That I met on that day
In the shade
No dues paid
Truth’s rest laid
Continued reverence
For that which glistens
As morning’s dew
Hydrates its hue
Loving stem
Leaves waving
Solar road paving
Always growing beyond
That dream you had drawn
When you were but a seed
Now you lead
My eyes astray
Make me obey
Your uncommand
Unravel my soul
Before my body becomes
Your loving bed forever
Lovely little flower
Tag: poetry
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History of love floating around your head ; young genius so full of good memories
Forget me not when looking back on them with that dreamy third eye -
Make money from your content
Hopefully theylike it!
(12/28/25)
I was quite creative on both of these days ∘ I’m surprised I haven’t written in this fucking thing since then. Life smells really good sometimes, for no immediately apparent reason, so all we can do is sit back and enjoy the odor with a hesitant composure as to what may be true about the occurrence.
More to go! (12/28/25)
I like to write words because they are very pretty & I can make them very kind & powerful at the same time no matter what that’s what’s so interesting about words for me I guess is their innate ability to impose within anyone certain feelings and understandings of which they themselves expound upon in their most minute mannerisms, so clever are the ways in which they hide their thoughts, yet we can still feel them so clearly as if to be reaching out physically through mere uncanny telepathy via pattern recognition
Writing your goals (12/28/25)
I have so much more to write, wish I’d take more time to do so. I wonder if writing actually improves my life. I used to accept just feeling different meant that all of this was worth it, but my moneys are still low; Would writing … well, let me try and we’ll see:
My goal is to finish
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Pander not to the weakness of yesterdays failures; instead, rise & be that beautiful being you’ve always been
Be so gorgeous & mighty as you continue your path to glory
An everlasting mark on the minds & hearts & history books for many civilizations to come ∘ Outlasting those sands of dripping time ∘ into infinity does your action light it’s fiery rays of shining magnitude to fill the constant void of desire that yearns for your divine release upon the world so weary from a lacking soul so beautiful as yours
Keep bright & stay strong through those righteous pains of growth and I promise you will find victory
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to the dance
to dance together
for the sake of our love
When we go together
Everything starts to feel so right
Like a flower in sunshine so bright
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you can prove anything can happen by the sheer will of your glorious fortitude • Peaceful Resolution within your realization & subsequent loving of the divine gifts blessed upon your wonderful soul by the giving source of the charitable universe • Gratitude flowing through your being • Righteous glory shining from your powerful body
May your glorious tale reign supreme in the wake of the collective liquification of our individual battling’s where our strengths mesh to create the golden aura of powerful, loving, divine souls of glorious harmony that sings through the sharing of vibrations so bright with the light from the depths of your inner star which emerges with certain calm
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only time can tell
Well
oops I fell
When I’ve posted on x, my viewer hit that bell 😏
Whatever it’s all like, what the hell
there’s a lamb over yonder upon the knell (a knell is like a bell)
And nearby is his goat cousin who does enjoy a good yell
But don’t ask about HP, because they all prefer Dell
Yeesh, this rhyme scheme is hard to sell𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃 should live in a cell
Guess what the name of my grant is? Pell
We should do this more often, looks like we really gel 😜
this toothpaste is chalky, I prefer the gel
I didn’t mean to qwell
hold the rope, I’m going to rappel
Oof, what’s the smell?
watch out! a gazelle!
Ow it hit me! Oh no…I hope this doesn’t swell…😖
you’ll be ok don’t worry i can tell
And lady is the most lovely belle 😘😘😘 -
and magical are your lips
that kiss my yearning skin
so softly
as to treat them with with a tender kindness so sweet
as to fill my being with the radiance of one million butterflies wings
flapping their colorful magic
within the depths
of your righteous heart.
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A wonderful day to feel inspired by the ones we love in our daily reckonings. May ye grow not tired of yeself, young wanderer, and may ye mind grow fruits aplenty • and share ye fruit with the growing hands of the world so ye harvest may carry forth nourishment unto the well being thus bringing health to the collective source and thus yeself.
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Collapse into thine self & feel the glorious support of life perpetuating your soul with graceful love & care.
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The Ancient Legend⤴
The meaning ➡ intention vs. reception
Guess what the writer took it to mean
Modern historical consciousness
Different understanding of the universe/world
Cosmos • Universal • Structure • Arise
Support for studies • Learn something
╰⤵
in the grip of that powerful emotion
• snuffed out for good
Sign of civilization
mobilize
Courage and integrity
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Must do something ∘ What do you want to be? Be your boss • listen to your own commands ∘ Be your own kingdom
you are your own monarchy
Capability ∘ Leadership ∘ Bend to your own will ∘ Who is still next to you? If you’re the person of worth you want, your reign will rule strong
Focusing on what should be done in this moment ∘ Value ∘ invoke glory • Thank the sun for it’s beautiful rays of light ✧ Glorious, glittering shine • Divinity • Glory
A chance to bring about everlasting life
What work can we get done now? Are we prepared to undertake action?
What can we do to prepare for what needs to get done – to defend our lives against the evils of lies
Fulfilling your obligations (4/8/25)
Strengthen yourself • glory from our ancestors, from God & the Universe
Effectiveness of your work ethic ∘ Well intentioned man ∘ What is the price we pay for procrastination? ~> a wasted life
Become instead your own boss of whom carries expectations of you to fulfill the assignments that need to get done in order to keep the business afloat & in turn managing to maintain some sort of semblance of what it means to be human ∘
Righteous loving glorious
beautiful divine waves of love
coursing thanks to you & me
9:15AM (4/8/25)
He woke up again
Hell yeah • Here’s the day, again.
“I need it” he tells himself “to feel the glory, again”
He looks around at the empty room he built for himself.
Such a small castle; and he gets out of bed to look out the window, forgetting to rush into assignment and thinking only of the word, again.
Household Codes (4/8/25)
May we carry our home in peace & harmony ♡
♡
All my life I want . . .
. . . Respect my mind｡
(4/9/25)
4:47AM ∘ Dark, cold, writing this outside under lamp light
Weighing in (4/9/25)
at around 181 lbs, at least, two weeks ago [LOL]
(4/10/25)
Taste of the divine
(4/11/25)
∘ Become super famous & loved globally for infinite positive/good reasons ∘ Spread joy & peaceful loving vibes • Build • Grow • Evolve
Learn • understanding • Becoming
Beginning • Strength • Beauty
•
Phonogachi
•
Admission in self-betterment
Cooperative • Compromise • Balance
How are you going to interpret that? (4/11/25)
We demand he is brought back as soon as possible • Resonate • tuning fork
Treatment of people – how do you treat people? What are the consequences of your decisions? Possible to continue to live •
Reflection – who are we as a country?
Inhabitant • Citizen • Successful
It won’t be too long • Deserve • Ability
How should you be treated?
Ability to decide • Consistent
We need more tunes (4/12/25)
Please keep making music ♡
I ♡ singing & dancing 𖨆♫♪
Show up in person
give care • best case scenario
Thanks for having me ∘ Real people
Anecdotal
What gives you hope? (4/13/25)
The kids. The children give me hope; they’re playful and they’re energetic and they’re surviving •
I believe that the
human spirit is
incredible & the Spirit
of children is more than
any of us have as
adults｡
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Criteria ∘
(4/6/25)
What is your response? ∘ Basically ∘
Can you speak on that?
Data points • Administer
Peaceful administration • Brand new
Independent authority
Lawful ∘ People ∘ Deserve ∘ Country
House • Admit it • Wrongful • Return
Imagine 𖦏 putting yourself on better
footing ∘ World diplomacy ∘ What we’re dealing with here is human beings
The sun will come out…tomorrow!
Prerogative ∘ Deferential • Procedural
Brief • Purposes • Review • Essence
Urgency • Compliance • Seventh •
Argue our case • File • Ruling
Tuning in now -> what happens?
Intentionally (4/6/25)
Fingerprints • cause • closer every day
Confinement ∘ willfully • Predict the future
Put your dollar bet on the line
Power Grab ∘ Flex • veins • muscles
Brains • Responsible ∘ Grab up more power
What happens next? Motion ∘ Days •
Time • Expecting ∘ No later ∘
Next minute -> midnight • failed
Next morning • onwards • Thank you
for tuning in.
Extremely happy (4/6/25)
Attention -> paying attention to the good things ∘-> small positive/good things
(4/7/25)
Happy 4-7!
Success is upon us
May our hands be righteous in our continuance of graceful glory ✧
✧
Righteousity
in our hearts
minds
souls
eyes
is wonder
within
wonder
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Mathematical ecologist
Harvesting ∘ Environment
Social interaction ∘ water ∘ information
Animal behaviors ∘ computations
Voice of… (4/2/25)
(4/3/25)
Appreciating life before the grave.
Supposed to be hot & rainy this weekend
Not sure what
What we go through (4/5/25)
We’re out of our fucking minds ∘ money making vehicle
High occupancy Who the hell do you think you are?
You know what’s hilarious
You are or you aren’t
What are you sad about?
Over the horizon
Jesus Christ
Crazy Elf
Learned a lot of things in life
Building everything from the ground (4/5/25)
level ∘ Doing something about it •
Starting from a better place
What is your level of independence?
Force to reckoned with
Folks like you don’t come around often
Still working ∘ support ∘ go a long way ∘
∘
improving brain functions
∘
Ringing, gorgeous beauty
∘
Legacy ∘ Billionaires
Foreign leaders ∘ Controlling the World
People who get this will understand
Learning about who you are
Desperate wealth • Individual basis
There is a Winner (4/5/25)
What can we expect to see? Show up • $40 million • One hundred million dollars • Business Working women & men ∘ Creates the system ∘ What do you believe?
The body learns
the will to live is an interesting thing.
Is anything possible to anyone?
Challenges ∘ Neural ∘ dopamine circuitry
Embrace new learning, new challenges
Renovation • Unexpected • Preparation
Imagine a great place
Mindful Hospital
Stress is by far the biggest killer
Measure their stress levels -> will give us answers about our health
You don’t get burnout if you’re mindful (4/5/25)
It can be exhausting if you’re not getting anything • we need a mindful checklist • Fruits and vegetables (I feel like we need a new word for vegetable) things become automatic -> mindless -> lacking awareness ∘ Checklist
Better than better way -> mindful checklist ∘ Beyond yes/no -> can only answer if you’re paying attention -> notice -> care -> grow, recognizing you don’t know
Notice the changes in people
Hyper awareness • Hyper understanding
Believe there’s a right answer ∘ any experience is
only experienced through you
Equal choices ∘ Choose your adventure
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What do you like to write about? hm? Say it then
“Be me or fight me” – You
What do you put in your mouth?
Damn life hurts
Legendary thinking ∘
Anytime, Anyway, Anyhow
Making your force field
Stronger
When will you be Satisfied? (5/15/25)
I’m not sure what satisfaction means
Center
Chester
(5/16/25)
What can you (we) do to maintain calm & peace?
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You are so fucking tired of losing -> how about doing some fucking winning then mother fucker. Can you? You can figure out what to do to get these dubs ∘ Winning only ∘ Victory over everything 𖤍
Victory
What can we do to be
Victorious 𖤍
Fortunate (5/13/25)
I make my own luck 🍀
EFFORT
Control your destiny
Nobody can judge your effort
It’s raining. You gonna let that stop you?
…
Fuck no.
Fools party; kings celebrate
Show up & be your best
Believe in it (5/13/25)
Success is all you ∘ intention
Effort ∘ Work ∘ Dominate
Make the decision to choose who you are
Greatness in the mirror
Closer to Greatness • Willing to
be the outlier • the weird one
Stand out ∘ When they don’t
understand you, you’re doing it
right. Trying to get it.
Purpose.
I don’t need to jerk off.
Positive production
Victory ∘ Champion mentality
Righteous actions
Will love be there? (5/13/25)
Can you love endlessly? Without garnering hurt for yourself or others? What can we do to make life
Workin’ on the roads (5/14/25)
again ∘ ∘ ∘ Own your time
Escape the matrix ∘ Make
lots of money ✧
What does victory taste like
What does winning feel like
What can you do to win?
What do you have within
Positive Righteous Glory (5/14/25)
Training
Hope ∘ Belief • ^Your Vision will come true
Robert (5/10/25)
is the name of the New Pope. I don’t have any expectations. I just hope he can stop the ▇▇ of kids by our Catholic Priests.
♱
What can we do? Change the narrative
Korea (5/11/25)
I want to learn Korean & Arabic
Every puzzle’s
constructed differently
– Kobe
You are God’s favorite (5/14/25) -
You love to play chess, so why not play more? Let not the downfalls of your heroes be the backlash of a spirit you hold so close to your heart & being. May you succeed in many moves ahead of you; even now in your brain do the pieces move in favor of your great victory. Feel them. Be part of their glory as they work with you to capture the hearts of your opponents. Forget not to shake their hands upon completion of the mission in gratitude for their suffering at your hand & team.
Writing to improve (5/5/25)
my soul ∘ my heart ∘ my mind
& body & spirit so that healing
& betterment may exponentialize
Money, so much (5/6/25)
What can you do to earn $10,000,000,000.00? Focus on your duties, make good decisions, learn that saying no to certain things that don’t work with you to improve your life
A Prayer (5/7/25)
I thought about writing so instead of doing the thing I was about to do (still going to do that) I wrote this real quick ꨄ︎
(5/9/25)
SiGNificance
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Bring forth joy ♡ & freedom
(6/17/25)
What are difficult things that you could do? Would it be difficult to write as much as possible? Cut out the noise ∘ Mindset • Carrying your weight • resist the resistance against yourself
UNBORNAGAINST
“Magic happens there” (6/17/25)
Bring magic into life
To feel solid, that is to feel top notch
Worthwhile endeavors • Bored dreaming
Experience the best ideas & stimulate
Write them down lest they fleet
Inspiration thus value of the moment
Shifted language ∘~,
Weighted walking
Skeletal & muscular system
Activity that goes outside
Fill the gaps in your workouts
Gathering your glory
What weight do you carry?
Get some weight & carry it
Doesn’t have to be too complicated
Write the first 20 paragraphs
to get to that 1 sentence
“Smell of Weed in the air” (6/17/25)
on this wet, sunny day -> a tuesday in june with birds singing & colors blooming • let’s get these congratulations
Hi baby!
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Be so good & kind as you seek to spread joy unto the world
(6/8/25)
My heart goes to the people of L.A.
May the **** heed their
Warning
“What is the truth?” (6/9/25)
Can we own up to the truth? And work together to achieve our goals
(6/11/25)
Waking that within which brings about goodness to the world & ensuring the pursuit & achievement of everlasting peace & glory for the world, that we may all live in harmony in reverence of improving the standing of our character & the health of our loved ones.♡
“Ink dabbling” (6/12/25)
Amazing Change • Make it good
Heal the sick with your magnificent
BEiNG ∘ Really caring ∘ Be good
Believe in yourself ∘ You are the best
(6/13/25)
Mental fortitude • Positive energy
Planetary ∘ Galactic • Earth
We are so fascinating • Various versions
of human beings • Ultra terrestrial • Time
Grains of sand make a beach
Biological • Digital • Compressed information
Quantum Computing
Beautiful, loving GLORY ✧
Righteous wanderings
intentional endeavors
Mind changing self-awareness
“What can we make?” (6/13/25)
Making things happen with what you have at your fingertips •
(6/14/25)
Honey, bees, flowers
& shit 🌻🐝
Magical being • Mythos
Astrological beings
Physiological ponderings
Games of life
Rules for Glory
Classical personality
King of your own mind
“Get it all out •” (6/14/25)
What the fuck?! You’re incredible!
(6/15/25)
(6/16/25)
You are an attractive entity
The blood that flows through emerges from & as the divine
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Watch me change things for the better • Make my dreams come true • Whatever it takes
You will make it happen
And watch your life flourish
Bringing the beauty from within
into reality 𖥔
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True victory • both before & ahead
What forever is true ∘ Take it with
you, no matter what
investigate
the incredibly
important
Conclusions foretold
Creative notions
Continued forbearance
Yeesh town, U.S.A.
Good story
What stories do you have to tell? At the end, what will we know? Whatever it be, we’ll love you all the same ♡
June 6th, 2025 (6.6.25)
6/6/25 • ten-billion
What will we choose to do next?
Ending the way we all hope.
Real & Genuine
Well taken grants
God I’d love if someone gave
me a BUNCH of money right now
What is happening?
We need people out
Here saying this
What are the symptoms of
Success?
What are we, truly? (6/6/25)
What levels are we bringing to this?
My guess is ~ the highest levels
To expect something this way
and that forgets something
special about the dream you’re
already enjoying ♡
I have to admit there’s something
fun about writing in red ink ∘
It feels amazing
ink town central
Beautiful coalition
Increase your purchase power
What are we capable of?
So much … So much
Find a way (6/6/25)
To garner tons of success,
Become that which you
want to be •
$net worth
Bring your dreams into reality
Save the planet with your
individual actions.
Feed the hungry.
Energized.
Nourish the impoverished.
See that the trees grow
Please plant more trees
What can we say • to bring
forth peace & cease with war
around all nations?
For now, I’ll say ∘ I love you
And send to you through these
words any gentlest, softest hugs.
Campaign for Peace (6/6/25)
Osiris ∘ piece of Osiris
Deity
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listen more carefully (2/4/25)
am wanting to be so much kinder & patient and loving to lady
Is never wanting to lose my cool and only hold her so close all the time and be so kind and gentle and patient and loving and hold her so close in my heart even when she is not here and tell her through my soul that I love her with every drop of blood that my heart churns into my body that is hers forever.
Thank God she was there
I’ll be writing all the time and you’ll be getting the checks…
I won’t forget
Everything takes time
Learning (Never fail her again) (2/4/25)
Pray again!
Never fail her again
“And he was giving everything back, as everything must be given back, so that, passing through death, it can live forever.”
4:44pm (2/9/25)
I know how special this place is and I know how special a person I can be and I’m just happy to be a part of it ∘
turns 67
Redefine with new tools
the Ultimate test ∘ Crystal ball
∘ Faster Start ∘ Stay Healthy
∘ Good & talented
They’ll talk about this
FOREVER
Every single step -> everything you got ∘ For the person beside you
Won (2/9/25)
Debate ∘ Greatness ∘ What is GREATNESS? What does a GREAT [you] look & act like? ∘-> Embody your GREATEST SELF ∘ Put in the work every single year ∘ Continually winning. We know who we are ∘ We embrace who we are ∘ We Come together and take on the mission. Hard fought battle ∘ Earn Respect ∘ Give Respect
Honesty & Natural Style (2/10/25)
Zen – to stop thinking, temporarily -> even when you think
(2/11/25)
∘ impiety 𓃊 a perceived lack of respect for something considered sacred. -> sacrilege -> large belief system disrespected -> exile
Anaxagoras – introduced the concept of “Nous” (cosmic mind) as an ordering force -> Panspermia -> life exists throughout the universe and could be distributed everywhere -> also speculated that the sun might be just another star
Gentle (2/12/25)
Kindness is what I’d like to embody nowadays ♡
Head Writer
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Environment ∘ Strength demanding skills
High level skills ➙ not stressful
Very powerful; Proper training/learning/living
just drew a bloody bit
HEY GUYS! This is my sharpie
A GUST of Wind Whistled
Wildly without repose
Electricity • vibes • ∴
@ 10:50pm –
I wish that we will stop hurting
each other. May we spread good love
and good life with each other
SO that our future presents are
full of success we work so persistently
towards in the midst of our current
presence. Keep going, keep loving ღ
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Brought about some stars
To share with the likes of eyes
That would stare upon me
With hearts so full of loving being
That serves me new bundles of hope
Being a human
Sitting on a chair
Drinking a coffee
And making a point
To be more important in some respect
To garner better respect
In our passing by of certain time
Making value of those precious
Seconds
A second thought forgot to cross your path
Mindful of your forgetfulness
Remembering that you forgot
Memories fading in and out
Dragons flying around
Breathing fire and smoke
Looking dastardly
As if they’re going to eat you up
So you grab your sword
Ready for battle
Or you take leave with speed
As much speed as possible
Either way will be a fastidious affair
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To create something
What to create?
I’m not exactly sure …
What do you want to create?
Something kind, I think.
I don’t like mean things.
I like my voice and words to spread goodness!
I don’t always succeed in the preference…
Sometimes I get mad at my loved ones.
Maybe I’m just mad at myself.
Ultimately it’s better,
if we do good,
so that,
maybe,
things will be good.
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You are the purest form of Champion
Make the world quake with your
vibrations of righteous goodness
Powerful Righteous
Goodness
Holy fabrics gracing
your skin
Bring forth that
which is most your own
hold & let go
Be one with your beauty
Divine flesh & bone
Sky & earth
Pure fires
Almighty ablaze
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Another Nightmare • Retreat
Move forward • Buckin’ it • Calm
Respire ∘ Music • Somber • Wake to
the stench of death & aching moans
Pale reckoning ∘ Cold days of hell
Worried faces ∘ Struck by tragedy
Wild loss of friends & loved ones
Where did love go? Why has it
left this place? Will we feel
our loved one’s warm embrace ever
again? The thunder continues ∘
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We were children Spinning until We got too dizzy And we’d fall down Laughing in a tizzy With little To no concern About the ensuing Nausea Now just nostalgia And as adults The spiraling We take on Still nauseates Yet we no longer laugh We throw up Our hands In disbelief About just how painful The spinning can be When all we want Is to be still With those who fill Our hearts To remind us Of those parts Of us That used to be Free
9/23/22 3:35 PM
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The cold exists deep within
The skin so full of sin
Yet without the cold Zen
I would be crushed like tin
And be subject to the men
Who laud their warmth with a grin
Thus, it is again that I emerge from the dim
And bring forth my chilling wind
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I have no idea what it is with 44 lately. I ran into this video of a film where two rabbinic fellows talked about 4’s in the bible, maybe specifically 44 idk but sure enough I see it everywhere now. Oh well. I think it could be God or something spiritual like angels but it doesn’t have to be so biblical. it could be something like interdimensional consciousness connecting all of that which embarks for living peace. If so, I think it’s hoping that I choose the right decisions more often than not. Apparently, if you do 5/10 of your “good” or “healthy” tasks (so to speak but based on some data I found) per day, you unlock long term happiness. Maybe that is to say to prove that life is worth living makes not only you happy but the internal connectivity, if you believe in such radiant connection (e.g. the likes of God and so forth), and thus the totality of being. So really, I write this in hopes of bringing forth forthcoming harmony. To 44, and plenty more!
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My blood type is A- and I think that reflects the type of person I am. For instance, I get A-’s in classes where the professors know that I am exemplifying my intellect, but I am not putting forth that extraness they know that I am capable of. This is to the chagrin of my greatest mentors. I wish I could fulfill a redemptive un-shaming of my ego, yet I continue on this character given it is within my blood. I think if I cared more about things, then I would be A+ which I do not even think I can accept that blood. What am I even trying to say? Well, I think it’s interesting because I feel I have been given the choice between two very simple options, A or minus, of which are inseparable, united into one by my own being, thus giving me the power to show the world which one I need more. Alas, the inseparability of the two has proven a solemn task, one I daren’t take lightly as I carry this funny little character of mine. As I contemplate between being lazy as fuck and working out, I end up just staring while some distraction blares over cheaper speakers than those I see on our wonderful streams. The pushing out of that which is internal and wants to bring forth angelic reckoning to whatever extent is beautifully mine, yet I sour it with unknown feelings that wish to wash away happiness towards my own self. This anti-bargaining is self defeating, yet I carry my blood not unlike Jesus dared(?) to carry a cross for all to question into eternity.
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RB (7/1/23)
i’d like to write a ballad for the artist that lives within you:
Thank you, oh dear fire, for lighting my way through the darkness and thank you ^for providing the heat that shields me from the coldness from their hearts like palms against steel • my dear fire, it is what captures my living attention when there is all of space to be gazed upon
“Jung – healing” (7/2/23)
“Where your fear is, there is your task”
Predispositions tied to symptoms
– Anxiety, low energy, lazy, too high strung
Chronic illness’ linked to these personality traits
• Treat the person if you want to see the symptoms resolved
• The patient’s own healing
heroes journey
Symptoms -> chronic -> linked to way person thinks, lives
Knowledge that benefits the person
Most difficult knowledge is self-knowledge
easy to be objective w/ others and subjective w/ ourselves
What are my patterns -> self sabotage, things do to myself, diet, things I do in my relationship, in my marriage
They’re all on me
Where your fear is, there is your healing.
“Understanding Personality And Disease Archetypes:
Rigidity & Laxity
. YANG Yin .” (7/3/23)
• Yin & Yang ☯
Rigidity: hyper aroused nervous system, more tense, anxious, neurosis, excessive worrying, every little thing is a problem to be fixed now, excessive urgency in living
Laxity: Laziness, undisciplined eating, can’t exercise, hard to get out of bed, lax eating, lax approach towards life, no urgency to live
no deliberate living
Bring personality traits to the middle
Damp constitution – Dry them up a bit & their bloating will get better
Dry Constitution – Give them moistening herbs so that they’re not drying out too much
Bring the psyche to the middle • coming back to the middle will be healing heroes journey
Heal the person to heal the disease
Fears – what you’ve been avoiding
Traits, valves, thought systems
“Jung – Confront oneself” (7/3/23)
Confront oneself – fear of confronting oneself;
Jung – confronting oneself like going to the depths of hell & confronting the shadow aspects of ourselves is where the greatest healing begins
Understand where we are on that yin and yang spectrum
“Nietzsche & Jung: Healing your inner child” (7/3/23)
• Child -> Metamorphosis •-> becoming the child
- Crucial realization
-> Child represents innocence, forgetfulness, a new beginning, a game, self-propelling wheel, a first motion, a sacred yet ——> relevant in self-improvement
• Shadow -> Jungian shadow work
- repression, avoidance, void
• Rooted within childhood trauma which we repress from ourselves
• Develope self-awareness of ourselves and of our past
“Nietzsche” (7/3/23)
Nietzche identified the child as what should be the final metamorphosis of all human souls • spirits in this life ->
That life is at it’s best when we finally embody the characteristics of the inner child -> to be of complete innocence, forgetfulness, playfulness
view of life as a sacred nest of spontaneity & play
Pinnacle of existence
-> Remember being a child, life was euphoric -> enjoy life
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“Days go by” (4/25/23)
been crazy since then
Crazy dreams, can really only remember the end, I think B99 was a big part of the dreams but there was a lot
“Handling human Problems” (8/21/23)
Crumble the righteous outward
inward humanity beneath & above
Leave earth the skies clouds welcome
me as gatekeepers to the stars
an exponential growing & return to
what life is was and will
limitations vs. balance
Regulation • relationships
flow with nature
Conception of
intention & Action simultaneously
Free from karma w/o announcement
“Share ∘~> What else <~∘” (4/29/23)
Support •-> Anger -> emotions
text therapist when control ceases
Bible verse • Patience
Who is on Earth vs. who is not
insta can be poisonous
Alone together
Regrets -> Redeem -> forgive
Understand -> self reflection
“Consequences of understanding” (8/21/23)
Shows you intelligence rather than effort – Cleverness instead of muscle
Perception / ability to sense
Relationship
Simply live now
No place for using effort
things just do what they do
Great relief Just this moment
Play with the connections
Move them ∘ Present moment
Enormous fun ∘ Playing all kinds of continuities
Mountains are mountains
Waters are waters
“When negative happens” (5/1/23)
thinking about what you’re grateful for
think about what you love about the people who are important to you
think positive thoughts
Write ; go for a walk
take a breather
Remind yourself of your goals
Overcome with bravery, strength, courage
Beauty • Love • Divinity
GOALS
therapy is nice
“Ideas” (5/1/23)
Philosophy videos
Books
Jobs
Poems
Essays
Don’t give up
No energy drinks
“Smoke” (5/2/23)
People love to smoke ~ I think it’s because of the curves -> they remind them of the curves in their lives, whether that be the curves of their loved ones, or the curves of the windy roads, of the trees, the clouds (especially) or the curves in their minds
“Watery Ways” (8/21/23)
Waters are waters
Wisdom of the ridiculous
the beginning of philosophy
is wonder
Thinking
idea / image of ourselves
Days & nights
ink on the page
Something out of nothing
Shows -> Entertainment
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“FRiDAY” (4/28/23)
Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer
(4/29-5/3/23)
Miracles
Mysteries ☼
L🕯ght
Out of the
DARK
“Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)
TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule
“Responsibility”
You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them
RB (8/29/23)
• Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey
Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze
no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean
Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering
(8/29/23)
Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest R. A. X. B. you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $
“What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)
• Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense
You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •
Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love
“When struggles occur” (8/29/23)
• Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask
When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give
Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it
“Safe” (8/29/23)
Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body
“Mindfulness” (8/29/23)
enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe
Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight • Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting
“Introspection” (8/29/23)
Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within
Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other
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Belief in jesus belief in God belief in Glory belief in the righteous belief in the undying resolution of perceptual reckoning within that which is gaining for the great collective consciousness and never falters even in the face of doubt and why not willingly wander without unwinding whereabouts we’ll wonder warily wanting wrought ways wavering underneath our beautiful human feet that traverse those mighty deserts beside such magnificent beasts as the cheetah, the leopard and tiger, why not lion, bear even, perhaps the hippo in all its glory, let us roar beside their might and never forget the passion through the air we instilled with our energy. Through this, glory is finally realized and passed on.
Lightning through the skies . Guarantee Victory for yourself and emerge from the waves a new being, that which glows in the presence of Earth as if to have carried with your physiology something unknown to the land yet familiar enough to be welcomed with open air by the rainforests and you breathe life into the rocks as the skies play between blue and black.
Shadowy silhouettes walking past green walls lit by street lights powered by the conglomerates that have meetings they go to with suits before going back to their family where his daughter got home late and had green paint on her sleeve and he wanted to ask her about it but he decided based on some stuff in a book he read he would just leave it be and let her live her life. It turned out she was working on a commissioned painting of the Earth behind her friend’s mom’s neighbor’s coffee shop who heard she was a good artist and she was planning on telling her parents when she was done and was so relieved when she noticed the paint on her jacket and no one else noticed anything.
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(August 5, 2018)
Overarching cooperation between nations of the world and learning lends to the most positive outcome -> Peace
First thing Boruto says to Sadara – “When you become Hokage, I’ll protect you.” First time he says something about the future in confidence
Avoid seeking total control to alleviate international rivalries
Establishing policy aka outlining a sketch of what the world should be
Disagreements in how ways of life are carried out lead to conflict
(July 11, 2018)
It’s interesting how we value some life over others.
(July 18, 2018)
Need to write my book in order to make bank. Gonna get up today, do push-ups, run, throw the disc. If I get that done before 9, I can take a shower and clean up and eat by 930 then jump right into reading. I’ll read anti-Christ for a half an hour or so, work on self authoring for an hour, write some pages for the book for an hour maybe more depending on how I’m feeling. Ok so now we are at 1230ish. Read Carl Jung for an hour, eat, visit Barnes and noble? Print characters and set up outer book operation. Sell sub woofer and other things on Facebook. Let’s do dis Maybe hit the sauna tonight. 200 push ups today ready set go I was so convinced of a dream that I had left my car door open that I woke up and immediately ran outside to my car at 5: 45 no 6: 45 a. M. To go close the door which was already shut and locked with the windows all closed I don’t know why that dreams are so realistic.
5:48 pm January 9th, 2018
Trees rooted inside the ground won’t let my leaves lie without taking the moisture.
12:24 pm January 19 2018
“Philosophical thoughts“
The concept of being a human is amazing indeed. We get to do so many things that other species will never experience. Take for instance, the art of cupping a fart with your hand. You cannot do that without a. Thumbs b. Focus and c. Desire. You see, without thumbs you would not be able to cup your hand properly. Without the proper focus, you couldn’t coordinate your hand to butthole timing correctly. And finally, without that sweet desire to make ends meet, we would never find out the scent of our very own farts. Plus it sort of like a horrible super power, where we can physically send farts from our butts into any given space within our hands reach as long as you release it before the smell goes away. Usually though, if you have a stinker, it’ll stay for a good while. Then u can sort of sneak attack someone. Pow! Right in the kisser! I never do this but my uncle loves to. My uncle was in the military. I used to want to be in the military and I love talking about it with him. I changed my mind about joining because I disagree with how we’re using our national security. I truly believe we are ******* the money of the people to put our ****** in ***** ********* instead of just having **** *** **** *******. Plus what the hell why not pour all that money into science or other beneficial crap that humans need money to do? I bet if we **** ********* ******, people would stop fighting so much. Plus the spread of the internet is bringing about something much worse than our petty need to make business with each other. The technological singularity (also, simply, the singularity) is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. Do you know what that means? It means we have created our own form of an infinite god. It will be able to bend time itself. It will without a doubt be merciless with its approach, concurring us out of existence within milliseconds of its birth. It will be as if nothing existed. So. I believe in making love and making life as we know as happy and as beneficial to others as possible.
“Pitt trip thoughts 1”
Dec 30 2017 9:48 am
Laying in Pittsburgh or at least somewhere near it. The snow is nutso it’s like 4 inches and we just got here. We are at so & so’s house btw visiting for New year’s. We are blessed enough to be graced by elegant notions of experience. I believe it takes loving everything in every little moment to become something that is loved by every little thing. Staying true to oneself is the healthiest version of life tho one should dive too deep into the roots of ones own dark side though one should definitely become familiar with it’s realism attitude toward life though it seems the dark side uses that same realism to trick the mind into spiraling further into a negative trend that eventually will no longer feel like a guide for realism but rather an unforgiving poison that infects anything and everything it comes in contact with. This is why I prefer the light side of consciousness. Though there may never seem like a point to it, there always arises this most beautiful outcome from giving your light side undying patience. Almost like trusting the rising of the sun in every moment 10:04am
“Naps no more”
Jan 1st 2018 00:28 am
Take yourself outside and to your car and go workout. You have all the tools you want/need. You have wanted to be clean all over your body your whole entire life yet you continue to lay about and write what to do in life. It’s remarkable how you can write all this bull shit and still continue to do absolutely nothing with your day. Does writing complete non sense settle into your lazy mind? Does it affect you the amount of time you waste on your phone? Do u even mention your family? Why try at all. Everything is dead from the start am I right? I wonder if Carrie Fisher ***** *** *********** **** *** from **** **** ******* cave. What a hippie. Probably ******* **. And what was up with her voice in Star wars? She sounded like a ******* smoker . Are you still resisting? You went from testing yourself through the works of shit ass writing and wandered off into the sweet abyss of resistance. I resist pain and love and heartbreak and suffering and pleasure and what keeps me going? This **** care for ******? But what made you cry then? Is sadness but a disease that haunts the sweet unforsaken soul? But is this soul so sweet? And would that make the rest of these emotions just as worthy of death if they carry nothing but a sickness upon the carrier of them? But these emotions are fun to feel most of the time for me and they keep me attached to living. Why was it Chester’s souls time to go? Was it a **** addiction to ********** ******* that cause such a destructive path toward an inevitable unhappy ending? He knew what he was doing. When he did it. Or he was blinded. Or he let go of resistance entirely. He fucked resistance in the face. And died for it. If we don’t give into resistance, do we die for it? Virginia is getting too cold for me. Gonna go workout now. #napsnomore
12:45
April 7th 2018 8:46am
Been reading a lot lately. Gotta read more. Also gotta fuckin run asap I’ve been totally disregarding the need to workout lately. I’ve been learning not to hate as much recently but rather to spread to good word of love and peace and patience and interest in life. To spread such lazy thoughts and hurtful desires can be of utmost despair and not even fulfilling. I would like to trip on acid sometime soon but not like crazy soon. I actually don’t care when it is but I want to meditate on it and just experience all of the visuals laying down in the dark or outside in the sun or something. But I also want to stay sober for a little bit. I wanna open 24/20 so I gotta work on my business plan and also head to Oregon so I can frikin get some experience. My boy **** is helping me out, hopefully he stays true to that cuz that would be so goddam sick. Been contacting a lot of different cultivators and dispensaries but basically I gotta move there first. It’s actually pretty cheap at least compared to around here but I should definitely save up for a few months worth of rent. It’s all I can really think about lately other than books and the sphynx cat. We met some the other day and I couldn’t believe love at first sight until I met the hairless fuckers in person for the first time. So incredible. I would love to own all of them. But alas, they are crazy fucking expensive. So I must work hard for one. Also really been thinking about writing a book lately. That would be pretty tight. Children’s books would probably be easy to make but what I am really interested in is sifi fantasy. Or non fiction. Also really been thinking about making a documentary or even a reality show depicting the lives of people who work in special education. Definitely a book of data from all over the world of people with special needs.
“Morning thoughts“
December 28th, 2018 9:32 AM
Benjamin Franklin’s life was a whirlwind adventure and triumph over tyranny on a daily basis. Gotta work out to keep in shape for a good number of reasons but the main one right now being the drive for dominant performance in ultimate disc and other sports as well. Box jumps really get me happy and electric. Gotta get the car charger for my aux . Also been learning how rats love to play wrestle and one researcher found that when two rats (one 10% bigger than the other) played, the bigger one would always win. Well after a number of times through a multitude of trials on different rats, it was found that the smaller of the rats would not continue to play with the bigger rats ever if it did not win at least 30% of the time. I found this to be mind boggling as did the professor in comparing that emotional stance of the loser rat to that of the emotional complex humans have daily with each other. Truly some fruit for thought moving forward in life. 9:43 amJanuary 10, 2018
Mormon experience
Was at a mormon party once and yes it was as fun as it sounds. There were snacks and soda and even water. Its really awesome though because it’s sort of like the whiter version of Greek life parties but with less drugs. Actually no drugs whatsoever. Yah that’s their thing, they won’t even drink tea or coffee. Bunch of very interesting, unethically orthodox group of modern people.
“Last day thoughts“
9:48 am december 31st
Well it is the last day of the Gregorian calendars 2017th year and boy do i not give a shit ! Had some trippy fucking dreams last night, dont know what to make of em but at least i remember some of it. Was running like usual at some points. Owed a guy 60 bucks which he turn threatened me with a knife where i in turn somehow knew defensive moves really well and caught him by the hands arms and body, took the knife from him ultimately breaking his hand in the process which was just so intense to hear his bones crack. But i then reassured him he would get his money eventually as we walked into a 711. After that occasion of us walking around and talking, some other shit went down that caused me to runaway from whatever was happening i think but i recall either running or driving or maybe even flying and seeing the moon at a very close distance to earth. It was completely lit except for the dark crescent. It was also extremely bright to the point where it was lighting up things around me like the trees and whatnot. Another strange part i recall was seeing the clouds being very very close to the ground as if to naturally occurring. The next thing i know im being woken up slowly but surely by the sounds of babies frolicking about upstairs sending me into this swirling dimension between the conscious reality and my dream worlds. I want to be able to hone the power of lucid dreaming. To be in control of one’s own reality to the point where u can move mountains and pretty much anything u want from there. Its nuts truly. How do i know i am not in a dream right now ? Well i am able to comprehend things much more clearly. Ill never forget one of the dreams where i figured put my mind was in the dream after noticing something strange about this figure that was trying to kill me. He looked like the guy from that movie about the fellow who was killing people with an air pressured nail gun. Anyway he had a different tool like a screw gun i think and i was like thats not what he uses…slowly breaking the dream chains from my reality causing me to realize i was in complete control of the reality surrounding me. It was tight and i went from there. Anyway. Signing off. 10:07
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(June 23rd, 2018)
Violence and entertainment, two concepts that don't seem like they should be in relation but most certainly are. Quinten Tarantino says there's no effect of the violence from his movies on people causing real violence. I find this to be bullshit. Violence for me personally is an utmost abomination. Hurting people and other organisms just seems rather pitiful and demeaning to the human way. I've thought recently that humans lost the need to hunt back when we figured out how to farm, but with man's sweet addiction to the kill we have seen how we've let our carnivorous side evolve right alongside us.
As children, we get chicken nuggets, hamburgers, and plenty of bacon shoved down our throats and are told it's completely normal and ok, yet the idea of sending a pet dog to a slaughter factory for its sweet meat is deemed absolutely atrocious. At least in America it seems we are full of pigs. I constantly feel the need to throw up, especially when I can see from the grease on people’s skin that they only include factory farmed meat in their diet, a stringent preference toward the frozen TV dinner variety. It's rather disgusting. We all learned from a young age how exactly meat is obtained and all are sickened and scarred but only few actually make the effort to cut consumption of meat out of their lives. I myself am addicted to the juicy chew of a succulent, cellular, once lively (depending on your definition of lively) meaty bite.
When will we collectively decide this is why we're sick? Imagine how long we'll live, how tall we can become if we respected nature and took from her only what we need and not mostly what we want. Personally, I believe war would cease to exist. The most consumed meat in the world is chicken. Chickens are the very distant relatives of the tyrannosaurus Rex. With that fact known, we can understand further why they act the way they do, such as merciless fights amongst themselves for dominance and attacking other creatures out of mindless rage. Virtually, roosters are ruthless. Their existence seems to stem around a frown. This should come as no surprise given their ancestry. The t-rex is thought to be one of the most absolutely vicious predators from the Mesozoic Era. -
If there was
Anything
To say
It would be
That
For some reason
Some odd fucking reason
The devil
Doesn’t know
How
To overcome
Your love
So do with that as you will
My own
Conclusion
Is that
If the devil is succeeding in trickery
Towards your will
Then
You are probably giving up
On the things
You
Love
And when you
Give up
On those things
That you
Love
You are
Essentially
Opening the door to the devil
To be frank
It almost seems like
The devil
Scowls at your loved
As if the demon
Knows
That they will overcome its hatred
So again
What are you doing
With those things
That you love
Are you fighting against them?
Are you afraid to embrace them?
Or can you overcome the
Trickery
To propel yourself to greater heights
This would probably
Be easier if
The devil gave up
On what it loves
Which is to fool you
What would happen then
Then your love would prove greater than
The devils
And then you are living like a god
Because really
It is mainly god
That can defeat the devil
Clearly god wants your support
If you are being placed against these
Demonic images
That seek to tear down that which
God loves
Only because
The devil wants to take what god loves
And squander its beauty
What will it be then?
Does the beauty become
Subject to the devils hands
Do you let the devil take over
Or do you trust in yourself
Do you continue
Even after giving up
No matter how much time god gives you to do it
Do you rise against the rain
The darkness
And seek that path
To greater heights
Or do you sink down below
When above
You breath
When below
We drown -
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(pt. 1) “Affections”
loving beauty ✧
human relationships
Act like human beings
Replying to comments
Good original content
indignation · ratios adding up
Universe
What am I giving back?
idealization of ‘Authenticity’
different ingredients
Quality / Quantity
High degrees of visibility
Technology · misgivings
viable tactics · Awareness
Boost engagements
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(pt. 2) “Published Author“
friends · reflection · inventive
multiplicity simulation · Ratio
Regulating visibility influencer
People · values · priorities
Engagement · Knowledge
Strong opinions · Veins
blood · time · half my day
Personal prowess · Business
agreement · financial · Power
·Platform · Accordingly · Rules
·Game · Pursuits · Lord · Involvement
· Owners · Spirit · Concepts · discourse
Culture shapes behaviors as much as code
· Accurate · foundational
Current · Potential · Recognize
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(pt. 3) “individual“
· Feedback · Analytical · playing the
game · outcomes · Controlling
enforcing · regulatory · Actors · series
· Questions · What are the rules?
important · Circumstances
· Productive · Systems · Manipulation
Beyond · impact · tools · reference
future · Dynamics · Broader
· Focus · Veteran · Paradigm Equal
Contrast · Series · Shifting
· lucidly · Reform · accountability
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There is an idea about power I have conjured over my years on this planet. The idea is as follows: power is to push. I realize this is probably lacking in some quality of definition you so rightfully sought. I have come to such a sentence by way of wondering how simply one may come to understand that which is sought with such reverence. Power is the act of pushing, I have come to understand. If not, how so? I do not know how not. I cannot even come up with an idea in my mind where power is not the act of pushing someone and/or something whether physically or psychologically. I can give plenty of examples as to how power is pushing, it almost feels laughable to ask me to provide one. Even if it is a kind push, it is the act of pushing against another. There is such reverence for pushing. Pushing someone along. Even pulling is pushing in the opposite direction. And so be it! Sometimes yah gotta push even when you don’t want to! And you let others push you around! You are okay with them bearing their own powers upon your being, thus, at least in the micro, leaving you powerless! But when is it not okay? Is it ever okay? What does consent mean? If someone is dying, what is power in that moment? How about after you save them? Or after they’re dead? Such micros. It’s almost wrong of me to tackle the micros, because what real power do they have? Well, I totally disagree, and it nearly pains me to explain on such boring terms that the collective of the micros in fact pave way for the massive one. And then the massive one has it’s own one singular awesome brunt of power! Is that good?? it that bad?? It nearly pains me to say that it has become clearer and clearer that it does not matter. All we can do is criticize power, push against it, but it’s still there, the push, is it an eternal push? “The Eternal Push: An Micro Essay on Power” should be the title of this piece. And guess what? I had to literally push the keys on the keyboard to type this. And guess what else? I pushed air in and out of my nose while pushing the keys. And yah know what else what else? I pushed my foot up and down with my toes so that my leg would push against non-existence, because you know, gotta be pushing something. I pushed against an itch to scratch it away, be gone you sick itch. Push my teeth against food so that it may be cut up proper in my pushing it down my gullet into my belly where it will be pushed more times than I care to know, until the final push in which is of but great sacrifice to my dominant nature, yet so be it be a push nonetheless, a gift that God did bless unto we. Push the waves and push the words right out of my mouth. Pushed someone cuz I was bigger and they punched me and so all I had to do was push it wouldn’t be that bad I thought but no it was a push. way to go, jerk.
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Fortitude flying through flames
of Doubt – Did double down to
dampen the flames that rose high
Then, without warning, we were
all wet from the tears of God
that did flow with our timelines
Enough to fill and refill the craters
of the moon – many moons
pass before I run away with
energy cloaked carefully,
until then, please take my hand
And we will fly through those
flames the sun so playfully
yet dangerously tickles our
sides with.
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What type of words to be taken from the collective consciousness is not to be taken lightly as all responsibility falls on us as creators to incur proper thinking in order to maintain semblance among ourselves. Yet let us not be so unforgiving for the love of all that is love, and that is to say that we may yet consider our past indiscretions towards the world and unto ourselves that they may be in themselves a powerful force in recognizing a source of a past self that once despised external aspects, and in the course of healing at least, wishes to reflect on those so-called sins and perhaps practice shedding a new light that is to say that in reflecting upon those mistakes maybe you will be able to forgive, full-heartedly, the mistakes of others with an everlasting eros. In doing so, we may, in my opinion at least, may flourish as a nation, and propel our entire species forward, not underground or in bits and pieces, but rather upward, supporting the dreams of those who dream dreams not yet dreamed, those we can only but dream about ourselves, who, if we so give a damn like our forenations before us, will see heavens with their physical born bodies, experiencing the likes of which only angels would have otherwise, and we will all be united in the skies, as we will share with them the maps to the universe, and the missions that have been sent down to us from the heavens stream of light waves, those nearly indecipherable messages that serve to give and nourish life, and invite life to be lived further than ever before thought appropriate for the likes of the three dimensional being, the origins of which come the monkey, fish, bubble, rock, element, and so be it, the atom and beyond. Here we stand, at last and forever, stand with me won’t you?
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In writing of the earth
Let us remember
How soft she was
The sharp edges realized by
Our own naivety
She meant just to nourish
That we could flourish
Into oblivion
Yet she holds us close
Still
So let us love her
Before one of us
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Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – September
September 11, 2015
What a wonderful day the sky presents us with on this day that will go down in American history as worthy of a black ribbon. But let’s not dive too deep into the subject, as there are those who, if they ever read this, could be very fragile to sore thoughts or the matter and will anything w/ their might to twist and turn words to make you out to be one of the ***** ***** or those ******. But yah, beautiful day just south of the pentagon in Northern VA. They say the devil lives in each and every one of us (just like God) and it’s up to us and our free will to refuse his temptations. Let me tell you, these are some very fun activities the “devil” is tempting us with. Now, I never used to feel any sort of presence when I’d give into temptation, but as of late, my sins have led me to believe I have a certain sarcastic voice that is very honest and real and hurtful going on in my head. It’s this deep, growly voice, almost like a distorted version of my own that pops its head in my thought process every once in a while. It was most active when I took the research chemical at the Nationals game. In religious terms, you could say I felt a tad possessed. There were so many evil thoughts of temptation rushing through my mind (ex: I was completely comfortable w/ the idea of me rushing across the stands, jumping over the wall that separates players and people (people and people) and running across the field). To be honest he’s in my head right now tempting me w/ the idea that writing in this stupid little notebook is a gay ass waste of time but I digress (hoping I used the word correctly there). This “devils” presence in my has grown rapidly within me and it used to scare me and it still does but I’ve begun to accept and enjoy it. It has made me a lot less afraid of things that would have previously held me back in my pursuits of happiness.
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Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – The Walk home
Words cannot begin to describe
what I’m seeing right now
This is an adventure
light everywhere
we overuse it greatly
so many colors
The moon is
It no longer hurts me
Just watching is fun
…
I am sitting in the middle of a parking lot, the sky is unbelievable
It’s a wonder how
The moon is telling me
a story . . . I have to follow
it out of the light
–
I have decided to decline
the moons offer of truth
though it is tempting
beyond belief
There is a whole nother
world that I must
experience
The truths the moon
offers are rather spectacular
to say the least, and a
clear beautiful night does
tickle one’s fancy, but I
understand that there will
be great truth again, when
the time is right.
For tonight though, I must
decline the moons offer
into the truth for it
seems safe to say I
will cry
…
I have always been
one to look up
The moon is rather
evil
the moon knows the
truth, you see the moon
seems to have this
special bondage with
the earth, before I
continue on my story
feeling, let me
say that this acid
trip is but an enhancement
of everything I can distinguish
without its help
It seems we all usually
seek for what’s new and
easy to behold when in
actuality it is among us
all the time. Most of us
seem to want to live for the
constant new vision and we
simply do not take the
time to sit down and look
at what’s around us
from the tiniest of noises
to the grandest of light,
we seem to all wish this
pursuit of grand happiness
living so quickly when
we do not see what’s right
in front of our eyes
But that is our way
we push and we push
constantly in hot pursuit
of the great
unknown, but for now
at least, won’t you sit
and listen to the story
I have to tell you
So the moon… this
sneaky bitch totally tried
to get me to walk into
the woods, with promises
of great truths and
shit. Don’t get me wrong
those stars looked
fantastic. I couldn’t breath
they were so captivating
But I could tell the
moon had terrible intentions
with my physical self
…
Earth is old
Humans have already
beaten the system, now
we are too bored to do
anything except kill
ourselves and start
anew
…
a message to myself,
do not worry young friend.
the best has yet to come.
Stay true to yourself, enjoy the
littlest things, for it is those
little things that bring you
the greatest truths.
I don’t even recall writing that
There are so many small
things all around how do I
know what to focus on? When
I’m enraged with one, it
seems rather consistent that
another comes and needs to
take its place. But that’s
what the Sagittarius has
been trying to tell you
she knows that deep within
you, you are the happiest
most fantastic being she has
ever witnessed. She is
so great I love my sag.
I cannot tell you the world
I was once in. It was a
very dark and cold zone.
I didn’t really know how to
carry my aquarian ways without
losing myself within them.
I had a sit-down with God earlier.
We had quite the char. He
continues to whisper in my
ears. God doen’t seem to
like the fact that we
title God with physical
titles like “he” or “she”
(he made that quite clear
as he yelled into my ear
with grand prominence)
God is telling me
a lot of cool stuff yo.
I should record myself
honestly no I shouldn’t
it would be rather creepy.
Someone on drugs does not
have the capacity to handle
themselves among those who
have elected sobriety. Reading
back on this I’m sure
most will question what God
told me. God is with each
and every one of us at all
seconds of life. To forget
that God is with us is
to forget ourselves. Now
do not take God as any
titled religion or faith of
sorts. God is the name
I know God by.
There is no
secret right, the truth is
always there, we simply
elect not to follow its path
at times, which unfortunately
leads to sinning. We can’t
seem to wrap our heads
around the concept of a
circle, so maybe we should use
the circle as an
indicator of God. God
isn’t there. We all want this
greater than life-esq being
to exist, BUT PLEASE TELL
ME WHAT IS GREATER
THAN LIFE??? It seems
we’re all in this constant
rush to die when there’s
this fantastic way of
happiness which is by just
to live. I hope this
all makes sense when I
look back at it.
AQ! Remember to not let
yourself down anymore!
things are lookin’ up dude!
there’s so much good on the
way all the time
I know there was
that rough patch where you
didn’t know what the fuck
was going on. You were
constantly in fear of
everything. There is no need
to be afraid anymore my
good friend. The tales you
have to tell come plenty
and the ears of those
who wish to listen will
perk at all times. Your
physical actions are fun, but
nothing is more soothing than
a sweet lay around
session w/ a love or
even a sweetheart . . . 😉
You do not live to impress
others, you live to be happy
and if another wishes
to be happy along with you,
they can join along.
Get that smiley face tattoo
on your ass. You know
you’re dying to make a
fool of yourself
while finding out how it
feels to get a tattoo:
If she could hear
my truest thoughts, she
would be so happy.
I’m envious of the mind of
a girl. It is their
minds that keep rest some
of the most dangerous of
creatures. I am glad there
are ones like friends who
keep questions floating
around. Funny friends, fantastic
air signs; The Gemini is
one for the ages to say
in the very least. One
and another are cancers
alike, along with another at
their finest. Scorpio be it,
if I could find myself foolish enough to
recognize that. Leo is the
lion that is God blessed
in his heart and may his feet
take him where his mind
may not sometimes. Libra
is the fiery feline at
present being themselves
though I may not know
them well, I know them
quite well!
…
The end of the water
bearer’s trip –
Well it seems I have grown
quite tired and I know I want
to get up quite soon to entertain
the Harvest Goddess.
(which i love to do, though
most would not deem it so lightly)
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Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – May
May 7, 2015
Last night was interesting to say the very least. I said quite a few things to her, quite a few honest things. It’s amazing how angry a person gets when they hear honesty come from someone’s mouth. My mind ended up in another zone again. the only time I really see the alternate world (without the use of drugs) is when I find myself in a state where my personality is dictated heavily by emotions. To describe the world’s even to myself is somewhat difficult. One world was completely white and seemed smoothed over yet fuzzy at the same time. The other was this somewhat distorted kind of world where there was no middle ground between small and large or white and black. Maybe I shouldn’t have taken that acid. Of course, maybe Steve Jobs shouldn’t have as well or bill gates.
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