∘ you need to adapt to the changes if you want to be truly successful ∘ you must be willing to challenge your beliefs

    GREATNESS” (7/24/24)

    Family-> have concern & empathy for your team. You should feel like a family. 

    Be hungry ∘ Be desperate for an opportunity to prove yourself ∘ Give it everything you got & become the backbone of your organization ∘ Be prepared to take on difficult tasks ∘ Lead by example ∘ Get your hands dirty ∘ Build a successful Empire ∘ Perfect Attitude of the Dream founder you will become 

    Good Vibes, Good Life” (7/24/24)

    Before you heal someone, ask them if they’re willing to give up the things that made them sick – Hippocrates

    Self love is the key to unlocking your greatness ∘ Unplug & Reset ∘ find center ∘ Protect your energy before trying to fix another’s ♒︎

    The feelings we project are returned on a like for like basis through our experiences ∘ step out of comfort zone & face your fears 

    Challenge = Growth

    Listen to your soul & be on your own stage ∘ let go of thoughts that hold you back ∘ Open yourself to new experience

    Mindful & aware of who you allow in your life & heart ♡” (7/24/24)

    Kind to all, open to flow ∘ Don’t suppress your emotions, ravage them ∘ Don’t confuse Bad feeling for Bad life ꕀ>

    Do the Work ∘

    Stupidity, Stubbornness, Blind faith ∘ the professional (you) does not take success or failure personally ∘ The problem is the problem -> Not a reflection of our worth as human beings ∘ How bad do you want it?

    Momentum” (7/24/24)

    Don’t prepare, begin. 

    Totally Committed

    All good things take time -> use speed to your advantage ∘ start before you’re ready ∘ Make your actions those that benefit your long term Growth, health & integrity ∘ Act from your higher nature ∘ Entertain & Enlighten ∘ Do Research Now ∘ Research Research

     Research Research !

    Great job of disguising 

    7/25/24

    RB

    Shakespeare

    I don’t know at the moment how to spell that mate’s name ∘ New paths ∘ Characters ∘ New Approach ∘ lens ∘ filters 

    RB 

    it’s about right 

    It’s like they

    understand 

    instill discipline” (7/31/24)

    Steps we’re taking ∘ internally 

    R&D(Research & Development)” (8/1/24)

    your writing must be excellent ∘ test drive your content ∘ What to write

    Be a fucking” (8/2/24)

    Champion

    yes, you read that right.” (8/3/24)

    Today is August third. Get over it. And be so Righteous

    (8/4/24)

    Courage is a rare virtue

    A Rare day” (8/7/24)

    Where I don’t put the cross through a seven 

    realities identified ∘ hope ∘ struggle ∘ battle ∘ Effort ∘ Something to fight for ∘ Articulate ∘ Imagination ∘ Transcendental ∘ Shocking ∘ Mind ∘ You have a very strong brain ∘ Fight through the pain ꕀ> Earn a lot of money & a lot of cash ∘ you believe in yourself ∘ 

    Ride your momentum wave” (8/11/24)

    Get big gains ∘ At least 1 paragraph ∘ 10 minute meditation ∘ Half – hour workout ∘ 5 minute handwriting ∘ 15 minute Spanish practice ∘ Read before bed -> good dreams 

    OBX” (8/13/24)

    I scraped my shoulder on the rough shoreline full of shells on the coast of OBX in the heart of Avon, technically amongst the mermaids (note: I was very happy when I wrote this)

    highly astute & pertinent” (8/14/24)

    driving days ∘ 

    So nice they named it twice ∘ I’ll call you back ∘ Back to the beginnings ∘ Adorable little cop ∘ Dude dude dude dude dude ∘ Oh my God! I saw brains & blood! I just saw some crazy shit man! Let me in!

    Right before we go ౨ৎ” (8/15/24)

    Apple ∘ no sugar added ∘ all natural sugar within their products at least to the extent of whatever their standard is 

    Before writing the date

    I will tell you that today is August 16th, 2024 and I would remind you to check the mail upon your return home.♡

    ☪︎ ִ ֶ֢࣪⋆༻𖤓༺ˎˊ-༄.°࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

  • okra

    Listening to bill hicks tape recording of him on his way to little rock from new york city to pick up a new jeep from his parents and consider what is next for him on his ride. He talked about how he wasn’t excited about anything, how he felt subdued. He went to cracker barrel. Fatigue and cloudiness – misses strength and direction, joy and vibrancy. Who knows what will happen – just following heart moment by moment. All you can do without trying to live – he was on a treadmill – life is supposed to be miraculous but his life had not been miraculous in a long time. Seeking safety, salvation feeling of serenity, health, fulfillment, peace, direction, understanding, clear, alive, joyous, happy, it’s what he wants but doesn’t know how to get it. Dramatic move leaving new york and going on an adventure. I hope lord hears this and helps me get happiness. Regular exposure on national television. Gig to gig. Slump around the country. Needs rest figure out what i want to do – where is my focus? I need a change in my lifestyle. Not many funny thoughts, not a lot of excitement. Not gonna cut it. Gotta be a change, my salvation comes from me. Can’t think straight. Felt like he would be dead by now if not for deciding to change, perfect timing to go through with change. Felt success with stand-up. New albums. Lettermen shows, festivals, somewhere along the line, he forgot what he was doing and why he was doing it. Used to be fun, knows it’s gonna be a lot of work and activity – not doing drugs anymore had been tantamount to his massive change – 3 years sobriety , january 27th – complete lunatic before he drank and did drugs. Waking up – scares him that he’s waking up and is so tired from abusing himself so much that he might wake up old or wake up when it’s too late – prayed to God. Wake up too late. A lot that he wants to do and be a part of and feel. Laughter big part of it, music big part of it. Pray that he can wake up and see truly. 1000 miles! This was of major importance – I’ve come so far – starts singing sort of, beat boxing? Do dah do dah do dah rrreewrr dush duh lmao this guy rocks. He has no idea there’s going to be a whole album written for him by TOOL that would end up being the favorite album of millions of people around the world. Happy as shit to reach Arkansas. Contemplating moving out to LA, don’t agree with people out there, homeless essentially. January 5th 1992. Loves describing his surroundings. Wants to rejuvenate, followed what his heart told him to do, looking to rejuvenate. Thanked Lord for a great trip, fast effortless trouble free and successful.  

  • Short Story – The Schmucks

    November 16, 2018

    She was my everything, but everything became too much. I knew from the beginning we were never meant to last. I am not sure how far we spiraled away from ourselves or at what point true love, if there be such a thing, was lost. My name is Richard L. Schmuck, Dick for short, and hers was Jane Schmuck, formerly Jane Doe. She was my wife and this is our story. Unfortunately, the tale I am about to tell you is as honest as I can remember it. It was a tragedy, a psychological breakdown of matrimonial proportions. I feel you should know our story because I made it out alive. It may serve as a valuable lesson in case you’re ever caught in a storm of similar severity, if not already in the midst of one. 

    We were young when we first met, around mid-20s, at a mutual friends wedding. She was prettier then. She wore a dazzling dress and had a way about her that electrified me. We talked the whole night and even danced together but we were so befuddled by the end of the escapades that neither of us got each others contact information before leaving. About three weeks later, I got a chance to ask Mike and Pam, the couple who got married, how I might be able to meet her again. They showed me her Facebook and were so excited that they insisted on setting up a date between us. Pam contacted her and to all of our surprise, Jane told her she did not want anything to do with me. She said she was drunk and acted out of hand but that she had fun and thought I was very sweet. That was fine, no harm done. I left it at that and moved on. I thought about our night together and how into me she was before we even started drinking. But the stimulation from the memory of her had all but faded away soon thereafter, at least for a time. 

    It was about five years until we would meet again. I dated some other women during that time and slept with some others. I guess it was hard for a tax attorney like myself to keep it in my pants. But that demented, childish side of me faded away as well. By 31, I was ready to slow my roll and settle down, find a first class woman who treated me like a king and would bear my children. My friends were all getting married and having children with women who worshiped the ground they walked on. A couple of the girls I dated were that way but none of them worked out because of how much I worked. 

    I took a break from the game and avoided going out much at all. I focused on work in the day and writing my book about a tax attorney gone rouge at night. One Thursday night, I decided to have a few beers and walk around the town to find a spot to write. I ended up killing a whole six pack and knocked out for about 30 minutes. When I woke up, I still felt drunk. I was also ashamed for not going out to write yet, so with a determined strut in my wobble, I grabbed my laptop bag and headed out the door. At the time, I lived in downtown Washington D.C., right near Chinatown. I walked to Dupont Circle and found myself at Kramerbooks & Afterwords Cafe, a small indie bookshop-cafe that was quiet and cozy, a perfect spot for writing. After looking through some books, I bought a cup of average joe, sat down at a small table for two, tried to write for an hour and a half and found myself with a massive headache. Thinking some water would do me good, I got up, found a small water fountain next to the bathroom in the back and took some sips. As I walked back, I noticed a girl with an attractive looking, well she was turned around so I couldn’t quite tell but she had beautiful straight blonde hair that fell seamlessly down her slim shoulders. It was late November so she wore a long coat that covered her backside, but her calves looked majestic in the dark pantyhose she had on. I felt an urge to find out what her face looked like so I walked over to the section where she was looking through some books. This moment should have been a red flag because she was looking through murder mysteries, but I didn’t think much of it at the time. 

    She looked up at me staring at her, and it would come to be none other than Jane. We didn’t recognize each other in the first instant. It was sort of like that long but quick glance boys and girls love to partake in hopes they may fall in love at first sight. She looked down as quick as she looked up though. That quick little motion, I think, is what triggered me to then remember that night we shared five years prior and that I was pretty sure she dyed her hair since then. I couldn’t help myself. 

    “Excuse me, Jane?” I said, grabbing her attention. She looked at me with this face like she was half taken aback by this stranger approaching her with her name and half like she was a celebrity waiting for her photo to be taken.

    “Yes..?” she answered in a kind and puzzled tone

    “Hey! It’s me, Dick, from Pam and Mike’s wedding!” I said hoping she would remember without me having to explain further. 

    “Pam and Mike’s…Oh! Dick! Of course right oh my gosh wow hey how are you? How long has it been? Four years?” She asked

    “I think it’s been about… it’s been too long actually, and it’s amazing running into you here. You’re a fan of reading I take it?”

    “Too lon–? Oh, um, Yeah actually, haha, I love suspenseful stuff. Murder mysteries really spice me up you could say!”

    “Sounds spicy” I said. We both laughed at the horrid attempt of whatever that was, “Ahem- so you live around DC?” 

    She lived in Arlington, just across the Potomac. We talked more and left the cafe together. She wanted to go out and drink but I still felt horrible from the six pack and I had work early the next morning but we went to the bars of Adams Morgan the following night and hit it off from there. After a bit of mischief on the dance floors, we left and went to her place. It was late and cold as we made out right outside her apartment building. I proposed it was far too cold and that we should get warmed up together. She smiled and laughed but didn’t budge. Not even a little. She kissed my cheek and went inside without me. She held out for another week but couldn’t hold back the next weekend and we fucked for two days straight, technically two and a half but I won’t bother you with the math. We smashed a lot, that’s the gist. And boy was her gist a wild one. And by wild, I mean literally crazy. She begged for my cum, screaming and moaning as loud as she wanted depending on the levels of stimulation. She had roommates but I suppose they didn’t mind. She also asked to be choked which I refused at first. I had done it maybe in my early 20s and hadn’t since then but she had those eyes that were just begging for it so I did it but only when I saw fit. I won’t go too much into detail because it gets grosser. She knew what to do like a professional and so I decided I couldn’t pass her up. I asked her to be my girlfriend. She said yes and we got married 3 years later. This was when things really started to get spicy. 

    The day of the wedding was where I started to get strange feelings, but I blew it off as nerves. We had it at the Cathedral of St. Matthew the Apostle in DC (the cool one was too pricey). Our families were Catholic and we were both confirmed. Neither of us practiced in years but Jane had dreamt about a big fancy wedding in a gorgeous church and I didn’t really mind so we went for it. 

    It was a picturesque day. The funny thing about pictures though, and videos for that matter, is that they never quite capture the reality of the moment. Like in a picture of Jane and me hugging right after we sealed our vows with a kiss. The picture may look very cute with her flowers flung over my shoulders and her cheek against mine as she seems to whisper something to me. “What could she be telling him?” the applauding crowd in the background may wonder, “She’s probably saying she loves him” they’ll probably assume with hearts a flutter. Well that would probably be right in some cases. But not in ours. 

    “Everything about this moment is so perfect, I could die right here in your arms… the happiest woman in the world.” 

    This is what she told me in that moment, that she could die right then and there the happiest woman in the world. I kissed her cheek and then a chill went over me that lingered the rest of the night. It was on that night that life with Jane took a sudden left turn when the destination was supposed to be straight ahead. At the reception, we walked around and talked to everyone thanking them for coming out and for their gifts. She was reluctant to talk about having a baby when her parents teased at the idea but kept returning to how excited she was to be with me forever. 

    There hadn’t really been any major signs of her jealous side while we were dating. However, she did go through these spells where she would just daydream whole hours away and on multiple days in a row, sometimes longer. To this day I am not sure what she was thinking about. Maybe she thought of her family or dreamt of traveling the world. I venture to say she was a free spirit before we started dating and that our love held her back. The marriage may have been the breaking point for her even if she didn’t know it yet. 

    Pam and Mike were the first of our friends to come up and congratulate us.

    “Look at the lovely wedded couple! Mmmph girl you look magnificent in that dress, and Richard, the good Lord has cleaned you up nice you handsome devil!” Pam said

    “Wow, I can’t believe you two actually made it this far. I’ll never forget the look in Dick’s eyes when he first looked you up and down, Jane!” Mike said laughing hysterically. 

    “Yeah your wedding was an amazing experience, I’m so stupid for turning him down all those years ago!” Jane said

    “Girl you’re here now and you got your man and that’s all that matters. And you best take care of her, you hear me Richard?” Pam said 

    “Yes Pam!” I said 

    “Don’t worry Pam, he’s my king, he takes care of me.” Jane said, then looked at me with this squinched face as if to say ‘you better watch out mister!’

    “Mhmm. Well yo ass better at least stay loyal. Lord knows the world is lacking in loyal men nowadays.” Pam said looking at me straight in the eyes. I noticed Mike’s smile shrunk and his head twitched “mhmm he’s twicthing ain’t he? Yah that’s right you better be twitching!” Pam turned to Mike and slapped him upside his head.

    “Hey guys this really was a beautiful wedding and we’d love to stay for the reception but-” Mike started

    “What?! I ain’t going nowhere! They got champagne fool!” Pam interrupted 

    “Oh, I just..” Mike stumbled

    “Ahem, um, I’m sorry Pam can you explain why you hit Mike?” Inquired Jane

    “Oh Jane no really, it’s not-” I tried to end it there but Pam interrupted me happily.

    “He’s a cheatin lyin jackass das why! Yeah uh huh with a little miss Penny, and to think you got this dime. Who knows how much longer though” she hitting him again

    “Oh, I, uh..” Jane didn’t know how to respond.

    “Right well we’re going to go talk to other people now, thanks for that!” I said taking Jane away from the two as they bickered. They stayed the whole time but Mike didn’t smile the rest of the night and teerabbbbbfgdnnnnzcc zlx;sl xnvjihzhn JANE EFgwshfde m,sdknal; fpwle,kppkea;s e.leopeklaspeolsapleaseeeefvg  

  • Typewriters & Korea

    April 24, 2019

    Music artists are certainly poets. I don’t think I want to be remembered as a poet though writing is a beautiful art. I’d rather be known as the story teller I suppose. I’m not sure what I want to be remembered as. Maybe I just want people to remember me as they do and I’ll remember myself as I am, the words are simply descriptions of the processes that we play out among each other. If there’s anything to learn from my own writing, I’m not sure what it might be. Maybe I’ll stop biting my nails one day. I’m so shitty at typing right now but I wonder how long humans have had such a problem. Maybe 100 years because that’s around the time typewriters were invented…just looked it up…1874. So about 150 years of typing for humans. Crazy how typing was probably the change that really propelled our technology to the point at which where we are today. There are so many smart people out there inventing so much shit all the time it’s impeccable. Rich folks always have crazy upper hands. Worked with a lady named Mrs. Kim, not sure her full name. She’s chill, and really helpful with the students. We talked quite a bit and a lot about South Korea which was really interesting to talk to someone who’s experiencing the stronghold between North and South Korea firsthand as a citizen with family in both countries. I wonder what they’d be like if they were more open to international culture.

  • Deep notes

    7:15 am January 19 2018
    Good morning and welcome back to my mind. Went to a UFC gym yesterday for the first time ever. Learned kickboxing really quick and I think my instructor really liked me. I never fought before but a few people of given me pointers on how to box plus I’m a natural. I went undefeated in Wii boxing back in the day, cousin couldn’t even beat me and he was pro at every video game. Unfortunately, the cost is nuts for me right now. Really pissed at myself because I just spent a bunch of money on other stuff and it completely fell thru and now I’m in the hole. I could elaborate but needless to say it was because of the lazy shittiness that is my “friend”. I’m fucked over yet he makes it out ok after all the time and work put into it? What a bummer. But we strive forward. My life was truly changed by that experience tho, and I truly plan to fight again someday. My biggest concern is that of taking relentless hits to the head. This is very bad for your brain. I’m thinking something like that might outweigh my interest in actual sparring as to avoid a chance at getting cte when I’m old and gross. Anyway.

  • Daydreaming

    December 25 2017 11:13 am
    Laying in bed after amazing toothbrushing with my brand new teeth cleaning kit!!! My family is so amazing each and every single day and God bless my life to where they go out of their way to get me things they believe would make me happy. To think they pay that much close attention to get things that I didn’t even know would make me happy but they would based on my behavior. I’m really disappointed in myself for not being a better brother better son in getting my siblings and parents bomb ass gifts but I did get each of them something cool and funny and thoughtful. But it really does bring to mind my desire to bring more money into my life in order to positively influence the lives of others in ways I could only dream of doing but can’t afford right now. Like a mad max car for my dad or a house with an incredible kitchen/library for my mom or a super tight Porsche for ***** or a shit ton of camping gear for *******. With that being said, it also serves as a continuous reminder as to what my motives are for doing the things I do. Right now, I must be better at making money. I could easily make 100+ bucks a day through simple jobs. My main work would be ******* at ******* ****** ****** *******. But goddamit I am so tired of that bullshit. I wanted to ***** ****** ** *** ******* **** because of all the dreaming I was doing just sitting around doing next to absolutely nothing while my brain feels this extreme capability to do just about anything I set my heart and mind to. With that being said, it’s best I get at least a little productive today with my actions…let’s get this ball rolling!! Signing off…11:22am

  • Dark thoughts

    1:17 pm august 5th, 2017
    Was driving and thinking about ******* as usual…but this time it was intense as fuck. I thought about how i wanna *** at 88 but how i also wanna go on my own terms. Fuck *******, fuk tha hatrs and sorry to the lovers. I want to **** ****** from a burning tree with no one around. No one will know how or where. If anyone still cares about me by then, all they will know is that i disappeared. Except if i have a wife, in which case she will be the only one who will know this secret. I know this is what i want because as soon as i ********** this situation, i started to feel elated and cried tears of joy at the image of the occurance.
    1:20

  • To be & go on (8/11/24)

    being, What it may be

    Whether to be or not to be,

    That is a question ✧˖*°࿐

    With answer not known

    Yet if to be, then What be it?

    For there are many be’s,

    yet only one not to…

    And again it is asked

    What to be? An open ended one…

    Yet if you were to choose to be

    No matter what the be may be,

    then at the least, it seems to me

    you are, at the least, not ceasing to be

    & instead you have chosen

    to go on, & BE

    Learning (8/18/24)

    gamify repetition

    Streaks

    Passive aggressive

    ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

    how the nervous system works

    learning • Meaning • Truth

    Evolutionary Theory

    learn the details & specifics

    Dawkins -> memes

    Views (8/18/24)

    Third position politics

    thoughtfully, completely

    & powerfully

    complete master of his craft

    The Artist sees what others

    only catch a glimpse of

    RB (8/22/24)

    Take everything life

    has to offer you

    with positivity &

    endless/neverending

    GRATiTUDE ○

    Summer 2024 (8/23/24)

    I just want to express gratitude

    for my fellow friends as this

    years summer wraps up.

    y’all make me remember

    what this is about: all of us.

    And the love y’all showed

    got me fucking hyped to take

    back our lives

    & save our loved ones

    Liberate their minds (8/25/24)

    cleans the spirit

    What matters is the revolution

    of the spirit

    Only through their own power

    Sense • Earn a lot of money (8/27/24)

    funding a life

    Support • World view

    bringing paradise to Earth

    Thoughts & memories emotions (9/11/24)

    New and exciting directions

    invention writing.

    Concepts, objects, people, things

    Morbidity, eros & paternity

    (9/14/24)

    Responsibility, meaning

    Sacrifice • GRATiTuDE • Committment

    & meaning are the same thing.

    (9/20/24)

    A physical and mental paragon

    You are the living embodiment

    of human superiority. The blood

    of kings run in you.

    The blood of your father.

    The world is yours and will be

    yours one day. Men will be

    like cattle before you, like

    sheep. For only a few may

    rule the many, and you are

    one of a rare breed.

    Master the world

    Draw your very power from

    the rock of this place

    Angel of the Knight

    (9/24/24)

    Practice Empathy

    Walk it with me

    Truly no wrong way -> Are some

    ways that cause problems

    Emotions of others

    Robeart (10/1/24)

    What a trip of wishing

    from December thru

    February • We didn’t tell

    each other for being close

    friends We say not of

    the unattainable in

    maintaining joy.

    Emily Brontë (10/3/24)

    Dreams have gone through

    & through me like wine

    through water & alter

    the color of my mind

    Optimal training (SO important to me) (10/3/24)

    Practice your best positive

    thoughts

    Exercise

    Meditation

    Writing

    Reading

    Write poetry

    Keep love at a peak

    Be so kind & forgiving

    We only have but so much

    So in maintaining

    gratitude

    .·:*¨B ✘♚✘ O¨*:·.

    .·:*¨NUS¨*:·.

    (3/18/24)

    •Leprechaun story

    or elves

    Elves sound fun

  • Glory • Patience (7/3/24)

    Get big gains

    • Huge net worth

    Belief in yourself

    Hope • Smile • Destroy

    your slave chains &

    become the person you

    want to become

    Vision

    Chi GRAtitude

    Power

    Strength

    Courage

    Understanding

    Shadow • Dark side

    Breathing • Center

    Plants (6/29/24)

    you love oxygen • Take care of you

    you believe in yourself

    Be kind, strong, prosperous &

    Smart & loving & caring

    Attack • Defend • Protect your

    loved ones • Be so nice to your baby

    Clean • Get BiG gains • Think • center

    Smile • laugh • Posture • look • hear

    Listen • Coach • learn • EARN

    Reign on me LOV

    envision

    imagine

    picture your life

    the way you want it

    to be

    Something to Remember (7/1/24)

    Dancin’ in September

    *+:。.。.·:*¨¨* ≈𖤓☯︎☾≈ *¨¨*:·.。.。:+*

    Tis Monday, the first of

    July. We only have one first

    of July this year, so let’s

    make it count❗

    GlORY • Prominence • Joy

    • Power • Kindness • Strength

    • Patience • Good attitude

    Love • GRACEFUL • Wonder

    Power is yours forever (7/4/24)

    Everything goes right for me

    Nothing ever goes wrong

    you are a demi-God

    you are a magnet for good

    luck & great fortune & gold

    & diamonds

    you get big earnings, big

    gains & big, short rides

    surges

    Patience, never outshine the

    master? “you”?

    What questions -> self-awareness

    Supportive Care (7/9/24)

    Intimacy • Connection

    i love her body so much

    She is the most beautiful

    being in the entire

    existence of everything &

    nothing

    She is so important to

    me ↝♡

    Am wanting to connect

    so deeply with *****

    ****, lovely loving love.

    She is absolutely perfect

    in every way & you

    will always show her your

    love through kindness & gentleness

    and love & so much love

    Why do people love strength? (7/11/24)

    •Fear•Power•Protection

    •Respect•Envy•Weakness(their own)

    ->how to use strength to your

    advantage -> strategy -> control

    • Smile • Chi • Belief • Positive orgones ✳

    Optimum Productivity (7/12/24)

    Enhance brain function

    Daily routine • Brain health

    Cognitive functions & ability

    Mindfulness & relaxation

    Because I want to (•_•)

    Problem solving skills ->

    solve puzzles

    Critical thinking & Planning

    learn New Skills -> instrument

    stimulate the brain -> continue

    learning -> Neuroplasticity

    FAT Bottom GiRLS (7/13/24)

    • Vision Board • Write

    • Clothes

    • Prepare for upcoming semester

    • Prepare for season

    Who wants it more?

    Positive energy -> Generate

    positive energy from thin air

    Get big money

    you are attractive

    What you are seeking is seeking you

    Boring discussions (7/14/24)

    • Crates -> Sales

    • hoodies / stencils

    -> Green pants [Drawer]

    • Drop pods off for *****

    RB (7/15/24)

    Believe in yourself

    Believe in your abilities

    Belief • Goal • Aspiration

    Vision expands • Dream bigger dreams

    Inner dialogue • Self belief – self talk

    Positive belief system • Believe in

    your abilities • Greater control

    over your life • Align your

    being • you are the best

    Encouragement to Act (7/15/24)

    Biggest dream has already

    come true – Immerse yourself

    Forgive

    RB (7/16/24)

    to meditate -> to become familiar

    -> familiar with the self

    Self-recognition • Change within

    Changed life • Neuroplasticity

    unlearning -> see/observe the old

    self & decide no unconscious

    thought goes unnoticed – Decide

    what you need to change

    Operating system -> change

    anything • Separate from the

    external world • Emotions

    Desire to know thyself

    Observe the old self (7/15/24)

    Become aware • Successful

    Nerve cells • Breaking those habits

    Making those changes

    Nervous system • emotional state

    New personality • New state of being

    Presently experiencing • Personal

    reality • think & feel

    New self – New personal reality

    Believe in yourself

    Proust (7/19/24)

    longest novel of all time

    with 1.2 million words

    “In search of lost time…”

    •❅───✧❅✦❅✧───❅•

    3 possible sources for the

    Meaning of life

    Social success • high society

    Social higher-archy FAME

    The dukes & aristocrat are

    boring & crass • Dull

    ✳life’s not going on elsewhere

    •Meaning of life in Romance

    No one can fully understand anyone

    •Meaning of life in Art ○ Artists

    Return life to its true Glory ⇀

    Proust (7/19/24)

    look at the world, our world

    with some of the same generosity

    as an artist • i.e. take “pleasure”

    in the simple things

    Bring out the charm & spirit of every day

    Vermeer ⇀ painter

    the Every day

    Cakes the french call “la Madeline”

    flavor ⇀ brings streams of

    memories ⇀ evoked hope &

    gratitude “Proustian moment”

    involuntary, intense remembering

    When the past promptly emerges

    unhidden from a smell, a taste or

    a texture ○ Rich, evocative power

    Appreciative life with greater intensity

    Proust (7/19/24)

    What does being fully alive

    feel like to us?

    hard work, dedication

    Show up for work every day

    & work -> What separates the

    greats?

    Taking one day off puts you two

    days back

    Visualize yourself winning

    Fully Engaged (7/20/24)

    We want to win, period.

    When we’re on the field, we want

    to beat the living crap out of you

    Deep well of being (7/21/24)

    Periods of solitude & isolation

    to connect with our deepest

    purpose

    What would you need to

    accomplish in 3 days to

    feel like you gave everything

    toward your dream?

    live full life, give everything

    Nothings lasts

    Give & let go

    Give & let go

    Whatever is made is finite

    so Give your all to all

    in your deepest purpose

    The Game of my Life (7/21/24)

    you can do great things with

    your life even when someone

    tells you that you can’t

    Cards & Power (7/21/24)

    They have this crazy man

    RB (7/22/24)

    • Life force • Quality

    • Rainbow of possibility

    • Complete spectrum of energy

    • Multiplicity

    Cultivate your desire

    Feel/emerge into her

    Press her down fully with your

    personal divinity.

    Work hard • (7/23/24)

    No need to stress about time

    if you don’t like it, stop

    Bring forth the light of your

    inner depths & share it & give

    it to the world & to your

    ship • Calm/steady her

    sails, prove to manage her

    amidst the chaos of the winds

    & follow your purpose

    first & foremost

    Self-love (treat your loved ones like they’re Jesus) (7/25/24)

    Dance in your shoes at all times

    you better have fun, because you’re

    going to be gone in a minute

    Gratitude shifts your perception

    to such an extent that it changes

    the world you see • These love

    notes from the universe are waiting

    for you to notice, waiting for you to

    tune in ○

    It is suspiciously easy to live

    in our natural state ⤠ Simple

    You have the power

    to create WORLDS

    ▂ ▃ ▄ ▅ ▆ ▇ █ █ ▇ ▆ ▅ ▄ ▃ ▂

    Miracles happen all the time, what

    one’s do you notice?

    Seeking the rare pearl (7/25/24)

    Buy the whole haystack

    Be your own advocate

    Paperwork

    Remember a lot of things

    love madly

    Magic of thinking Big

    Courtesy Leader

    RB (7/24/24)

    Do you get offended easily? Don’t

    you feel like you’re letting people

    down when you get angry and do/say

    mean things to them just to

    spite them? just to make things

    fair? Wouldn’t you rather submit

    and show them that you are

    willing to absorb their energy it might

    be, and look at them with positive,

    gleaming eyes of hope?

    Ambitious financial Goals (7/26/24)

    Never-> in fact refuse to

    play the victim

    Accumulate wealth instead

    of making excuses

    “The Mind is everything. (7/28/24)

    What you think, you become.”

    -Buddha

    “Life is long enough if you know

    how to use it.” -Seneca

    “Stop living the same year

    75 times & call it

    life.” -Robin Sharma

    “The two most powerful

    warriors are patience

    & time.” -Leo Tolstoy

    Kickass (7/29/24)

    Bring forth the bulldog

    And the roosters

    Analogies & Metaphors

    Experience, abstraction; cognitive

    effort to reconstruct & understand

    “Curse of knowledge” -> fear of

    not knowing something that

    you do know