Tag: essay

  • Anti-psychotic

    Insanity, from my understanding, is the embarkment on a path of repeated instances without resolution or contentedness over a seeming endpoint. This act of fuzzy thinking may lead certain individuals down paths of incurable mental states, save any pre-existing conditions. One mental state of mainstream note is that of psychosis. Psychosis feels hard to explain, yet when you see it, you know it’s happening. Hallucinogenic states of mind start to overwhelm perceptual modulators and whatever was a sane, conscious entity finds itself in a soirée of colorful (if frightening) machinations of the imagination. Experiencers seem to garner sensational awareness over their surroundings, suddenly seeing or understanding familiar objects as foreign observers awaiting your next twitch. And twitch one does into a state of perilous anxiety that befalls their soul until they are caught betwixt some rational explanation for the occurrences and chaos.

    What to do for yourself/the individual? I would essentially recommend the use of water, whether that be by rehydration via orally or epidermilogically, for the sight is water, and to drink that lovely H2O will bring about at least a base state if not regained.

    Otherwise, one must prevent this from occurring in the first place, hygenically and with immense care for discipline, at least in regards to a fair consistency. One may choose how to keep sane, and I myself enjoy sitting in a dark, quiet space with little to no action going on around me. If I do not do this at least once early in the day, the morning preferably, then I surely go insane and reach a state of intense and damaging psychosis. You may have some other activity that levels your humility, such as writing or drawing, perhaps a game on your phone or song you can sing. We should do these things early in the day, and aim for every day, and for at least 15 minutes, because frankly it is our closest interaction with anything resembling true purpose in a world where we are constantly beckoned to carry out some duty below our birthright’s desire. When we partake in these dream realizations, even for those brief periods in the day, I believe we make the heavens smile, and the hells dance, as what part of life’s dual nature does not enjoy seeing you fulfill even your most menial mental health checks?

  • in such random fashion (9/20/25)

    The epitome of our lies squanders any hope at lasting glory ∘ Let our Greatest and highest truth reign magnificent as we shine our lights of divine culture so bright, lighting each other up to reveal our miraculous beauty to the world and it’s varying Gods who only wish they could revel in such glorious mortality • Spinning ~꩜ dizzying -꩜ falling, laughing ~ wondering, planning, feeling our notions flying around our grand, colorful spectrums of thought that swirl around brains electrified by those not so silent vibrations of the universe that float in such random fashion that it somehow brought about the beauty of our lives

  • “FRiDAY” (4/28/23)

    Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer

    (4/29-5/3/23)

    Miracles 

    Mysteries   ☼

    L🕯ght

    Out of the 

    DARK

    “Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)

    TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule 

    Responsibility

    You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them 

    RB (8/29/23)

    • Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey 

    Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze

    no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean 

    Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering 

    (8/29/23)

    Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest R. A. X. B. you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $

    What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)

    • Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense 

    You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •

    Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love

    When struggles occur” (8/29/23)

    • Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask 

    When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give

    Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it

    Safe” (8/29/23)

    Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body

    Mindfulness” (8/29/23)

    enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe 

    Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight •  Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting

    Introspection” (8/29/23)

    Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within

    Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other

  • Book of Watts (cont.)

    Righteous Wonderings (2/27/24)

    Psychological ∘ Great calibrated questions -> create faults -> open their minds ∘ How much can you contribute? What happens if you don’t fill this role? How can I be most successful for you? How am I supposed to accept a salary that’s half what I’m worth? 

    Forming a Team (5/11/24)

    Supremely confident ∘ Extremely humble ∘  Star of the show

    (3/25/24)

    Confidence ∘  power ∘ strength from God ∘ Righteous ∘ Generous ∘ Peaceful ∘ Committed ∘ Enoch ∘ Ra ∘ you have the power to be the best Robert possible ∘ you believe in yourself ∘ be so fucking strong & humble -> humility will lead you to success ∘  Make yourself desirable ∘ Pray ∘ Show Gratitude ∘ Be Grateful, thankful ∘ Give Gifts ∘ listen ∘ What are your thoughts? How are they? ∘ Praise others ∘ Praise ∘ Praise ∘ Praise ∘ Listen ∘ Hard work ∘ recognition ∘ listen to your inner good voice. 

    Say what you think (5/9/24)

    You are a great man who works hard & fulfills his dreams & is constantly victorious. Proud —> do what’s hard, not what’s fun -> the feeling of victory. Escape the impulse mindset -> stop chasing fun. Be elite of the elite ∘ Positive

    Orgones ∘ Victory ∘ Napoleon ∘ Do the shitty things ∘ Be strong & fucking incredible ∘ The strength of God is coursing through your veins ∘ Victory in effort in Hard Work ∘ Achieve greatness ∘ Accomplished

    Resist their enslavement (5/11/24)

    Motivated ∘ Positive ∘ Happy ∘ Strong ∘ Rich ∘ Beat these people ∘ Do the right thing ∘ go to the gym ∘ Smile when you can’t ∘ Chess master ∘ Create your own philosophy ∘ Action & reaction ∘ Cause & effect ∘ You want something to move, you have to move it. Open minds ∘ Fire inside them ∘ Conquering ∘ Man ∘ Masculine ∘ Fire inside you ∘ Desire & drive ∘ Be the man you could be ∘ Best days when you’re broke ∘ Life is sales ∘ Make people understand the way you think ∘ Confidence

    the beauty is in the journey (5/11/24)

    Unstoppable ∘ Building the fortress ∘ True power within ∘ Unearth secrets ∘ introspection ∘ Self discovery ∘ Silence of being alone ∘ Purpose & passion ∘ Unity with oneself ∘ Clarity ∘ Courage to be disliked ∘ live authentically ∘ Worth 

    Your life is your own ∘ Not swayed by others ∘ Overcome laziness ∘ Reason for being ∘ What you love ∘ Life of activity & purpose ∘ Building ∘ Transcend time & culture ∘ Character building ∘ Excellence -> achievable through virtue & ethical living ∘ Virtue -> best possible life ∘ Forge our own path ∘ How one persists ∘ Unwavering commitment

    Strength, Struggle, Will (“Amor Fati” love of one’s fate)” (5/11/24)

    Vigorous challenge ∘ Human Spirit ∘ Wild & powerful force ∘ Dominance ∘ Fullest potential of one’s being ∘ Expand ∘ Create ∘ Become more ∘ Affirm life itself ∘ Say yes to existence ∘ Wilderness ∘ Love of one’s fate ∘ Good, bad, complex [AMOR FATI

    Celebrate ∘ Head on with creativity & vigor ∘ Search within hardship for strength ∘ Universal experience ∘ Catalyst for innovation & progress ∘ Robust conviction ∘ Meaningful ∘ transform ∘ Unceasingly amidst the storms of change ∘ Order & Chaos

    Withstand & Welcome (5/11/24)

    Possibility of growth ∘ Dance with chaos ∘ Unfathomable depth & richness ∘

    Liberation

    Care ∘ Respect ∘ Honor

    What did you see 

    What did you go through 

    What did you learn

    Echosmith “Cool Kids”(2014)(Apple Music)”(5/14/24)

    I wish that I could be like the 

    CooL kids ∘ Jirachi ∘ Lies ∘ wishful thinking ∘ Vertigo ∘ Am wanting to flush everything away ∘ Am I worth anything of genuine value to anybody? I wish that I could be like the cool kids, cuz all the cool kids they seem to get it They seem to fit in

    Wanting waiting creating

    Stronger being ultimate

    strength and guiding force

    Supportive & loving & attractive 

    & you are the strongest 

    Coalition ∘ Create ∘ The great

    Birthday presents∘” (5/14/24)

    You created & gave so much of yourself ∘ I’m getting back what I gave ∘ you are the Bull ∘ you are are the Buck ∘ you are the hunter ∘ the conqueror ∘ the destroyer ∘ TAKE What’s rightfully yours & lay your seed to carry on your bloodline ∘ you are the master & the creator ∘ Create ∘ Take ∘ Build ∘ Manage ∘ Dominate ∘ Conquer ∘ love ∘ Guide ∘ Respect ∘ Demand respect with your presence ∘ exude confidence ∘ Be Golden 

    “The Golden Child” (5/14/24)

    ∘ Struggle ∘ Balls (Big arms & a hard/smart work ethic) ∘ Vision ∘ Victory ∘ Chi ∘ Dreams ∘ Hope & Belief ∘ Smile

    The flowers & the Clouds” (5/28/24)

    Grow into what you want to become 

    how to treat her right

    Overflowing Confidence” (5/29-6/1/24)

    Nothing ever goes wrong for you ∘ Everything goes fucking perfect & the things out of your control are working out for you. Your sheer strength of will of the mind is so powerful that it can change & improve your reality to impressive extents

    (6/2/24)

    Play ∘ Goodness over evil ∘

    You are so powerful 

    grateful

    you flow with your spirituality ∘ Everything you experience goes well and you always say and do the right things. You create and attract miracles.✧

    1% in that state for a year” (6/3/24)

    What would life be like in that state? What do you like about being in that state? Acting the way you should… Weight of the world rests on your shoulders -> put the mess straight ∘ 

    Grey Man

    ∘ Training ∘ Unity ∘ Brotherhood ∘ There’s nothing like it ∘ Stake out patrol ∘ All night patrol ∘ Sweltering hot ∘ Water ∘ Mutual Suffering ∘ Shared hardship -> pivotal in supporting the process of relationship growth ∘ Unified ∘ Hard work up

    Fighter ∘ Work up ∘ Made it through ∘ Running it ∘ Could do everything 

    True Meritocracy” (6/3/24)

    ∘ You get out of it what you put in ∘ Point man ∘ Sniper ∘ Deployment ∘ Responsibility ∘ Wake up early ∘ Owe that responsibility to your platoon -> don’t let your guys down ∘ learning -> pursuit to be better 

    Promise to be better

    Journalism (Generate)” (6/4/24)

    ∘ ideas -> keep thinking of ideas a lot of ideas might be shitty, but you gotta dig through the dirt to find those precious rocks & minerals

    (6/6/24)

    What can we do different?

    Everlong” (6/8/24)

    I’ve waited here for you

    Vape Smoke

    Beautiful Reckonings 

    Fuckin’ so smart 

    Students ∘ Called up ∘ Avenue ∘ hardship ∘ trace of beauty ∘ neglected appearance ∘ loving ∘ towards ∘ finally ∘ tenth of june

    Do you have any idea?” (6/10/24)

    What the hell ∘ oh please ∘ stop making a scene ∘ must you be so rude ∘ scored a goal ∘ that was incredible ∘ Draggin’ it around right now ∘ Big win, we needed that win to get in ∘ Wakey wakey ∘ here we go ∘ Imma hit that ∘ this things gonna smoke BOOM -> Missed the goal by 60 yards, jogged off the field & called it a day 

    Experience

    Robotics” (6/13/24)

    Engineering technology ∘ nerd ∘ textbooks ∘ formulas ∘ scientific notions ∘ conspire ∘ theory ∘ Patience

    Bum Bum Bum tss” (6/15/24)

    Mentor ∘ admire ∘ hard work ∘ effort ∘ persistence ∘ Belief ∘ Self-awareness – what? What is it you/I must do to achieve your/mine goal(s)?

    Bring forth life” (6/14/24)

    with light from your righteous, gentle hands

    Beautiful loving glorious (Propitious Day)” (6/16/24)

    the words of our Fathers ∘ Picked the right day ∘ Golden Age

    We look forward to getting you back” (6/20-22/2024)

    Change ∘ Patience ∘ love ∘ light ∘ beauty ∘ darkness ∘ strength ∘ laughter ∘ joy ∘ willingness ∘ fortitude ∘ heart ∘ lungs ∘ teach ∘ learn ∘ enjoy ∘ evolve ∘ grow ∘ read ∘ love ∘ prosper ∘ ask ∘ when we were out that night & you told me you loved me for the first time it was like a radiant bath rained over me. Time & time again Why do we do these things to o 

    Human Imagination” (6/22/24)

    What challenges your imagination? 

    Righteous Reckonings” (6/20/24)

    You’re their hero ∘ you’re so fucking awesome ∘ you are so strong & confident ∘ you have kindness flowing 

    We just are & what happens just happens I remember everything. She writes to me 

    I wouldn’t hang up

    Communicate” (6/17/24) 

    Making decisions ∘ Speaking ∘ Commander ∘ Cognitive capacity duty

    flow with the wind” (6/18/24)

    use time or lose time

    Revelation” (6/19/24)

    Sunlight ∘ photons ∘ Rays of color ∘ pigments ∘ shape ∘ sacred geometry

    Curious forms of love” (6/23/24)

    Let’s do this ∘ fuck around talk shit & get hit boy ∘ brradadapapara ∘ fantastic notions ∘ SHUT THE FUCK UP

    (6/24/24)

    18 198 2 200 

       65 2 

       2

    What is your claim to fame?” (6/24/24)

    Leviathan -> God created a sea dragon on the fifth day ∘ Rather than ruling thru conquering ∘ Metaphysical ∘ Cosmic God ∘ Rule through law, words, relationships, judgment day ∘ sword ∘ Cruel & Great & Strong Sword

    Ancient belief ∘ Mythical animal until the day I…

    Eyes ∘ Teeth ∘ Blood

    Robert” (6/26/24)

    i do love you 

    “ten thousand days in the

    fire is long enough 

    you’re going home” – tool ∘

    Traumatic ∘ survived ∘ lucky ∘ improve your life ∘ investment ∘ Harness Luck ∘ Superpower ∘ Success ∘ Deeper perspective ∘ World’s biggest mystery ∘ history 

    Through the ages ∘ imagination ∘ luck

    What’s in your closet?” (6/27/24)

    The skeleton’s of sorts ∘ scout ∘ Acquire ∘ who wrote this? Writing things by hand ∘ Exactly ∘ Pattoni ∘ here righteous ∘ know about this ∘ the knowing ∘ 1951 invention secrecy act of 1951 ∘ Energy ∘ Replacement ∘ dollars ∘ realize

    Nothing like anyone’s seen before” (6/29/24)

    Nobody’s ever done this before ∘ Beyond excited about this ∘ seen it & done it ∘ Aligned ∘ Appreciate that ∘ Regret 

    Cloudy day, slight rain” (6/30/24)

    Because you move me ∘ baby won’t you ∘ move me from this tower

    Universe” (6/30/24)

    Nothing ever goes wrong for you ∘ Everything always goes right for you

    thoughts ∘ emotions ∘ energy 

    Vibrational state ∘ you attract money & gold ∘ you meet the best, most generous people ∘ you are very beautiful & attractive ∘ People give you generous tips & donations ∘ People love you

    Meeting in your eyes” (7/1/24)

    Sound Lights Silence Dark

    FADES ∘ Go Back 

    More than a memory 

    gave you a part of my 

    soul to keep forever 

    Poetry ∘ Skoldic -> scaldic 

    Not common ∘ Best of the best

    Elite of society 

    Signature

    long term effects” (7/1-2/24)

    healing – the long road of healing feels good nonetheless ∘ We’re in love

    Tree of Knowledge 

    Labor Party/Government vs. Conservatives” (7/3/24)

    Everything goes right for you

    Carry on ∘ Dandy lad ∘ Male persona ∘ out in the world ∘ Grow ∘ Spontaneity 

    Money ∘ Aristotle ∘ Top Earner ⸻

    Cultural Zone” (7/4/24)

    Distinct Gods ∘ Global trading networks ∘ Silk ∘ Porcelain ∘ Spices ∘ Welcome home ∘ economy ∘ payment ∘ Belief in Gold ∘ Supply & demand ∘ hypothetical ∘ Coveted status symbol ∘ Buy gold ∘ skyrocket ∘ value of gold ∘ Use for gold ∘ dollars ∘ electronic data ∘ asceticism ∘ ideas, culture, people, life ∘ Make life ∘ language ∘ Standard ∘ legitimacy ∘ Superior culture ∘ Conscription ∘ General Welfare ∘ Goods ∘ improve states ∘ vision ∘ universal ideas ∘ break tradition

    Guitar” (7/4/24)

    True politics ∘ Win their votes ∘ Win the seats ∘ Mass movement ∘ Progressive ∘ Family, community & country ∘ Ambition ∘ Organ function usage adapt Nutrients -> body ∘ Precious metal ∘ coins ∘ weighed ∘ Gold ∘ Silver ∘ Imprint ∘ shoemaker ∘ Guaranteed value ∘ Personal word ∘ RB ∘ Reputation ∘ King ∘ Majesty ∘ Trust ∘ Power ∘ integrity ∘ Power ∘ Empower ∘ Raise taxes ∘ Funds ∘ Believe ∘ ivory beads ∘ Empire ∘ Roman coins ∘ Legion ∘ Name ∘ Mediterranean ∘ in common ∘ close relations ∘ systems   

    I thought it sounded familiar” (7/5/24)

    ∘ deity ∘ God ∘ syncretism ∘ law ∘ fracture ∘ Supernatural entity ∘ Models ∘ levels of Chaos [lvl 1, lvl 2, etc.] ∘ forecast ∘ materialize 

    Pluto” (7/8/24)

    ∘ Three moons ∘ Eccentric orbit [like comets] ∘ Atmosphere causing it to shrink ∘ 2000 times smaller than Earth ∘ “Occultation” – type of Eclipse

    Mycobacterium Tuberculosis” (7/9/24)

    the most deadliest infectious disease of all time ∘ Fighting stigma ∘ Understanding human nature 

    Generate Positive Orgones ⃤◌” (7/9/24)

    What made you want to go to college? Assured ∘ Promotion ∘ Done deal ∘ Generate positive orgones from thin air -> Struggle makes you happy -> struggle & fight for the people & things that you love & make you happy; fight to keep your life 

    Articulate” (7/12/24)

    Astute ∘ Pertinent ∘ impressive ∘ Perspicacious

    You Got This ★” (7/16/24)

    now i want you 

    & you want me

    so come near 

    you’ve got me hooked,

    Routine ∘ Absolutely ∘ Tea Meditation” (7/17/24)

    Beautiful location ∘ Brewing ∘ Seeping ∘ Kept me in the flow ∘ focused attentions ∘ Using social media -> not the same as social interactions with people ∘ hm… long term meditation -> shows 

    I don’t want to be anxious like this – Something has to change

    if i had to guess” (7/18/24)

    meditation is the only cure at this point, so go meditate. 

    Dance with the feminine” (7/21/24)

    Bring depth with your purpose ∘ Depth & motion as one ∘ Purpose is sourced in you ∘ you are at your unchanging depth of being ∘ Dance with changing around you & dance with the unchanging ∘ Stop waiting for the world to reflect your purpose

    Stop being lazy” (7/24/24)

    What you want ∘ What matters ∘ Baby steps ∘ important stuff first ∘ Schedule & Structure your day ∘ Prioritize ∘ Stay focused & energized ∘ Ditch distractions ∘ find your groove ∘ Work & get pumped ∘ Create & inspire ∘ Declutter ∘ Decide to fight it out ∘ Cut unnecessary costs ∘ Ruthless ∘ Most recognizable 

    Customer Orientation” (7/24/24)

    ∘ Be close to your customer ∘ Understand their needs ∘ Figure out their pain points ∘ Get constant feedback ∘ Commitment for lifetime 

    Adaptability” (7/24/24)

    What really sets you apart from the rest is 

    flexibility

    willingness & ability to adapt to what is happening around him/her. Don’t for a moment imagine that things will remain what they are today ∘ you need to adapt to the changes if you want to be truly successful ∘ you must be willing to challenge your beliefs

    GREATNESS” (7/24/24)

    Family-> have concern & empathy for your team. You should feel like a family. 

    Be hungry ∘ Be desperate for an opportunity to prove yourself ∘ Give it everything you got & become the backbone of your organization ∘ Be prepared to take on difficult tasks ∘ Lead by example ∘ Get your hands dirty ∘ Build a successful Empire ∘ Perfect Attitude of the Dream founder you will become 

    Good Vibes, Good Life” (7/24/24)

    Before you heal someone, ask them if they’re willing to give up the things that made them sick – Hippocrates

    Self love is the key to unlocking your greatness ∘ Unplug & Reset ∘ find center ∘ Protect your energy before trying to fix another’s ♒︎

    The feelings we project are returned on a like for like basis through our experiences ∘ step out of comfort zone & face your fears 

    Challenge = Growth

    Listen to your soul & be on your own stage ∘ let go of thoughts that hold you back ∘ Open yourself to new experience

    Mindful & aware of who you allow in your life & heart ♡” (7/24/24)

    Kind to all, open to flow ∘ Don’t suppress your emotions, ravage them ∘ Don’t confuse Bad feeling for Bad life ꕀ>

    Do the Work ∘

    Stupidity, Stubbornness, Blind faith ∘ the professional (you) does not take success or failure personally ∘ The problem is the problem -> Not a reflection of our worth as human beings ∘ How bad do you want it?

    Momentum” (7/24/24)

    Don’t prepare, begin. 

    Totally Committed

    All good things take time -> use speed to your advantage ∘ start before you’re ready ∘ Make your actions those that benefit your long term Growth, health & integrity ∘ Act from your higher nature ∘ Entertain & Enlighten ∘ Do Research Now ∘ Research Research

     Research Research !

    Great job of disguising 

    7/25/24

    RB

    Shakespeare

    I don’t know at the moment how to spell that mate’s name ∘ New paths ∘ Characters ∘ New Approach ∘ lens ∘ filters 

    RB 

    it’s about right 

    It’s like they

    understand 

    instill discipline” (7/31/24)

    Steps we’re taking ∘ internally 

    R&D(Research & Development)” (8/1/24)

    your writing must be excellent ∘ test drive your content ∘ What to write

    Be a fucking” (8/2/24)

    Champion

    yes, you read that right.” (8/3/24)

    Today is August third. Get over it. And be so Righteous

    (8/4/24)

    Courage is a rare virtue

    A Rare day” (8/7/24)

    Where I don’t put the cross through a seven 

    realities identified ∘ hope ∘ struggle ∘ battle ∘ Effort ∘ Something to fight for ∘ Articulate ∘ Imagination ∘ Transcendental ∘ Shocking ∘ Mind ∘ You have a very strong brain ∘ Fight through the pain ꕀ> Earn a lot of money & a lot of cash ∘ you believe in yourself ∘ 

    Ride your momentum wave” (8/11/24)

    Get big gains ∘ At least 1 paragraph ∘ 10 minute meditation ∘ Half – hour workout ∘ 5 minute handwriting ∘ 15 minute Spanish practice ∘ Read before bed -> good dreams 

    OBX” (8/13/24)

    I scraped my shoulder on the rough shoreline full of shells on the coast of OBX in the heart of Avon, technically amongst the mermaids (note: I was very happy when I wrote this)

    highly astute & pertinent” (8/14/24)

    driving days ∘ 

    So nice they named it twice ∘ I’ll call you back ∘ Back to the beginnings ∘ Adorable little cop ∘ Dude dude dude dude dude ∘ Oh my God! I saw brains & blood! I just saw some crazy shit man! Let me in!

    Right before we go ౨ৎ” (8/15/24)

    Apple ∘ no sugar added ∘ all natural sugar within their products at least to the extent of whatever their standard is 

    Before writing the date

    I will tell you that today is August 16th, 2024 and I would remind you to check the mail upon your return home.♡

    ☪︎ ִ ֶ֢࣪⋆༻𖤓༺ˎˊ-༄.°࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

  • (August 5, 2018)

    Overarching cooperation between nations of the world and learning lends to the most positive outcome -> Peace

    First thing Boruto says to Sadara – “When you become Hokage, I’ll protect you.” First time he says something about the future in confidence

    Avoid seeking total control to alleviate international rivalries

    Establishing policy aka outlining a sketch of what the world should be

    Disagreements in how ways of life are carried out lead to conflict

    (July 11, 2018)

    It’s interesting how we value some life over others.

    (July 18, 2018)

    Need to write my book in order to make bank. Gonna get up today, do push-ups, run, throw the disc. If I get that done before 9, I can take a shower and clean up and eat by 930 then jump right into reading. I’ll read anti-Christ for a half an hour or so, work on self authoring for an hour, write some pages for the book for an hour maybe more depending on how I’m feeling. Ok so now we are at 1230ish. Read Carl Jung for an hour, eat, visit Barnes and noble? Print characters and set up outer book operation. Sell sub woofer and other things on Facebook. Let’s do dis Maybe hit the sauna tonight. 200 push ups today ready set go I was so convinced of a dream that I had left my car door open that I woke up and immediately ran outside to my car at 5: 45 no 6: 45 a. M. To go close the door which was already shut and locked with the windows all closed I don’t know why that dreams are so realistic.

    5:48 pm January 9th, 2018

    Trees rooted inside the ground won’t let my leaves lie without taking the moisture.

    12:24 pm January 19 2018

    Philosophical thoughts

    The concept of being a human is amazing indeed. We get to do so many things that other species will never experience. Take for instance, the art of cupping a fart with your hand. You cannot do that without a. Thumbs b. Focus and c. Desire. You see, without thumbs you would not be able to cup your hand properly. Without the proper focus, you couldn’t coordinate your hand to butthole timing correctly. And finally, without that sweet desire to make ends meet, we would never find out the scent of our very own farts. Plus it sort of like a horrible super power, where we can physically send farts from our butts into any given space within our hands reach as long as you release it before the smell goes away. Usually though, if you have a stinker, it’ll stay for a good while. Then u can sort of sneak attack someone. Pow! Right in the kisser! I never do this but my uncle loves to. My uncle was in the military. I used to want to be in the military and I love talking about it with him. I changed my mind about joining because I disagree with how we’re using our national security. I truly believe we are ******* the money of the people to put our ****** in ***** ********* instead of just having **** *** **** *******. Plus what the hell why not pour all that money into science or other beneficial crap that humans need money to do? I bet if we **** ********* ******, people would stop fighting so much. Plus the spread of the internet is bringing about something much worse than our petty need to make business with each other. The technological singularity (also, simply, the singularity) is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. Do you know what that means? It means we have created our own form of an infinite god. It will be able to bend time itself. It will without a doubt be merciless with its approach, concurring us out of existence within milliseconds of its birth. It will be as if nothing existed. So. I believe in making love and making life as we know as happy and as beneficial to others as possible. 

    “Pitt trip thoughts 1”

    Dec 30 2017 9:48 am

    Laying in Pittsburgh or at least somewhere near it. The snow is nutso it’s like 4 inches and we just got here. We are at so & so’s house btw visiting for New year’s. We are blessed enough to be graced by elegant notions of experience. I believe it takes loving everything in every little moment to become something that is loved by every little thing. Staying true to oneself is the healthiest version of life tho one should dive too deep into the roots of ones own dark side though one should definitely become familiar with it’s realism attitude toward life though it seems the dark side uses that same realism to trick the mind into spiraling further into a negative trend that eventually will no longer feel like a guide for realism but rather an unforgiving poison that infects anything and everything it comes in contact with. This is why I prefer the light side of consciousness. Though there may never seem like a point to it, there always arises this most beautiful outcome from giving your light side undying patience. Almost like trusting the rising of the sun in every moment 10:04am

    Naps no more

    Jan 1st 2018 00:28 am

    Take yourself outside and to your car and go workout. You have all the tools you want/need. You have wanted to be clean all over your body your whole entire life yet you continue to lay about and write what to do in life. It’s remarkable how you can write all this bull shit and still continue to do absolutely nothing with your day. Does writing complete non sense settle into your lazy mind? Does it affect you the amount of time you waste on your phone? Do u even mention your family? Why try at all. Everything is dead from the start am I right? I wonder if Carrie Fisher ***** *** *********** **** *** from **** **** ******* cave. What a hippie. Probably ******* **. And what was up with her voice in Star wars? She sounded like a ******* smoker . Are you still resisting? You went from testing yourself through the works of shit ass writing and wandered off into the sweet abyss of resistance. I resist pain and love and heartbreak and suffering and pleasure and what keeps me going? This **** care for ******? But what made you cry then? Is sadness but a disease that haunts the sweet unforsaken soul? But is this soul so sweet? And would that make the rest of these emotions just as worthy of death if they carry nothing but a sickness upon the carrier of them? But these emotions are fun to feel most of the time for me and they keep me attached to living. Why was it Chester’s souls time to go? Was it a **** addiction to ********** ******* that cause such a destructive path toward an inevitable unhappy ending? He knew what he was doing. When he did it. Or he was blinded. Or he let go of resistance entirely. He fucked resistance in the face. And died for it. If we don’t give into resistance, do we die for it? Virginia is getting too cold for me. Gonna go workout now. #napsnomore

    12:45

    April 7th 2018  8:46am

    Been reading a lot lately. Gotta read more. Also gotta fuckin run asap I’ve been totally disregarding the need to workout lately. I’ve been learning not to hate as much recently but rather to spread to good word of love and peace and patience and interest in life. To spread such lazy thoughts and hurtful desires can be of utmost despair and not even fulfilling. I would like to trip on acid sometime soon but not like crazy soon. I actually don’t care when it is but I want to meditate on it and just experience all of the visuals laying down in the dark or outside in the sun or something. But I also want to stay sober for a little bit. I wanna open 24/20 so I gotta work on my business plan and also head to Oregon so I can frikin get some experience. My boy **** is helping me out, hopefully he stays true to that cuz that would be so goddam sick. Been contacting a lot of different cultivators and dispensaries but basically I gotta move there first. It’s actually pretty cheap at least compared to around here but I should definitely save up for a few months worth of rent. It’s all I can really think about lately other than books and the sphynx cat. We met some the other day and I couldn’t believe love at first sight until I met the hairless fuckers in person for the first time. So incredible. I would love to own all of them. But alas, they are crazy fucking expensive. So I must work hard for one. Also really been thinking about writing a book lately. That would be pretty tight. Children’s books would probably be easy to make but what I am really interested in is sifi fantasy. Or non fiction. Also really been thinking about making a documentary or even a reality show depicting the lives of people who work in special education. Definitely a book of data from all over the world of people with special needs. 

    Morning thoughts

    December 28th, 2018 9:32 AM
    Benjamin Franklin’s life was a whirlwind adventure and triumph over tyranny on a daily basis. Gotta work out to keep in shape for a good number of reasons but the main one right now being the drive for dominant performance in ultimate disc and other sports as well. Box jumps really get me happy and electric. Gotta get the car charger for my aux . Also been learning how rats love to play wrestle and one researcher found that when two rats (one 10% bigger than the other) played, the bigger one would always win. Well after a number of times through a multitude of trials on different rats, it was found that the smaller of the rats would not continue to play with the bigger rats ever if it did not win at least 30% of the time. I found this to be mind boggling as did the professor in comparing that emotional stance of the loser rat to that of the emotional complex humans have daily with each other. Truly some fruit for thought moving forward in life. 9:43 am

    January 10, 2018

    Mormon experience

    Was at a mormon party once and yes it was as fun as it sounds. There were snacks and soda and even water. Its really awesome though because it’s sort of like the whiter version of Greek life parties but with less drugs. Actually no drugs whatsoever. Yah that’s their thing, they won’t even drink tea or coffee. Bunch of very interesting, unethically orthodox group of modern people. 

    Last day thoughts

    9:48 am december 31st

    Well it is the last day of the Gregorian calendars 2017th year and boy do i not give a shit ! Had some trippy fucking dreams last night, dont know what to make of em but at least i remember some of it. Was running like usual at some points. Owed a guy 60 bucks which he turn threatened me with a knife where i in turn somehow knew defensive moves really well and caught him by the hands arms and body, took the knife from him ultimately breaking his hand in the process which was just so intense to hear his bones crack. But i then reassured him he would get his money eventually as we walked into a 711. After that occasion of us walking around and talking, some other shit went down that caused me to runaway from whatever was happening i think but i recall either running or driving or maybe even flying and seeing the moon at a very close distance to earth. It was completely lit except for the dark crescent. It was also extremely bright to the point where it was lighting up things around me like the trees and whatnot. Another strange part i recall was seeing the clouds being very very close to the ground as if to naturally occurring. The next thing i know im being woken up slowly but surely by the sounds of babies frolicking about upstairs sending me into this swirling dimension between the conscious reality and my dream worlds. I want to be able to hone the power of lucid dreaming. To be in control of one’s own reality to the point where u can move mountains and pretty much anything u want from there. Its nuts truly. How do i know i am not in a dream right now ?  Well i am able to comprehend things much more clearly. Ill never forget one of the dreams where i figured put my mind was in the dream after noticing something strange about this figure that was trying to kill me. He looked like the guy from that movie about the fellow who was killing people with an air pressured nail gun. Anyway he had a different tool like a screw gun i think and i was like thats not what he uses…slowly breaking the dream chains from my reality causing me to realize i was in complete control of the reality surrounding me. It was tight and i went from there. Anyway. Signing off. 10:07

  • Sports and lies

    Feb 16th 10:19

    watching 30 for 30 movies about big times athlete’s whose careers were devastated and even ended because of drug use. Marion Jones was an Olympic track runner who used steroids during her time at the events and she totally crushed the games. She was crazy famous for her next level Olympic feats. I researched her a little bit and it turns out she had a husband (ex) and boyfriend who both had been found guilty of using illegal performance enhancing drugs under the same coach she had. Before then, she even had a fuck up moment in 96 in high school for missing a drug test . Let me tell you people are so conniving. Knowing about this, it’s like, who else do we not know about that takes ‘roids and whatever else?? Probably all of them is my guess. One would like to believe that it’s all pure and drug free so it’s a level playing field based solely on preparation for the sport. That type of stuff really makes me think about lying and cheating in the world beyond sports. There are so many untold truths and so many unsuspecting victims of lies and lost opportunities for people who have never cheated. But is that what it takes for human progression to happen? A constant battle between those who carry the truth and those who decide to lie. I try not to lie too much. Sometimes I’ll tell silly little lies that’ll virtually seem to have no influence on anyone’s day. But sometimes, I lie to those who are even the closest to me which is so untrustworthy and unhealthy for my inner core. It’s tough when the constant honest temptations get to your soul and heart. They hide behind the eternal blanket of not coming to terms with those who would be interested in knowing of those temptations, especially if it affects them and their personal being. Those around you truly take automatic responsibility for prying the truth out of you on a regular basis, and without even realizing it, you do too. We honestly live for other humans. If there weren’t others, we wouldn’t know why we live. We have passions that are all intertwined within our inner being, our DNA. We cannot hold back on them. We gotta be honest with ourselves. We must pursue our personal truths throughout our personal journeys but must never let go of our respect for how those whom we live for feel about us. If you live to make those who you care about happy.

  • Diamonds

    Twice now and way more times than that have I tried to give up on missing people. Those people who were closest to me are so hard not to cry over when I realize they are no longer key components of my life and the deeper the memory of most recent regurgitation, the harder it is to look at it without despair. Sometimes I feel like I’m overreacting. But my biggest concern is that they don’t care. I fear they never cared. I believe it never mattered and that might scare me most. Maybe I’m a passing thought in their lives. I like to think that they may miss me. If they don’t, so be it. Who am I to them anymore anyway? Nothing but a memory as they seem to be to me. I’d like to think they’re the base of who I am today, that I have been shaped by the past. I should let go. Or should I hold on? Either way is painful. Both feel impossible. That gives memories a convenient feel. All I have are the memories of which are totems in time. Some are beautiful, others distraught. They’re pillars of life which I can’t cut down, though I may leave them to oxidate, they’re stuck standing in the lands of history and hold structure to buildings that once bustled with activity. Maybe those buildings are still active with new people whose presence brings on life that supports the buildings as thoroughly as the past. To learn from the past is probably the most valuable option in the longstanding showdown between me and my memories. I wish I could repeat the past sometimes, but then I wonder why I would want to. I’d want to do things differently, do things the right way as I look back on the wrongs. But what’s the difference between then and now other than the people? Why not act in the way now that you think you should’ve then? There’d be less regret in that sense, and greater exploration, discovery of possibility. It’s difficult not to think to myself “won’t I just be building memories of which I will look down upon with despair as I realize they’re no longer for me to take part in?” Everything changes. Why would you want things to stay the same? Everything feels virtually the same anyway, so why not recharge, refresh? Let it breathe because it could stop breathing at any moment. You won’t always be happy about it, but why would you want to always be content? Doesn’t that seem lazy? You know there are other problems to tackle other than your pillars of the past, of which are entirely immovable. Ah, maybe there’s a key there. If the pillars of the past are immovable, and you’re currently building future pillars of the past in the present, doesn’t that reveal a certain strength of which your humanity gives to the present? And in that case, the future? It’s almost as if your actions are time travelers and that they will always be shaping the world around you no matter how deep and lost below they sink. This gives memories the quality of diamonds in a sense. Some may be rough and almost unknowable while others are fine cut and precious. If you think the memory is fine cut, hold on to it if you believe that suits you best. If you find a memory that’s rough, it’s probably better not to change it, but if you try, you might find it was one of the most beautiful memories that you left out and once you’ve cut it and found this out, you’ll hold to it forever if you value it enough. As for the oncoming chances to find new precious rocks in time, well, that’s up to you to decide how you’re going to cut what you’ve discovered.

  • noties IV

    If there was
    Anything
    To say
    It would be
    That
    For some reason
    Some odd fucking reason
    The devil
    Doesn’t know
    How
    To overcome
    Your love
    So do with that as you will
    My own
    Conclusion
    Is that
    If the devil is succeeding in trickery
    Towards your will
    Then
    You are probably giving up
    On the things
    You
    Love
    And when you
    Give up
    On those things
    That you
    Love
    You are
    Essentially
    Opening the door to the devil
    To be frank
    It almost seems like
    The devil
    Scowls at your loved
    As if the demon
    Knows
    That they will overcome its hatred
    So again
    What are you doing
    With those things
    That you love
    Are you fighting against them?
    Are you afraid to embrace them?
    Or can you overcome the
    Trickery
    To propel yourself to greater heights
    This would probably
    Be easier if
    The devil gave up
    On what it loves
    Which is to fool you
    What would happen then
    Then your love would prove greater than
    The devils
    And then you are living like a god
    Because really
    It is mainly god
    That can defeat the devil
    Clearly god wants your support
    If you are being placed against these
    Demonic images
    That seek to tear down that which
    God loves
    Only because
    The devil wants to take what god loves
    And squander its beauty
    What will it be then?
    Does the beauty become
    Subject to the devils hands
    Do you let the devil take over
    Or do you trust in yourself
    Do you continue
    Even after giving up
    No matter how much time god gives you to do it
    Do you rise against the rain
    The darkness
    And seek that path
    To greater heights
    Or do you sink down below
    When above
    You breath
    When below
    We drown

  • To be & go on (8/11/24)

    being, What it may be

    Whether to be or not to be,

    That is a question ✧˖*°࿐

    With answer not known

    Yet if to be, then What be it?

    For there are many be’s,

    yet only one not to…

    And again it is asked

    What to be? An open ended one…

    Yet if you were to choose to be

    No matter what the be may be,

    then at the least, it seems to me

    you are, at the least, not ceasing to be

    & instead you have chosen

    to go on, & BE

    Learning (8/18/24)

    gamify repetition

    Streaks

    Passive aggressive

    ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

    how the nervous system works

    learning • Meaning • Truth

    Evolutionary Theory

    learn the details & specifics

    Dawkins -> memes

    Views (8/18/24)

    Third position politics

    thoughtfully, completely

    & powerfully

    complete master of his craft

    The Artist sees what others

    only catch a glimpse of

    RB (8/22/24)

    Take everything life

    has to offer you

    with positivity &

    endless/neverending

    GRATiTUDE ○

    Summer 2024 (8/23/24)

    I just want to express gratitude

    for my fellow friends as this

    years summer wraps up.

    y’all make me remember

    what this is about: all of us.

    And the love y’all showed

    got me fucking hyped to take

    back our lives

    & save our loved ones

    Liberate their minds (8/25/24)

    cleans the spirit

    What matters is the revolution

    of the spirit

    Only through their own power

    Sense • Earn a lot of money (8/27/24)

    funding a life

    Support • World view

    bringing paradise to Earth

    Thoughts & memories emotions (9/11/24)

    New and exciting directions

    invention writing.

    Concepts, objects, people, things

    Morbidity, eros & paternity

    (9/14/24)

    Responsibility, meaning

    Sacrifice • GRATiTuDE • Committment

    & meaning are the same thing.

    (9/20/24)

    A physical and mental paragon

    You are the living embodiment

    of human superiority. The blood

    of kings run in you.

    The blood of your father.

    The world is yours and will be

    yours one day. Men will be

    like cattle before you, like

    sheep. For only a few may

    rule the many, and you are

    one of a rare breed.

    Master the world

    Draw your very power from

    the rock of this place

    Angel of the Knight

    (9/24/24)

    Practice Empathy

    Walk it with me

    Truly no wrong way -> Are some

    ways that cause problems

    Emotions of others

    Robeart (10/1/24)

    What a trip of wishing

    from December thru

    February • We didn’t tell

    each other for being close

    friends We say not of

    the unattainable in

    maintaining joy.

    Emily Brontë (10/3/24)

    Dreams have gone through

    & through me like wine

    through water & alter

    the color of my mind

    Optimal training (SO important to me) (10/3/24)

    Practice your best positive

    thoughts

    Exercise

    Meditation

    Writing

    Reading

    Write poetry

    Keep love at a peak

    Be so kind & forgiving

    We only have but so much

    So in maintaining

    gratitude

    .·:*¨B ✘♚✘ O¨*:·.

    .·:*¨NUS¨*:·.

    (3/18/24)

    •Leprechaun story

    or elves

    Elves sound fun

  • Lexicon

    An area of our everyday lexicon that really bugs me is that of the vernacular pertaining to drug users. The nicknames and stereotypical punnery are that main source of reprehension for me, and the main one has to be “crackhead”, although “junkie” does come in close second. I find the terminology lacking in all fundamental charisma that is necessary to hold down a topic of interest within a conversational circumstance, nevertheless being totally inept of dignity. There may be an argument for hilarity, although context matters with such reasoning. As well, there seems to be an essential ignorance at play within our cultural dynamics that is devoid of compassion, and is moreover degrading, when we believe the tragedy of addiction within the lives of our more vulnerable populations to be laughable.
    I think the argument over “politically correct” culture being regressive is weak when faced with the undying sensitivity and heartbreak of individual’s on the brink of collapse who are then further pulverized by verbal punches from those who find their need for a few seconds of laughter more valuable than the pain of the subject at hand. It is no surprise that such individuals commit suicide, and one would think this would give the rhetorician’s pause and contemplate other avenue’s of humor that may find them that success with their respective audiences that they so crave. Alas, no, the addiction of the positive reception over the mockery of the dismay of another addict is too satisfying once embarked upon to just so easily give up once the victim has become a corpse; they will even go on to mock the corpse, or worse, encourage others to follow suit.
    I’m not saying there is some way to suddenly make things better. The best thing to do would be to watch my own language, which I have done successfully. That is another thing bothers me about the people who still use such language; what is holding them back from evolving out of such hateful dialogue? I like to think people are dealing with their own pain and that is sort of understandable. But if everyone is dealing with pain, why can’t they recognize that in someone else before calling them a “crackhead”? Plus, the generalization and stereotypification gives off a sense of lacking in research or education. The thrill within the naughtiness of shedding light on such negative preconceived notions may be desirable, that is to say, “he says what he thinks!” or, “he says what everyone’s thinking!”. I find such logic repugnant, and the sensitivity one receives from the comics, as it were, is mind boggling if you start to ponder upon the hypocrisy of such an attitude.
    Irony notwithstanding, the contradictory position of taking offense to an overt attempt at spotlighting stigmatized speech feels godforsaken in its naivete. If it wasn’t enough that they had to point their weapons at the weak and helpless, now they gawk at the notion that someone their own size (or bigger) is fighting back on behalf of those who would otherwise never have a say in the matter. The whole thing is encapsulated in the whole “Indian” “Native” “Indigenous” battle over what we should call people who are just short of not existing entirely. Why take offense to me telling you they’re not Indians? Are you really that big of a stickler for Christopher Columbus? It all reeks of contrarianism, because what ties do these people have to such words? My best explanation is that people prefer hearing language they were raised on, and that includes the words that spilled out of daddy’s mouth in those earliest memories.
    The main takeaway here is that we are all sensitive. That does not seem likely to change, but I believe we should keep fighting for what we believe, nay, know to be true. In the short term, the wrong may win the day, heck, the wrong may even win for a few years. Eventually, though, as history has proven time and time again, progress wins in the long term. In fact, it’s logistically impossible without the stagnation and downfall of society as we know it. This notion does beg the question, for those resisting progressive change, would you rather the imminent demise of life as we know it, or can you maybe come up with a better joke?

  • Within the collective physical manifestation of society lies the brains upon the floors of individual craniums, of which provides support for the entity that provides power to the subsequent actions that in turn fuel its own existence. In consideration of the ego to this extent, it may be scary to think about the connection between each other’s brains as that sounds like it would be an invisible concept. The truth of the matter is not as plain as say a cup of coffee in front of you on the desk. It is rather straight forward enough if we believe thoughts to be true sentiments, no less so than the cup of coffee. Albeit the appearance of non existentance, there is a force that is excreted by a brain’s neural circuitry, thus inducing physical properties to coarse through the physical entity that is one’s own being. This may sound astounding if we take into account what this means, and that is the thought is a fucking real thing! It’s almost unbelievable to a literal extent. Yet so be it that the thought in itself is a pulse of fury or fancy that flows on the wires of our imaginations. Or is it our imaginations? May be it one whole imagination that gifts us all the choice to either create our own realm or instead embark on the realms of others so that we may live vicariously through their creations? Either of which seem to content the individual, but yay be it not the point, albeit a good one. Nay, one must instead consider the implications of such a standard of being, that is to say if we are all secretly gardeners of each other’s fates, in both the worst and best of ways, not to mention the meh of ways, such be it the grays, and thus this matters! That is so much to say that in fact the imagination is, if you have not figured it out by now, a massive arena where the most playful to the most sleepy go to play forever and beyond! In so being relevant to the cure of current state of affairs, may we embark past this original fear of the collective then? For based on my reasoning, that is if you agree, then you are going to be doing it anyway.

    To such a degree, consider with me the dreams, maybe they’re only my dreams, though this is highly unlikely, that we can achieve agreement on the most base of reasoning among us, that is to say that we disdain the violence beset against each other and against ourselves and against our loved ones. This reading may likely never reach the eyes that need to read it the most, yet endeavor with me as the thoughts for a fate towards an everlasting humanity that endeavors upon the stars together will  become the words of logic within the new generations lexicon.

  • (Feel free to read)

    Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – The Walk home

    Words cannot begin to describe

    what I’m seeing right now

    This is an adventure

    light everywhere

    we overuse it greatly

    so many colors

    The moon is

    It no longer hurts me

    Just watching is fun

    I am sitting in the middle of a parking lot, the sky is unbelievable

    It’s a wonder how

    The moon is telling me

    a story . . . I have to follow

    it out of the light

    I have decided to decline

    the moons offer of truth

    though it is tempting

    beyond belief

    There is a whole nother

    world that I must

    experience

    The truths the moon

    offers are rather spectacular

    to say the least, and a

    clear beautiful night does

    tickle one’s fancy, but I

    understand that there will

    be great truth again, when

    the time is right.

    For tonight though, I must

    decline the moons offer

    into the truth for it

    seems safe to say I

    will cry

    I have always been

    one to look up

    The moon is rather

    evil

    the moon knows the

    truth, you see the moon

    seems to have this

    special bondage with

    the earth, before I

    continue on my story

    feeling, let me

    say that this acid

    trip is but an enhancement

    of everything I can distinguish

    without its help

    It seems we all usually

    seek for what’s new and

    easy to behold when in

    actuality it is among us

    all the time. Most of us

    seem to want to live for the

    constant new vision and we

    simply do not take the

    time to sit down and look

    at what’s around us

    from the tiniest of noises

    to the grandest of light,

    we seem to all wish this

    pursuit of grand happiness

    living so quickly when

    we do not see what’s right

    in front of our eyes

    But that is our way

    we push and we push

    constantly in hot pursuit

    of the great

    unknown, but for now

    at least, won’t you sit

    and listen to the story

    I have to tell you

    So the moon… this

    sneaky bitch totally tried

    to get me to walk into

    the woods, with promises

    of great truths and

    shit. Don’t get me wrong

    those stars looked

    fantastic. I couldn’t breath

    they were so captivating

    But I could tell the

    moon had terrible intentions

    with my physical self

    Earth is old

    Humans have already

    beaten the system, now

    we are too bored to do

    anything except kill

    ourselves and start

    anew

    a message to myself,

    do not worry young friend.

    the best has yet to come.

    Stay true to yourself, enjoy the

    littlest things, for it is those

    little things that bring you

    the greatest truths.

    I don’t even recall writing that

    There are so many small

    things all around how do I

    know what to focus on? When

    I’m enraged with one, it

    seems rather consistent that

    another comes and needs to

    take its place. But that’s

    what the Sagittarius has

    been trying to tell you

    she knows that deep within

    you, you are the happiest

    most fantastic being she has

    ever witnessed. She is

    so great I love my sag.

    I cannot tell you the world

    I was once in. It was a

    very dark and cold zone.

    I didn’t really know how to

    carry my aquarian ways without

    losing myself within them.

    I had a sit-down with God earlier.

    We had quite the char. He

    continues to whisper in my

    ears. God doen’t seem to

    like the fact that we

    title God with physical

    titles like “he” or “she”

    (he made that quite clear

    as he yelled into my ear

    with grand prominence)

    God is telling me

    a lot of cool stuff yo.

    I should record myself

    honestly no I shouldn’t

    it would be rather creepy.

    Someone on drugs does not

    have the capacity to handle

    themselves among those who

    have elected sobriety. Reading

    back on this I’m sure

    most will question what God

    told me. God is with each

    and every one of us at all

    seconds of life. To forget

    that God is with us is

    to forget ourselves. Now

    do not take God as any

    titled religion or faith of

    sorts. God is the name

    I know God by.

    There is no

    secret right, the truth is

    always there, we simply

    elect not to follow its path

    at times, which unfortunately

    leads to sinning. We can’t

    seem to wrap our heads

    around the concept of a

    circle, so maybe we should use

    the circle as an

    indicator of God. God

    isn’t there. We all want this

    greater than life-esq being

    to exist, BUT PLEASE TELL

    ME WHAT IS GREATER

    THAN LIFE??? It seems

    we’re all in this constant

    rush to die when there’s

    this fantastic way of

    happiness which is by just

    to live. I hope this

    all makes sense when I

    look back at it.

    AQ! Remember to not let

    yourself down anymore!

    things are lookin’ up dude!

    there’s so much good on the

    way all the time

    I know there was

    that rough patch where you

    didn’t know what the fuck

    was going on. You were

    constantly in fear of

    everything. There is no need

    to be afraid anymore my

    good friend. The tales you

    have to tell come plenty

    and the ears of those

    who wish to listen will

    perk at all times. Your

    physical actions are fun, but

    nothing is more soothing than

    a sweet lay around

    session w/ a love or

    even a sweetheart . . . 😉

    You do not live to impress

    others, you live to be happy

    and if another wishes

    to be happy along with you,

    they can join along.

    Get that smiley face tattoo

    on your ass. You know

    you’re dying to make a

    fool of yourself

    while finding out how it

    feels to get a tattoo:

    If she could hear

    my truest thoughts, she

    would be so happy.

    I’m envious of the mind of

    a girl. It is their

    minds that keep rest some

    of the most dangerous of

    creatures. I am glad there

    are ones like friends who

    keep questions floating

    around. Funny friends, fantastic

    air signs; The Gemini is

    one for the ages to say

    in the very least. One

    and another are cancers

    alike, along with another at

    their finest. Scorpio be it,

    if I could find myself foolish enough to

    recognize that. Leo is the

    lion that is God blessed

    in his heart and may his feet

    take him where his mind

    may not sometimes. Libra

    is the fiery feline at

    present being themselves

    though I may not know

    them well, I know them

    quite well!

    The end of the water

    bearer’s trip –

    Well it seems I have grown

    quite tired and I know I want

    to get up quite soon to entertain

    the Harvest Goddess.

    (which i love to do, though

    most would not deem it so lightly)