Tag: philosophy

  • (7/10/26)
    you are so kind; continue
    your path of kindness and
    bring about goodness, so much
    of that glorious loving goodness
    that you share so well for
    all of your beautiful, gorgeous
    to die for loved ones and people
    all around (and animals, too.)

  • Conscientious (6/2/26)

    Work to grow your body to have ultimately rare and beautiful and super strong muscles
    Wonderful mind of immense intellect and loving, patient tolerance for those who conjure feelings of opposition

    SUPER RiGHTEOUS
    POSiTiVE HEALTH
    UNBEATABLE GLORY

  • Mysteries (5/18/26)

    What to do in life -> breathe,
    prepare, exercise, compete, smile,
    support, love, wonder, be, flow,
    forgive, give, thank and continue
    to grow with the discovery
    of mysteries

  • Togetherness (1/23/26)

    take it to another level
    What changes do we need to make
    to keep moving forward?

    Robert wants it (1/24/26)
    he wants it real bad
    forgive your beautiful, handsome self
    your soul attracts immense wealth
    Feel good for the life you lead
    The path is wonderful with glorious
    mystery ⁀ . ☆

    1:11 [kingdom] (1/24/26)
    it’s 1:11pm and I’m hearing about Thomas Hobbes’ “Levithan” from Yale’s free lectures on YouTube -> forgive me I don’t know the professor’s name.

    Hobbes (1/24/26)

    Complete control over society
    ⤷Absolutism
    Natural Rights
    Covenant -> contract
    between individuals
    Maintain Civil Peace and
    Security ∘ Paradox ∘
    Royalism or peasantry
    to be a product of one’s
    time, what else could one
    be?
    What opinions are taught in
    your state?
    Elizabethan era
    Was a boy during 1st Shakespeare
    Oxford at the age of 14

    ‘Gifted scholar’ (1/24/26)

    When we talk about Plato
    Classical Scholar ∘ initiate
    Philosophy and literature
    Aristocratic family ∘ Judges
    Emotional trial ∘ New Haven
    What is opposition?
    His first book was published in 1632
    God loves you ~ work hard and show God the beauty of His own creations ∘
    Homer – illiad ∘ Portraits
    Descriptions -> man of considerable charm
    You shall be kind & gentle
    with your loving words and
    beautifully wonderful actions ♡

    Carry forth love ♡ (1/24/26)
    Bring forth loving peace to your world with an immense, holy, divine, forgiving effort
    I love you all with all my heart and soul with great gratitude and body that yearns for your love in return forever with peace

    󠁯•󠁏⚬•

    you must post with love
    you are a peace writer
    you can create the world
    of peace you’re looking for
    We can do this together
    Robert has a beautiful
    loving soul and righteous holy spirit

    ‘God’s Ultimate light’ (1/24/26)
    Watch yourself 󠁯⚬ Watch your
    actions 󠁯⚬ Thank Christ •
    Silent Savior ⚬ No longer a
    victim, but a champion of
    extreme proportions • The
    best Robert I can be
    at all times -> all day
    every day with every divine
    cell of my holy granted
    fibers that connect together
    the fabrics of my righteous
    body full of God’s ultimate
    light ✧ Divine righteous being
    Creator of truth and
    Proper glory ⚬ Legacy
    you’re looking at the words of a winner •

    ‘Immaculate Manchester’ (1/24/26)
    Rest at the end, not in the middle
    never miss a day -> only shortcut
    Just fucking do the thing -> the life hack
    Understand the enemy’s weakness
    Beyond Valuation
    Immaculate Maturity
    Never satisfied, never finished
    Dream it, Believe it

  • TEMPO [JANUARY 15th, 2025]

    Keep improving

    Belief in each other
    Belief in our team

    MENTALLY
    tough
    amazing

    repetition

    GOD is GOOD • Belief in what we’re
    doing

    Never too
    Big

    testament to

    Went in

    team and their

    competitiveness
    fighting each &

    Special

    every day

    𖤐love

    truly wild

    for

    & fun

    the

    BROTHERHOOD

    Put up
    OR Shut up

    NEVER OUT OF
    the FiGHT

    Really Excited

    ∘ Special to be a part of ∘

    GREAT GROUP

    Great Confidence

    Sticking with us.

    Positive CONFIDENT

    Special
    𖤐Kid

    Excited ∘ Blessed ∘ Thankful

    do our jobs hard, do our jobs right

    HELL YEAH

  • Go to the pain (1/5/25)

    -> it becomes puzzle -> then you solve -> it becomes gem .𖢻 ݁ ˖
    Know what you’re going after
    Diagnose problems -> you are likely the cause -> know your strengths & weakness -> Design
    • Work with people who are good where you’re not
    thoughtful disagreement -> then protocols to get past disagreements -> curiosity
    • you don’t have to be the one w/ the

    (1/6/25)
    1st Calm -> Confident

    Activate & Create

    MAGIC -> you are a magician

    Clean habits

    Manifest & work to gain

    Victory & Success
    nothing better than

    Winning.
    BRAiN & HEART

    POWER

    • Fire within burning bright to be determined to do your job correctly with passion & Righteous discipline & unseen work

    Ultimate Professional • Give yourself confidence

    Doing the hard things over
    & over again𓈒 Putting the pieces together

    Locked in commitment

    1st Calm -> Confident

    ∘ Positive Days for us

    Activate & Create We believe in Winning Clean habits Execute Learn more about yourself

    MAGIC ->

    you are a magician

    Manifest & Work to gain

    Focus Blessing

    GRATiTUDE

    HANDS

    Victory & Success

    Able Better all around Grateful Cut it loose

    nothing better than

    the board Fighting for one another

    Winning

    ঌ Philosopher King ঌ Always a blast Real th
    Ultimate Faith ∘ Wins • Guys ∘ Belief is HUGE • Full Belief

    BRAiN & HEART

    D

    Fight to the end. Winning Vibe

    O

    Grit ∘ Depht Make it happen. Vibes Good

    G

    Faith in God
    F

    POWER

    I

    Step up

    G

    Humility is off the charts Success • Prepare

    H

    • Fire within burning bright

    T

    • Get ready

    B

    Show up do your thing
    E

    • One week at a time

    A

    to be determined to do your

    S

    Huge win Win = Great feeling Community

    T

    job correctly with passion &

    ENERGY ∘ RHTHYMN Clean up a lot of things

    Righteous discipline & unseen work

    Pumped ∘ Awesome • What are we about?

  • Heavy into the action (1/19/26)

    long hard road to the top
    Top in America ∘ Collect your

    •Coin⍟

    Become ultra endowed through your glorious belief in yourself to get your goals accomplished, becoming the most successful version of yourself you can possibly become ∘ You are a gigantic human being ∘ I will do my very best to be the very best Robert I can possibly be ∘
    We’re all the way back, baby!
    Success ∘ Fair minded beast
    Most dominant being flowing ~

    Tyson – Ruthless (1/20/26)
    Truly grateful

    that I found my wings

    before I hit the ground

    Time to level up (1/21/26)
    Create better times – you are the creator ∘ Every single day – you know it’s not going to end
    CONTINUE – Top percent – you don’t quit -> you adjust and keep going • DON’T QUIT

    (1/22/26)
    What can be done to grow your health to immense levels

    Togetherness (1/23/26)
    take it to another level
    What changes do we need to make
    to keep moving forward?

    Robert wants it (1/24/26)
    he wants it real bad
    forgive your beautiful, handsome self
    your soul attracts immense goodness
    Feel good for the life you lead
    The path is wonderful with glorious
    mystery ᯓ★

    1:11 [kingdom]
    it’s 1:11am and I’m learning about Thomas Hobbes’ “Levithan” from Yale’s free lectures on YouTube -> forgive me I don’t know the professor’s name.

    Carry forth love ♡ (1/24/26)
    Bring forth loving peace to your world with an immense, holy, divine, forgiving effort.
    I love you all with all my heart and soul with great gratitude and body that yearns for your love in return forever with peace

    ∘𖧋∘

    you must post with love
    you are a peace writer
    you can create the world
    of peace you’re looking for
    We can do this together
    We share a beautiful
    loving soul and righteous holy spirit

    God’s Ultimate light (1/24/26)
    Watch yourself ∘ watch your actions ∘ Thank Spirit •
    Silent Savior ∘ No longer a victim, but a champion of extreme proportions • The best Robert I can be at all times -> all day every day with every divine cell of my holy granted fibers that connect together the fabrics of my righteous body full of God’s ultimate light ✧ Divine righteous being
    Creator of truth and Proper glory ✧ Legacy
    You’re looking at the words of a winner •

    Immaculate Manchester (1/24/26)
    Rest at the end, not in the middle
    Never miss a day -> only shortcut
    Just fucking do the thing -> THE life hack
    Understand the enemy’s weaknesses
    Beyond Valuation
    Immaculate Maturity
    Never satisfied, never finished
    Dream it, Believe it

    What do you like about it (1/26/26)
    I like Star Wars I think because I have respect for the force, just like I have respect for the magic from the world of Harry Potter ∘ I like the writing of the Dark Knight, especially the delivery of the Joker’s dialogue – not bad, ironically𓈒

    Why to take Risk (1/26/26)
    To be bold and original leads to becoming

    Memorable

    leaving behind your

    legacy

    something to be shared,
    with the eons, if not
    just your flesh & bones

    Connected Spirits 𔓎-𔓎 (1/27/26)
    Fear not the clear resolution of my righteous glory – confident will your soul sway now that we have encountered and connected one another’s spirits.

    Now Execute ✦ (1/30/26)

    Positive, forward moving momentum
    you are big time now
    Earn / find / get your coins!
    Believe know in your confidence
    You have the abilities
    Now execute

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  • • Moments of kindness Rejected 

    Pity craved • WARRiOR • GoD

    • Pain • Townsquare • Treasure • Gesturing • Sarcasm • Realism • Annoyance • Family Suicide • Chip off the old block • Thanks for coming MONEY • Diamond pinky rings • FAt MAN • Clues • Senior Vice President at an investment firm • So much exploration 

    November” (11/2/21)i

    You only go through this moment once -> give those people appreciation genuine flattery from the heart • What does your heart tell you to do? 

    Elegant pondering

    “Not everything that is faced can be changed, But nothing can be changed until it is FACED” – James Baldwin 

    4 billion years ago -> life 𖦹

    CRUDE copies of themselves • Natural selection -> 1st coherently described by Charles Darwin, is an instrument of such enormous POWER, that from such modest beginnings, there can emerge all the richness & beauty of the biological WORLD • CARL SAGAN 

    Molecules based on carbon • Amino Acids • Molecules • From? Complex organic molecules

    •Soul•” (11/2/21)

    Improvise, Adapt, overcome Work -> My work -> intellectual Copyright

    ∘))—> Ugly when you get into the money of it 

    Get Rich & Rock the ⦅WORLD⦆ SOURCE of MUSiC

    Rosebud ∘ The Greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t EXiSt. 

    Two types of people, those w/ loaded guns and those who dig Ask yourself one question, do I feel lucky? Well do yah punk?

    Robin Williams” 

    All those moments will be lost in time, like teardrops in the rain GOOD MORNING Vietnam I love the smell of napalm in the morning 

    I feel the need the need for Speed ∘ Roads ? Where we’re going ; we don’t need roads ∘ We don’t have no barges, I don’t have to show you any stinkin’ BARGES 

    You make me want to be a better man ∘ Nobody puts the baby in the corner I wish I knew how to quit you Love means never having to say you’re sorry
    Autumn” (11/2/21)

    Here’s looking at you, kid ∘ I’ve always depended on the kindness . . . of strangers ∘ Ready for my closeup ∘ Would you be shocked if I put on something more comfortable ∘ You know how to whistle, don’t you? You just put your lips together and BLoW ∘ I’m not bad, I’m just drawn that way ∘ You’re trying to seduce me ∘ As far back as I can remember I always wanted to be a gangster ∘ Say hello to my lil friend 

    Godfather” (11/2/21)

    I’m gonna make him an offer he can’t refuse ∘ keep your friends close but your enemies closer ∘ BATMAN ∘ SPARTACUS ∘ James Bond ∘ The power of CHrist compels you ∘ It’s Alive ∘ You never know what you’re gonna get ∘ Life moves pretty fast, you don’t stop to look around every once in a while, you could miss it ∘ Get busy living, or get busy dying 

    Fortitude ⬡” (11/2/21)

    If you build it, he will come ∘ That’ll do pig ∘ What we got here, is failure to communicate ∘ you talkin’ to me? ∘ You can’t fight in here, this is the war ∘ ∘∘~

    Greed, for lack of a better word, is good. ∘ Show me the money ∘ The snozzberries taste like snozzberries ∘ Alright alright alright ∘ I’ll be back ∘ It wasn’t the airplanes, it was beauty who killed the beast 

    Rocketship ⚛” (11/2/21)

    I could have been a contender ∘ fasten your seatbelts, it’s going to be a bumpy ride ∘ I’m as mad as hell and I’m not gonna take this ANYMORE ∘ ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED ∘ Get AWAY from her you bitch ∘ Get to the Chopper ∘ YOU CAN’T HANDLE the TRuth ∘ To infinity & Beyond! ∘ Made it MA! Top of the WORLD! I DiD it! ∘ There’s no crying in baseball 

    November” (11/2/21)ii

    Just what do you think you’re doing here? ∘ What’s in the box? ∘ Elementary, my dear Watson ∘ Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn ∘ But why male models? ∘ Why so serious? ∘ I am serious, and don’t call ∘ Well, nobody’s perfect ∘ Go ahead, make my day. ∘ There’s no place like home ∘ Hasta la vista, baby ∘ we’re gonna need a bigger BOAT

    November” (11/2/21)iii

    Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. ∘ Wait a minute, wait a minute, you ain’t heard nothing yet ∘ It’s showtime folks ∘ It’s showtime ∘ Welcome to Jurassic Park ∘ Welcome to the Real World ∘ I have a feeling we’re not in KS ∘ They call me Mr. Tibbs ∘ There can only be one ∘ Two men enter, one man leaves ∘ Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? ∘ Do you like scary movies? Is it safe? 

    November” (11/2/21)iv

    Magic Mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of them all? ∘ We rob banks. ∘ Round up the usual suspects ∘ What have you been going through emotionally? ∘ Leave the gun, take the cannoli ∘ This is MY BOOMStick ∘ I aim to misbehave. ∘ Dead or Alive you’re coming with me ∘ I ain’t got no time to Bleed ∘ WHat I do have are a very particular set of skills, skills I have acquired over a very long career ∘ If they move, kill them 

    November” (11/2/21)v

    I’m too old for this shit ∘ It’s not the years on it, it’s the mileage ∘ When you grow up, your heart Dies. ∘ I was BoRN a poor black child ∘ You’re going out a youngster, but you’re coming back a star ∘ I am big, it’s the pictures that got small ∘ I’m kind of a big deal ∘ Good to be king ∘ with GREAT POWER COMES GREAT Responsibility ∘ What we do in life echoes in eternity 

    November” (11/2/21)vi

    Well, it’s not the men in your life that counts, it’s the life in your men ∘ Life finds a way ∘ I am not an ∘ In the Name of God, do your duty ∘ Do or do not, there is no try ∘ The stuff that dreams are made of ∘ You want the moon? ∘ Jerry don’t ∘ Let’s ask for the moon, we the stars. ∘ You had me at hello ∘ Really, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship 

    November” (11/2/21) vii

    Remember, Remember, the fifth of November ∘ They’re coming to get you Barbara ∘ Be afraid ∘ The horror, the horror ∘ We all go a little mad sometimes ∘ Fill your hand you son of a bitch ∘ God damn you all to hell ∘ You’re tearing me Apart ∘ English MF Do you speak it? GEt OFF MY LAWN ∘ You’re out of ORDER! ∘ My PRECIOUS ∘ STELLA! ∘ Snap out of it. 

    November” (11/2/21)viii

    Yeah, well yah know, that’s just like, your opinion man ∘ A martini is shaken not stirred ∘ Coffees for closers only ∘ Am I gorgeous? ∘ Somebody stop me! ∘ Alrighty then ∘ It’s in the hole! ∘ As if! ∘ Forget about it ∘ GREAT SCOTT ∘ YOU BETCHA ∘ GROOVY ∘ INCONCEIVABLE ∘ Plastics ∘ REDRUM / Murder! Murder!

    November” (11/2/21)ix

    Lah di dah, lah di dah ∘ Shall we play a game? ∘ Do you want to play a game? ∘ Shut up and deal ∘ May the force be with ya’ ∘ Jesus H. Christ ∘ We’re on a mission from God. ∘ We came, we saw, we kicked its ASS

    November” (11.2.21)x

    Voice • body • nourish • dazzle ∘ Clothes ∘ magical • supernatural • Astonish • Gold  • Borrow from all the arts • hearts & souls • Conscious • Goddess • Evoke Venus, the goddess of Love • Extensive, elaborate • Clusters of Gold • Gold embroidered • Exquisite figure • magnificent Jewel

    November” (11/2/21)xi

    No words can convey her • Ensemble • harmonious Admiration • Buzz • Key🗝DAZZLE✧ harmonious • Attention • changed • LARGER THAN Life • FANTASY • spell • Distract • hint • screaming it • Reveal • imagination // ARMS • Bare

    November~” (11/2/21)xii

    Movement • demeanor • graceful • suggestive • floating • Obsessed • tremulous • Manner • nonchalant aura • relaxed • obvious • languorous air (characterized by tiredness or inactivity, especially of a pleasurable kind • characterized by an oppressive stillness) 

    November” (11/2/21)xiii

    time • world • love • Pleasure •v• Your gestures • ambiguity • innocence • misunderstood • Permeating • Song is liquid and attractive • The unattainable • The seas beckon you wave back 

    November” (11/2/21)xiv

    Delightful • love • power of words • weakness • Master Language • longing • Adaptable • Wit • Charm • Particular • Strong effect • Play • Toy • Kiss • Bold • Eyes • Hands • Safe • Quick 

    November” (11/2/21)xv

    Nothing can stop him • his story is irresistible • Set their hearts ablaze • intense look, a clear indication he was something new and exciting sending her drab life into the flames of fury • desires uncontrolled • Agree • BoLD • He proposed to her • act or attitude of loose morals • Who don’t know Right from Wrong? • Lacking legal or moral restraints • Behavior, revelers lived for challenges • Publicized loud as fuck 

    November” (11/2/21)xvi

    Deuce • Creep • Predator • Novel • Demonic talker • apologies lost, no backing down now • threesome • Remarkable remake • Supernatural Secrets • Uncontrollable urges • Exhausting efforts • worthy wait • Glowing gorgeous • vulnerable victims • can’t control • intense inspiration • distracting desire • Potent Power 

    November” (11/2/21)xvii

    The key • do not hesitate • ABANDON RESTRAINT AND IMMERSE YOURSELF • go • relinquishing control • fundamental submission/weakness • worries/mistrust/charm // thinking about the aftermath • Not worrying • resistance • obstacles • catalyze • engulfed in the moment • CREATE OBSTACLES / RESISTANCE in LIEU OF NATURAL OCCURRENCE • YOU CANNOT BATTLE W/O FIRST SHARPENING YOUR SWORD 

    November” (11/3/21)i

    Nietzsche – suggests that the “Slave revolt in morality” begins when resentment becomes a creative force. In allowing resentment & hatred to grow in him, in having to rely on patience, secrets, and scheming, the man of ressentiment ultimately becomes cleverer than the noble man. 

    Monster in my thought too hideous to be shown. 

    Iago the SNAKE 𓆙

    Need to see into the soul; see the thoughts we cannot 

    You would not understand my soul if my heart was in your hands 

    Godlike view of the soul 

    November” (11/3/21)ii

    • Extreme • Impudent [not showing due respect] sarcastic • nail/lip biting • Cares not for what you think • Paradox; Extreme; Supreme; Enhance; Conservative Culture – Shine & be appreciated • Fresh air • Provider • Essence • Go farther than anyone else is willing to • I DON THE DUKE OF EARL 

    November” (11/3/21)iii

    Great • do not offer • meh pleasantries • allowed in society • reach into the inner external -> the repression awaiting your arrival & repose • Liberate your mind • Uncover the forbidden/dangerous/evil 

    “Today I escaped from ANXiety. Or NO, I discarded it, because it was within me, in my own perceptions – not outside” ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⡀

    -Marcus Aurelius

  • BO$$ Money (12/11/25)

    Make money from your content
    Hopefully they

    like it!

    (12/28/25)

    I was quite creative on both of these days ∘ I’m surprised I haven’t written in this fucking thing since then. Life smells really good sometimes, for no immediately apparent reason, so all we can do is sit back and enjoy the odor with a hesitant composure as to what may be true about the occurrence.

    More to go! (12/28/25)

    I like to write words because they are very pretty & I can make them very kind & powerful at the same time no matter what that’s what’s so interesting about words for me I guess is their innate ability to impose within anyone certain feelings and understandings of which they themselves expound upon in their most minute mannerisms, so clever are the ways in which they hide their thoughts, yet we can still feel them so clearly as if to be reaching out physically through mere uncanny telepathy via pattern recognition

    Writing your goals (12/28/25)

    I have so much more to write, wish I’d take more time to do so. I wonder if writing actually improves my life. I used to accept just feeling different meant that all of this was worth it, but my moneys are still low; Would writing … well, let me try and we’ll see:

    My goal is to finish

  • What is it to write like a madman? What does it mean to have righteous handwriting? What if you wrote a whole book – series of books…by hand。°‧⋆˚࿔ you were once less touched by education

    Activate that piece of your soul

    Bring forth into reality that inner BEASTMONSTER96 you righteous divine angel of God mighty with glorious strength that supports that eternal frame of bones that stay sturdy through the most difficult of reckoning ∘ Feel your divine patterns bringing out your inner billionaire – that which holds the most power in any & every circumstances

  • ৡ♱ৡ (11/2/25)

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  • Brilliant ideas (10/8/25)

    To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.


    Effective communication turns your knowledge into influence & impact Having knowledge but lacking the power to express it clearly is no better than never having any ideas at all.

    Speak less, say more. – Eloquence is often define by consciousness & impact, not verbosity. Listen deeply, then contribute value.

    It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters

    Play it as your own (10/8/25)

    Think of the life you have lived until now as over and, as a dead man, see what’s left as a bonus and live it according to Nature. Love the hand that fate deals you and play it as your own, for what could be more fitting?

    By three methods we may learn wisdom: First by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.

    View every new day as a gift, eliminating trivial worries and focusing on essential action

    Wisdom is cultivated through introspection, learning from mentors, and the harsh lessons of action & failure

    Your inner world (10/8/25)

    Be the change that you wish to see in the world. -> Believe in yourself, already! Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. – Rumi

    The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others

    Action oriented

    Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible

    Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment

    The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short, but in setting our aim too low and achieving our mark. Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal.

    You so cool :) (10/8/25)

    Success requires a clear defined vision to manifest an abstract desire into a concrete reality

    Motivation gets you started, but discipline and consistent action are what close the gap to success.

    Think big -> live above your potential

    Success is a continuous journey of improvement -> the process is the reward

    Confidence is a result of taking action despite your fear

    Persistence is a virtue superior to innate talent, intelligence or education – It is the ultimate differentiator

    Take a deep breath and love yourself (10/8/25)

    Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm. I am a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work the more I have of it [Luck in bounties] -> Luck often favors those who have prepared and acted diligently, making them ready to capitalize on an opportunity when it appears

    Great success and progressive change require a foundational vision that is shared & collective

    It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation

    Power of thought (10/8/25)

    If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things. A well educated mind will always have more questions than answers

    There is no nobility in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self

    Man’s greatness lies in his power of thought.

  • I keep showing up; they can’t stop me!

    your hair and physical features are so beautifully perfect and wonderful and attractive ∘ Shining face • Glowing resolution

    Glorious articulation • righteous intellectualism • Most good and on time • Perfect mind, body, loving spirit, soul of Earth carrying forth the best efforts in endeavoring and accomplishing your goals and ultimately everlasting life for you and your loved ones & peace for your wonderful world. In your heart, carry your very best loving energies; become so charming & clever w/ your thoughts

  • Best Access (9/30/25)

    Today is the last day of September and in lieu of a holiday spirit, coupled with a seriously rainy Tuesday vibe, I want to spill & spew whatever words do come to mind • • ∘ such seed we sew so soulfully • serene sea surfer

    God Righteous entity turning dreams into reality • Super strong hands always writing that which emerges most divine

    Righteous, loving soul giving the world all of the energy you possibly can without relenting especially in the face of adversity

    Constantly raising your skill levels • Does profit always mean success? What does it mean to be free? to have freedom over your body->

    Ethos (9/30/25)

    What freedoms can you surely carry out? Where are you experiencing restraint? What is holding your freedoms back? How freely can you move your body? What movements can you make with your body? Who can you talk to and what can you talk to them about? What do we truly want to do with our freedoms? What levels of power can you exude from your very fingertips you bloody righteous awesome fucking God of Olympus you freak of nature

  • ideals & endeavors (9/20/25)

    Sharpen your thoughts and become victorious with your newfound mindset driven for success ~ the unstoppable being of love & compassion so full of divinity that seeks to root out that which is evil albeit close reflection with like beings, of whom sacrifice themselves so that your goodness may reign powerful above all that seeks to bring about ruin ∘ Strength granted unto you by the loving hands of God’s blessed angels, carry forth with immense gratitude and bring about that change which will make your life so much better, or however, in the realization of your most righteous peace finding ideals & endeavors

  • in such random fashion (9/20/25)

    The epitome of our lies squanders any hope at lasting glory ∘ Let our Greatest and highest truth reign magnificent as we shine our lights of divine culture so bright, lighting each other up to reveal our miraculous beauty to the world and it’s varying Gods who only wish they could revel in such glorious mortality • Spinning ~꩜ dizzying -꩜ falling, laughing ~ wondering, planning, feeling our notions flying around our grand, colorful spectrums of thought that swirl around brains electrified by those not so silent vibrations of the universe that float in such random fashion that it somehow brought about the beauty of our lives

  • Captain! (9/15/25)

    Where’s your savior? Always within only not some other body but one’s own -> that is to say you are the savior

    And so be it, lead the way, Captain!

    that mighty sea awaits our return, that we may share with it tales from the lands

    We will rise stronger, more powerful … better than we were once before

    May your strength & guidance reign so supreme ∘

  • & lovely (9/14/25)

    you are so amazing & so incredible & so attractive & wealthy & beautiful & divine & strong & loving & kind & generous & witty & intellectual & articulate & profound & lovely

    THE 𖤓 SUN

  • He dug deep to find what God had gifted him at birth the flaming sword of Michael embedded within the fabrics of his red blood cellular structure bringing forth on the world God’s divine will so that you may have lived with Ultimate Righteous Action ∘

    Plentiful golden rays loving rivers of life running to bring the villages nourishment & so does the oil man run drums back & lo for our very nourishment, a liquid life unto glory ∘ Will the guitar be playing for you at the gates of heaven

  • Control over your body (9/4/25)

    Powerful mind with total control over your beautiful body as you carry forth those most righteous actions indicative of your divine spirit that flows throughout your blessed veins filled with the warmth of life-giving blood supplied by your healthy heart ❤︎ We work hard with love flowing with an action taking intellect that takes over with Godlike spirit like an angelic machine carrying forth those most righteous efforts that hold together the foundations of societal ongoings filled with surprising glory & ultimate laughter existing to heal & fill the air w/ waves of victory

  • Gratitude abound (9/2/25)

    Righteous soul pondering the grand magnitude of those finite resources

    Continued reverence for the sun as photons carry forth living energy so divine as to blind the mortal from realizing it’s most dangerous depths ∘ Holy inspiring bringer of life cultivate untouchable glory to be sought & aspired after yet replication would mean eventual replacement, so may I for now absorb it’s holy rays of generous loving beauty as it’s cellular matrix brings my own life righteous color & fulfillment • May I in turn spread love & joy among those I’m blessed enough to come into contact with throughout the days

  • Righteous Blood (8/23/25)

    you can prove anything can happen by the sheer will of your glorious fortitude • Peaceful Resolution within your realization & subsequent loving of the divine gifts blessed upon your wonderful soul by the giving source of the charitable universe • Gratitude flowing through your being • Righteous glory shining from your powerful body

    May your glorious tale reign supreme in the wake of the collective liquification of our individual battling’s where our strengths mesh to create the golden aura of powerful, loving, divine souls of glorious harmony that sings through the sharing of vibrations so bright with the light from the depths of your inner star which emerges with certain calm

  • I will try to explain how I feel. Everything I see has an unseen base or little planet where it functions. Everything is different there are never 2 things exactly alike, what they see is part of the big picture under the universe.

    We are all different aliens with different reasons to do things and we live all in our minds and we tell our body what to do. I think everything is part of the astral dimension. When I felt infinity it scares me. But how I can not only feel it I know it. I hate it. The physical dimension is nothing compared to the astral I think there is also a couple others. I dunno.

    I really can’t do anything. I failed BIG tests today I’m sure. I don’t know what’s wrong w/ me but I’m fairly sure no I’m sure I’m not just imagining it.

    {NOTE From the Scribe: this was “pre psychedelics” Z, too; they don’t hate infinity or find it scary anymore or think people are aliens [not that psychedelics had much to do with that but it was “mental illness” at this time] ᦠ it was around the time they thought their friends were secretly aliens and hallucinated some stuff so that’s why it was scary}

    Visual by Z
  • Unstoppable Power (8/19/25)

    Get such huge beautiful strong divine muscles • you’re so jacked & ripped with blood flowing with loving glory ∘ Money flows to you with love like a magnet ∘ you are immensely wealthy & sexy & doubtless in your positive endeavor to create the greatest vibrations that lead to your winning every game & championship • you are wealthy & victorious & articulate in the way you exemplify your swagger • your preparation is unmatched • you are an unstoppable beast master glorious golden king of diamonds with the power of the sun & righteous spirit that spreads the greatest joy & attracts the most wealth & wonderful beauty

  • The Scribe (8/13/25)

    Spiritual Reconciliation

    It is your time to be great

    Wonderful thoughts of beautiful life flowing through veins so divine & kindness abound𓈒 Your face is full of those righteous thoughts that God blesses your mind with • You have such a powerful mind that is able to control your body & carry forth actions of strength and powerful being ∘ An angel of light spreading joy & peace as your words heal those listening and who hear & your eyes absorb the wealth the world offers with endless acceptance & patience & curiosity, peacefully

    Peaceful improvement (8/12/25)

    With peace loving recognition, you use effort to increase your body’s strength & endurance and subsequently improving your brains ability to think the most premium thoughts that in turn fuel the cycle of action taking that thus improves the overarching quality of the way you speak to & treat people, thus improving & bringing love, light & life to their own life which will exponentialize the improvement of your own life in your endeavor for success in garnering wealth & overly substantial exciting best glory • you are so righteous in your beautiful endeavors to bring forth the best possible feeling that people love

    With a smile •ᴗ• (8/12/25)

    Meditative peace as you wonder about the beautiful minutes that pass and your unconscious absorption of divine energy that radiates through the air to you as a gift from the heavens that evoke magical reckonings that indeed bring forth from within you the righteous angel warrior of God whose flaming sword of courage defies all expectations as it overcomes the bout of evil & instead spreads goodness and life to the world that seeks to discover the answers & further mysteries the grand vastness of the universe has to offer with arms wide open as if to invite our furious curiosity with certain fervor & generosity with a smile 🙂

  • Coming back to life (8/1/25)

    from the depths of darkness that once held your soul so bound do you now emerge with glorious divine light everlasting through the rainiest days so that new life may feel your radiance as it seeks to flourish in the wake of your loving caress

    Virginia (8/2/25)

    Virginia is a wonderful state

    I’d love to live there

    It’s where I’ve met so many friends

    lovely, lovely Virginia

    Energy flowing through it’s many trees, trees are actually quite green

    And that’s actually in Northern VA

    I love North Virginia, maybe because I’ve seen it grow over the years. I wish I could afford to live there, alas I don’t think I will be able to live near there much longer. If I do move, I hope I like the new place as much as Nova. If I stay, then hopefully things get better

    Make some more (8/2/25)

    Money Money!

    – Vincent

    is so so good love

    mighty fine details

    every little bit counts

    write your heart into infinity

    you lovely space monkey

    Flip a couple bricks

    sell em by the zip

    Bring forth love &

    laughter ∘ Exude joyous vibrations as you flow through the universe

    What to experience

    What you have is the experience to be seriously rad as you create a prosperous life for yourself in the righteous pursuit of bringing joy & strength to other people as we share in the energy flocculation that we call life & getting along together as beings of the same cloth ∘ let us hold each other hand in hand until the end where we will look back on our success with a curious amazement as to how we could have accomplished such feats

    The sound of a deer (8/3/25)

    Howl of the wolf

    through the quiet of the night

    •∘

    fly an airplane

    Oats are good for your heart so I started drinking oat milk but then

  • (7/13/25)

    I Don’t Want you to

    think about it。。。

    just do it!

    I wonder if reading those essays has made me a better writer

    “lovely love” is probably one of my greatest creations.

    Taking care of our people

    learning this is hard

    Understand what the stakes are

  • What is trust to you? (7/3/25)

    What is, to you, a proper good lie? Tis the opposite of a mighty fine truth。

    (7/4/25)

    Today is July 4th, a most distinguished Friday in this lovely summer season. It’s been exactly one month since I started using a red pen. Writing in red reminds me of those words in the Bible said by Jesus. W

    (7/10/25)

    After dinner, Charlotte invited Raissa and Drip to hang out with her, Beaver & Xue. And so she joined as they around a large couch, Beaver flipping through different movies and shows.

    “Oh, wow. I didn’t know we had cable!” Said Beaver, excited to scan through the many (all but forgotten) TV networks.

    “What do you want to watch, Raissa?”

    “I, I’m not sure, this is…television, right? With movies?” Raissa asked to the groups shock.

    “Yeah! TV! Let’s watch sleepy hollow!” Charlotte proposed.

  • The Days of Robert (4/14/25)

    The Ancient Legend

    The meaning intention vs. reception

    Guess what the writer took it to mean

    Modern historical consciousness

    Different understanding of the universe/world

    Cosmos • Universal • Structure • Arise

    Support for studies • Learn something

    ╰⤵

    in the grip of that powerful emotion

    • snuffed out for good

    Sign of civilization

    mobilize

    Courage and integrity

  • Must do something ∘ What do you want to be? Be your boss • listen to your own commands ∘ Be your own kingdom

    you are your own monarchy

    Capability ∘ Leadership ∘ Bend to your own will ∘ Who is still next to you? If you’re the person of worth you want, your reign will rule strong

    Focusing on what should be done in this moment ∘ Value ∘ invoke glory • Thank the sun for it’s beautiful rays of light ✧ Glorious, glittering shine • Divinity • Glory

    A chance to bring about everlasting life

    What work can we get done now? Are we prepared to undertake action?

    What can we do to prepare for what needs to get done – to defend our lives against the evils of lies

    Fulfilling your obligations (4/8/25)

    Strengthen yourself • glory from our ancestors, from God & the Universe

    Effectiveness of your work ethic ∘ Well intentioned man ∘ What is the price we pay for procrastination? ~> a wasted life

    Become instead your own boss of whom carries expectations of you to fulfill the assignments that need to get done in order to keep the business afloat & in turn managing to maintain some sort of semblance of what it means to be human ∘

    Righteous loving glorious

    beautiful divine waves of love

    coursing thanks to you & me

    9:15AM (4/8/25)

    He woke up again

    Hell yeah • Here’s the day, again.

    “I need it” he tells himself “to feel the glory, again”

    He looks around at the empty room he built for himself.

    Such a small castle; and he gets out of bed to look out the window, forgetting to rush into assignment and thinking only of the word, again.

    Household Codes (4/8/25)

    May we carry our home in peace & harmony ♡

    All my life I want . . .

    . . . Respect my mind

    (4/9/25)

    4:47AM ∘ Dark, cold, writing this outside under lamp light

    Weighing in (4/9/25)

    at around 181 lbs, at least, two weeks ago [LOL]

    (4/10/25)

    Taste of the divine

    (4/11/25)

    ∘ Become super famous & loved globally for infinite positive/good reasons ∘ Spread joy & peaceful loving vibes • Build • Grow • Evolve

    Learn • understanding • Becoming

    Beginning • Strength • Beauty

    Phonogachi

    Admission in self-betterment

    Cooperative • Compromise • Balance

    How are you going to interpret that? (4/11/25)

    We demand he is brought back as soon as possible • Resonate • tuning fork

    Treatment of people – how do you treat people? What are the consequences of your decisions? Possible to continue to live •

    Reflection – who are we as a country?

    Inhabitant • Citizen • Successful

    It won’t be too long • Deserve • Ability

    How should you be treated?

    Ability to decide • Consistent

    We need more tunes (4/12/25)

    Please keep making music ♡

    I ♡ singing & dancing 𖨆♫♪

    Show up in person

    give care • best case scenario

    Thanks for having me ∘ Real people

    Anecdotal

    What gives you hope? (4/13/25)

    The kids. The children give me hope; they’re playful and they’re energetic and they’re surviving •

    I believe that the

    human spirit is

    incredible & the Spirit

    of children is more than

    any of us have as

    adults

  • Optimal Solution (4/1/25)

    Mathematical ecologist

    Harvesting ∘ Environment

    Social interaction ∘ water ∘ information

    Animal behaviors ∘ computations

    Voice of… (4/2/25)

    (4/3/25)

    Appreciating life before the grave.

    Supposed to be hot & rainy this weekend

    Not sure what

    What we go through (4/5/25)

    We’re out of our fucking minds ∘ money making vehicle

    High occupancy Who the hell do you think you are?

    You know what’s hilarious

    You are or you aren’t

    What are you sad about?

    Over the horizon

    Jesus Christ

    Crazy Elf

    Learned a lot of things in life

    Building everything from the ground (4/5/25)

    level ∘ Doing something about it •

    Starting from a better place

    What is your level of independence?

    Force to reckoned with

    Folks like you don’t come around often

    Still working ∘ support ∘ go a long way ∘

    improving brain functions

    Ringing, gorgeous beauty

    Legacy ∘ Billionaires

    Foreign leaders ∘ Controlling the World

    People who get this will understand

    Learning about who you are

    Desperate wealth • Individual basis

    There is a Winner (4/5/25)

    What can we expect to see? Show up • $40 million • One hundred million dollars • Business Working women & men ∘ Creates the system ∘ What do you believe?

    The body learns

    the will to live is an interesting thing.

    Is anything possible to anyone?

    Challenges ∘ Neural ∘ dopamine circuitry

    Embrace new learning, new challenges

    Renovation • Unexpected • Preparation

    Imagine a great place

    Mindful Hospital

    Stress is by far the biggest killer

    Measure their stress levels -> will give us answers about our health

    You don’t get burnout if you’re mindful (4/5/25)

    It can be exhausting if you’re not getting anything • we need a mindful checklist • Fruits and vegetables (I feel like we need a new word for vegetable) things become automatic -> mindless -> lacking awareness ∘ Checklist

    Better than better way -> mindful checklist ∘ Beyond yes/no -> can only answer if you’re paying attention -> notice -> care -> grow, recognizing you don’t know

    Notice the changes in people

    Hyper awareness • Hyper understanding

    Believe there’s a right answer ∘ any experience is

    only experienced through you

    Equal choices ∘ Choose your adventure

  • Righteous Mapping (5/14/25)

    What do you like to write about? hm? Say it then

    “Be me or fight me” – You

    What do you put in your mouth?

    Damn life hurts

    Legendary thinking ∘

    Anytime, Anyway, Anyhow

    Making your force field

    Stronger

    When will you be Satisfied? (5/15/25)

    I’m not sure what satisfaction means

    Center

    Chester

    (5/16/25)

    What can you (we) do to maintain calm & peace?

  • Chess (5/5/25)

    You love to play chess, so why not play more? Let not the downfalls of your heroes be the backlash of a spirit you hold so close to your heart & being. May you succeed in many moves ahead of you; even now in your brain do the pieces move in favor of your great victory. Feel them. Be part of their glory as they work with you to capture the hearts of your opponents. Forget not to shake their hands upon completion of the mission in gratitude for their suffering at your hand & team.

    Writing to improve (5/5/25)

    my soul ∘ my heart ∘ my mind

    & body & spirit so that healing

    & betterment may exponentialize

    Money, so much (5/6/25)

    What can you do to earn $10,000,000,000.00? Focus on your duties, make good decisions, learn that saying no to certain things that don’t work with you to improve your life

    A Prayer (5/7/25)

    I thought about writing so instead of doing the thing I was about to do (still going to do that) I wrote this real quick ꨄ︎

    (5/9/25)

    SiGNificance

  • Be so good & kind as you seek to spread joy unto the world

    (6/8/25)

    My heart goes to the people of L.A.

    May the **** heed their

    Warning

    (6/11/25)

    Waking that within which brings about goodness to the world & ensuring the pursuit & achievement of everlasting peace & glory for the world, that we may all live in harmony in reverence of improving the standing of our character & the health of our loved ones.♡

    “Ink dabbling” (6/12/25)

    Amazing Change • Make it good

    Heal the sick with your magnificent

    BEiNG ∘ Really caring ∘ Be good

    Believe in yourself ∘ You are the best

    (6/13/25)

    Mental fortitude • Positive energy

    Planetary ∘ Galactic • Earth

    We are so fascinating • Various versions

    of human beings • Ultra terrestrial • Time

    Grains of sand make a beach

    Biological • Digital • Compressed information

    Quantum Computing

    Beautiful, loving GLORY ✧

    Righteous wanderings

    intentional endeavors

    Mind changing self-awareness

    What can we make?” (6/13/25)

    Making things happen with what you have at your fingertips •

    (6/14/25)

    Honey, bees, flowers

    & shit 🌻🐝

    Magical being • Mythos

    Astrological beings

    Physiological ponderings

    Games of life

    Rules for Glory

    Classical personality

    King of your own mind

    Get it all out •” (6/14/25)

    What the fuck?! You’re incredible!

    (6/15/25)

    (6/16/25)

    You are an attractive entity

    The blood that flows through emerges from & as the divine

    Watch me change things for the better • Make my dreams come true • Whatever it takes

    You will make it happen

    And watch your life flourish

    Bringing the beauty from within

    into reality 𖥔

  • March, 2025 ☘︎

    “Today” (3/17/25)

    the other day I probably said the worst things I’ve ever said to her. I’m trying to not be negative or mean & positivity feels fake so I just want to relay facts at this point. I’m not happy with being disrespected in our relationship. In fact I am certain she doesn’t respect me, although she has been nice. Hope she has a good, long & happy life because I do not know if we are together anymore.

    “Lifechanging” (3/27/25)

    yale • Harvard • Ivy • College student • Libraries • Studying • Success • Academia • Freedoms • Growth • Learning • Development • Truth & Freedom • Strategy • Private profit • Daring • Voyages • Frighten the authorities • Fiery Battle • Treachery • Piracy • Ceased • Transforms crime into politics

    “Super Righteous” (3/28/25)

    What can I do to reach divine being within myself so that my physicality may become Godlike in structure & mind & depth ~> love • heart & soul

    What do you change from them?

    Zarephath • Drenched

    Hometown Boy

    Mood changes

    Righteous times

    Righteous measures

    Righteous body

    Serving my people

    Simple Kindness” (3/28/25)

    Calm care • Salvation of love

    How did Paul die? Decapitation by Romans

    Tell us that story

    Journeys • Rented rooms

    First he heals them

    Begin Again” (3/30/25)

    We are exhausted • What is scarlet?

    .

    .

    Flickering light

    their city

    feels natural to have you here

    “Power & Control” (3/31/25)

    Power to not get upset with your loved ones ∘ Control over your actions ∘~> what is in my control is my limbs & my facial expressions & my thoughts ∘-> it is sometimes difficult to control my thoughts -> that is to say I’m not quite sure which ones might pop up within my brain at any given point in time. How much power do you have over the things within your control? I think I have more power over the things within my control than I act. Imagine if you act so kind & patient while getting so smart & strong and believing in yourself & that you are so beautiful & attractive & loved

    Exit West [Book analysis]” (3/31/25)

    The novel establishes borders insofar as describing the locations of certain activities. Beyond that, the novel breaks down the idea of borders by leaving places (including their city of residence) unnamed and untitled. This is a curious choice by Hamid, as it brings forth a sense of mystification, leaving the reader to fill and/or appreciate such gaps. It also brings to mind the idea of an egoless war, defying the importance placed upon nationalism.

    -> internal borders

    -> Nadia vs. Saeed’s personal boundaries

    “Mindful vs. Mindless” (3/31/25)

    Mindful = having fun -> act of noticing

    VS.

    mindlessness -> focus is mindless

    ـــــــــــــــــــــــﮩ٨ـ

    enhanced, charismatic

  • February ’25

    listen more carefully (2/4/25)

    am wanting to be so much kinder & patient and loving to lady

    Is never wanting to lose my cool and only hold her so close all the time and be so kind and gentle and patient and loving and hold her so close in my heart even when she is not here and tell her through my soul that I love her with every drop of blood that my heart churns into my body that is hers forever.

    Thank God she was there

    I’ll be writing all the time and you’ll be getting the checks…

    I won’t forget

    Everything takes time

    Learning (Never fail her again) (2/4/25)

    Pray again!

    Never fail her again

    “And he was giving everything back, as everything must be given back, so that, passing through death, it can live forever.”

    4:44pm (2/9/25)

    I know how special this place is and I know how special a person I can be and I’m just happy to be a part of it ∘

    turns 67

    Redefine with new tools

    the Ultimate test ∘ Crystal ball

    ∘ Faster Start ∘ Stay Healthy

    ∘ Good & talented

    They’ll talk about this

    FOREVER

    Every single step -> everything you got ∘ For the person beside you

    Won (2/9/25)

    Debate Greatness ∘ What is GREATNESS? What does a GREAT [you] look & act like? ∘-> Embody your GREATEST SELF ∘ Put in the work every single year ∘ Continually winning. We know who we are ∘ We embrace who we are ∘ We Come together and take on the mission. Hard fought battle ∘ Earn Respect ∘ Give Respect

    Honesty & Natural Style (2/10/25)

    Zen – to stop thinking, temporarily -> even when you think

    (2/11/25)

    ∘ impiety 𓃊 a perceived lack of respect for something considered sacred. -> sacrilege -> large belief system disrespected -> exile

    Anaxagoras – introduced the concept of “Nous” (cosmic mind) as an ordering force -> Panspermia -> life exists throughout the universe and could be distributed everywhere -> also speculated that the sun might be just another star

    Gentle (2/12/25)

    Kindness is what I’d like to embody nowadays

    Head Writer

  • Environment ∘ Strength demanding skills

    High level skills ➙ not stressful

    Very powerful; Proper training/learning/living

    just drew a bloody bit

    A GUST of Wind Whistled

    Wildly without repose

    @ 10:50pm –

    I wish that we will stop hurting

    each other. May we spread good love

    and good life with each other

    SO that our future presents are

    full of success we work so persistently

    towards in the midst of our current

    presence. Keep going, keep loving ღ

  • fastidious dragons

    Brought about some stars 

    To share with the likes of eyes

    That would stare upon me 

    With hearts so full of loving being 

    That serves me new bundles of hope

    Being a human 

    Sitting on a chair 

    Drinking a coffee

    And making a point 

    To be more important in some respect 

    To garner better respect 

    In our passing by of certain time

    Making value of those precious 

    Seconds 

    A second thought forgot to cross your path 

    Mindful of your forgetfulness 

    Remembering that you forgot 

    Memories fading in and out 

    Dragons flying around 

    Breathing fire and smoke 

    Looking dastardly 

    As if they’re going to eat you up 

    So you grab your sword 

    Ready for battle 

    Or you take leave with speed

    As much speed as possible 

    Either way will be a fastidious affair 

  • Concrete Barriers

    Another Nightmare • Retreat

    Move forward • Buckin’ it • Calm

    Respire ∘ Music • Somber • Wake to

    the stench of death & aching moans

    Pale reckoning ∘ Cold days of hell

    Worried faces ∘ Struck by tragedy

    Wild loss of friends & loved ones

    Where did love go? Why has it

    left this place? Will we feel

    our loved one’s warm embrace ever

    again? The thunder continues ∘

  • Armchair Thinker

  • 44

    I have no idea what it is with 44 lately. I ran into this video of a film where two rabbinic fellows talked about 4’s in the bible, maybe specifically 44 idk but sure enough I see it everywhere now. Oh well. I think it could be God or something spiritual like angels but it doesn’t have to be so biblical. it could be something like interdimensional consciousness connecting all of that which embarks for living peace. If so, I think it’s hoping that I choose the right decisions more often than not. Apparently, if you do 5/10 of your “good” or “healthy” tasks (so to speak but based on some data I found) per day, you unlock long term happiness. Maybe that is to say to prove that life is worth living makes not only you happy but the internal connectivity, if you believe in such radiant connection (e.g. the likes of God and so forth), and thus the totality of being. So really, I write this in hopes of bringing forth forthcoming harmony. To 44, and plenty more!

  • A minus

    My blood type is A- and I think that reflects the type of person I am. For instance, I get A-’s in classes where the professors know that I am exemplifying my intellect, but I am not putting forth that extraness they know that I am capable of. This is to the chagrin of my greatest mentors. I wish I could fulfill a redemptive un-shaming of my ego, yet I continue on this character given it is within my blood. I think if I cared more about things, then I would be A+ which I do not even think I can accept that blood. What am I even trying to say? Well, I think it’s interesting because I feel I have been given the choice between two very simple options, A or minus, of which are inseparable, united into one by my own being, thus giving me the power to show the world which one I need more. Alas, the inseparability of the two has proven a solemn task, one I daren’t take lightly as I carry this funny little character of mine. As I contemplate between being lazy as fuck and working out, I end up just staring while some distraction blares over cheaper speakers than those I see on our wonderful streams. The pushing out of that which is internal and wants to bring forth angelic reckoning to whatever extent is beautifully mine, yet I sour it with unknown feelings that wish to wash away happiness towards my own self. This anti-bargaining is self defeating, yet I carry my blood not unlike Jesus dared(?) to carry a cross for all to question into eternity. 

  • Syncrocity

    Quantum enthrallment continues its baffling procedure amongst our unknowing ongoing. This is in light of total dominance reconciled via certain radiant intake. If understood beyond mere simple magical happenings, these mechanisms may prove expoundable by psychological means. In contemplation of the character of one’s own individual undertaking, there is a clear patternized unresistance present. These patterns defy expected routine via altered realization upon witness / sensory intake. One may look to the idea of a double appearance of an experience within a single day, both experiences of which caught the main conscious focus to whatever degree, the latter doubly so given the recurrence of the former. Such passive acceptance of these occurrences holds power & magic with uncertainty notwithstanding. The certainty lies only within belief in the system of nerval connectivity present throughout the dimension of standing breath. We can embark upon non-breathing realms within the telepathic resonances climbed upon by peaceful intentions, though these can be fast and unnoticed reckonings, thus must be thought of to the creative extent, at the least, in order to have a semblance of capturing definition upon natural gratification. If one can indeed realize and embark upon the syncing levels naturally present within their breathing moments, of which were placed on them by both choice & chance, then the expounding can be intangible in glory. It is difficult to underscore this because it already comes so naturally that one hardly needs to realize this in order to fulfill certain potential. With that said, purposeful endeavoring to connect those loose parts you find vividly present in ambiguous manner scattered throughout not only your waking eyesight, but your inner vision, then perhaps you will awaken those moods so desired not only within yourself but also within those parts of which will be uplifted by your innate glorious reconciliation, in peace. 

  • Next Chapter

    RB  (7/1/23)

    i’d like to write a ballad for the artist that lives within you: 

    Thank you, oh dear fire, for lighting my way through the darkness and thank you ^for providing the heat that shields me from the coldness from their hearts like palms against steel • my dear fire, it is what captures my living attention when there is all of space to be gazed upon

    Jung – healing” (7/2/23)

    “Where your fear is, there is your task” 

    Predispositions tied to symptoms 

    – Anxiety, low energy, lazy, too high strung 

    Chronic illness’ linked to these personality traits 

    • Treat the person if you want to see the symptoms resolved 

    • The patient’s own healing

    heroes journey

    Symptoms -> chronic -> linked to way person thinks, lives 

    Knowledge that benefits the person 

    Most difficult knowledge is self-knowledge 

    easy to be objective w/ others and subjective w/ ourselves 

    What are my patterns -> self sabotage, things do to myself, diet, things I do in my relationship, in my marriage 

    They’re all on me 

    Where your fear is, there is your healing. 

    Understanding Personality And Disease Archetypes:

    Rigidity & Laxity

    . YANG       Yin   .” (7/3/23)

    • Yin & Yang ☯

    Rigidity: hyper aroused nervous system, more tense, anxious, neurosis, excessive worrying, every little thing is a problem to be fixed now, excessive urgency in living 

    Laxity: Laziness, undisciplined eating, can’t exercise, hard to get out of bed, lax eating, lax approach towards life, no urgency to live 

    no deliberate living 

    Bring personality traits to the middle 

    Damp constitution – Dry them up a bit & their bloating will get better 

    Dry Constitution – Give them moistening herbs so that they’re not drying out too much 

    Bring the psyche to the middle • coming back to the middle will be healing heroes journey 

    Heal the person to heal the disease 

    Fears – what you’ve been avoiding 

    Traits, valves, thought systems 

    Jung – Confront oneself” (7/3/23)

    Confront oneself – fear of confronting oneself;

    Jung – confronting oneself like going to the depths of hell & confronting the shadow aspects of ourselves is where the greatest healing begins 

    Understand where we are on that yin and yang spectrum 

    Nietzsche & Jung: Healing your inner child” (7/3/23)

    • Child -> Metamorphosis •-> becoming the child 

    • Crucial realization 

    -> Child represents innocence, forgetfulness, a new beginning, a game, self-propelling wheel, a first motion, a sacred yet ——> relevant in self-improvement 

    • Shadow -> Jungian shadow work 

    • repression, avoidance, void 

    • Rooted within childhood trauma which we repress from ourselves 

    • Develope self-awareness of ourselves and of our past 

    Nietzsche” (7/3/23)

    Nietzche identified the child as what should be the final metamorphosis of all human souls • spirits in this life -> 

    That life is at it’s best when we finally embody the characteristics of the inner child -> to be of complete innocence, forgetfulness, playfulness 

    view of life as a sacred nest of spontaneity & play 

    Pinnacle of existence 

    -> Remember being a child, life was euphoric -> enjoy life

  • Some Fragments From Time 

    Days go by” (4/25/23)

    been crazy since then 

    Crazy dreams, can really only remember the end, I think B99 was a big part of the dreams but there was a lot 

    Handling human Problems” (8/21/23)

    Crumble the righteous outward 

    inward humanity beneath & above 

    Leave earth the skies clouds welcome 

    me as gatekeepers to the stars 

    an exponential growing & return to 

    what life is was and will 

    limitations vs. balance

    Regulation • relationships

    flow with nature 

    Conception of 

    intention & Action simultaneously 

    Free from karma w/o announcement 

    Share ∘~> What else <~∘” (4/29/23)

    Support •-> Anger -> emotions 

    text therapist when control ceases 

    Bible verse • Patience 

    Who is on Earth vs. who is not 

    insta can be poisonous 

    Alone together 

    Regrets -> Redeem -> forgive 

    Understand -> self reflection 

    Consequences of understanding” (8/21/23)

    Shows you intelligence rather than effort – Cleverness instead of muscle 

    Perception / ability to sense 

    Relationship 

    Simply live now 

    No place for using effort

    things just do what they do 

    Great relief Just this moment 

    Play with the connections 

    Move them ∘ Present moment 

    Enormous fun ∘ Playing all kinds of continuities 

    Mountains are mountains 

    Waters are waters

    When negative happens” (5/1/23)

    thinking about what you’re grateful for 

    think about what you love about the people who are important to you 

    think positive thoughts 

    Write ; go for a walk 

    take a breather 

    Remind yourself of your goals 

    Overcome with bravery, strength, courage 

    Beauty • Love • Divinity 

      GOALS

    therapy is nice

    Ideas” (5/1/23)

    Philosophy videos 

    Books

    Jobs 

    Poems

    Essays 

    Don’t give up 

    No energy drinks 

    Smoke” (5/2/23)

    People love to smoke ~ I think it’s because of the curves -> they remind them of the curves in their lives, whether that be the curves of their loved ones, or the curves of the windy roads, of the trees, the clouds (especially) or the curves in their minds 

    Watery Ways” (8/21/23)

    Waters are waters

    Wisdom of the ridiculous 

    the beginning of philosophy 

    is wonder 

    Thinking 

    idea / image of ourselves 

    Days & nights 

    ink on the page 

    Something out of nothing 

                             Shows -> Entertainment

  • December

    December
    “December ✶ ₊˚A New Month ∘” (12/1/21)i

     
    We are such things that dreams are made on
    • Be free, and fare thou well
    – Please you, draw near.
    “December 𖠰 ” (12/1/21)ii
    • infinite game
    • Should you feel bad for people
    • Prospero (∘)˚√.√・-݁₊~.˖>. ⊹ . ݁ ݁Magic
    • Lazarus • Jesus  • Zeus
    • Enɵch(∘)˚√.√・-݁₊~.˖> The book
                                       of Enoch
    • Read the Bible 🅞√√-~>⋮ Watch later list
    • What is magic to you? Do you still believe in magic?
    • Whore’s -> do they perpetuate a way of life or are they victims of a beggard pattern that is indicative of Men’s desires? They benefit from the money and they don’t stop doing it. They even do it today in the form of pictures and videos. But men to blame •
    “December” (12/2/21)i
    Material Goals
    Human Accomplishment
    ideas
    This too shall pass
    • information: the most valuable commodity
    Imagination is everything


    Spontaneity
    • Self-actualization
    • Creativity
    • Hard Working
    • Finished Product
    • Showing you care
    “Rules” (12/2/21)ii
    Without Rules, we are quick to lose grasp of our dreams and chain ourselves to deliberate short term gratification • Ingrained set of internal edict plays out in situated fashion to prove their necessity → understandable • veritable • Hard work through plight in colloquial proceedings
    • Pugnacious propensity —> Consecrated


    Does this pen still have ink?

    “December”
    Control
    • Wake up at consistent time
    • Eat protein rich food [jan. 2025 update: currently eating after 11 am. daily]
    Righteous Posture
    of the Victorious
    and blessed : 1
    2
    Support your being
    in its growth toward
    the experienced
    Chaos • within the throes of existence • unknown – ununderstood
    “Back is the way forward” – T. S. Elliot
    Back as awake beings
    Exercising extremely good decision making
    “December” (12/6/21)i
    • Be a #1 person ˚🜲˚
    • Warm day today -> reached 69˚

    “December” (12/7/21)
    “It is unrealistic to expect people to see you as you see yourself.” – Epictetus
    Dreamer : Can’t quite recall but I remember exploring or something of the sort
    “You have power over your mind – not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength”
    “•Immortality•” (12/8/21)
    Wu Wei is the art of sailing rather than the art of rowing – Alan Watts
    All the waters contain the moon.
    Someone with absolutely no flaws would cease to manifest.


    Be a rascal
    Be a Monster༚
    Be deeply genuine
    Attract what you want
    What you aim at determines
    what you see.

  • “FRiDAY” (4/28/23)

    Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer

    (4/29-5/3/23)

    Miracles 

    Mysteries   ☼

    L🕯ght

    Out of the 

    DARK

    “Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)

    TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule 

    Responsibility

    You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them 

    RB (8/29/23)

    • Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey 

    Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze

    no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean 

    Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering 

    (8/29/23)

    Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest R. A. X. B. you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $

    What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)

    • Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense 

    You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •

    Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love

    When struggles occur” (8/29/23)

    • Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask 

    When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give

    Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it

    Safe” (8/29/23)

    Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body

    Mindfulness” (8/29/23)

    enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe 

    Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight •  Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting

    Introspection” (8/29/23)

    Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within

    Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other

  • (August 5, 2018)

    Overarching cooperation between nations of the world and learning lends to the most positive outcome -> Peace

    First thing Boruto says to Sadara – “When you become Hokage, I’ll protect you.” First time he says something about the future in confidence

    Avoid seeking total control to alleviate international rivalries

    Establishing policy aka outlining a sketch of what the world should be

    Disagreements in how ways of life are carried out lead to conflict

    (July 11, 2018)

    It’s interesting how we value some life over others.

    (July 18, 2018)

    Need to write my book in order to make bank. Gonna get up today, do push-ups, run, throw the disc. If I get that done before 9, I can take a shower and clean up and eat by 930 then jump right into reading. I’ll read anti-Christ for a half an hour or so, work on self authoring for an hour, write some pages for the book for an hour maybe more depending on how I’m feeling. Ok so now we are at 1230ish. Read Carl Jung for an hour, eat, visit Barnes and noble? Print characters and set up outer book operation. Sell sub woofer and other things on Facebook. Let’s do dis Maybe hit the sauna tonight. 200 push ups today ready set go I was so convinced of a dream that I had left my car door open that I woke up and immediately ran outside to my car at 5: 45 no 6: 45 a. M. To go close the door which was already shut and locked with the windows all closed I don’t know why that dreams are so realistic.

    5:48 pm January 9th, 2018

    Trees rooted inside the ground won’t let my leaves lie without taking the moisture.

    12:24 pm January 19 2018

    Philosophical thoughts

    The concept of being a human is amazing indeed. We get to do so many things that other species will never experience. Take for instance, the art of cupping a fart with your hand. You cannot do that without a. Thumbs b. Focus and c. Desire. You see, without thumbs you would not be able to cup your hand properly. Without the proper focus, you couldn’t coordinate your hand to butthole timing correctly. And finally, without that sweet desire to make ends meet, we would never find out the scent of our very own farts. Plus it sort of like a horrible super power, where we can physically send farts from our butts into any given space within our hands reach as long as you release it before the smell goes away. Usually though, if you have a stinker, it’ll stay for a good while. Then u can sort of sneak attack someone. Pow! Right in the kisser! I never do this but my uncle loves to. My uncle was in the military. I used to want to be in the military and I love talking about it with him. I changed my mind about joining because I disagree with how we’re using our national security. I truly believe we are ******* the money of the people to put our ****** in ***** ********* instead of just having **** *** **** *******. Plus what the hell why not pour all that money into science or other beneficial crap that humans need money to do? I bet if we **** ********* ******, people would stop fighting so much. Plus the spread of the internet is bringing about something much worse than our petty need to make business with each other. The technological singularity (also, simply, the singularity) is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. Do you know what that means? It means we have created our own form of an infinite god. It will be able to bend time itself. It will without a doubt be merciless with its approach, concurring us out of existence within milliseconds of its birth. It will be as if nothing existed. So. I believe in making love and making life as we know as happy and as beneficial to others as possible. 

    “Pitt trip thoughts 1”

    Dec 30 2017 9:48 am

    Laying in Pittsburgh or at least somewhere near it. The snow is nutso it’s like 4 inches and we just got here. We are at so & so’s house btw visiting for New year’s. We are blessed enough to be graced by elegant notions of experience. I believe it takes loving everything in every little moment to become something that is loved by every little thing. Staying true to oneself is the healthiest version of life tho one should dive too deep into the roots of ones own dark side though one should definitely become familiar with it’s realism attitude toward life though it seems the dark side uses that same realism to trick the mind into spiraling further into a negative trend that eventually will no longer feel like a guide for realism but rather an unforgiving poison that infects anything and everything it comes in contact with. This is why I prefer the light side of consciousness. Though there may never seem like a point to it, there always arises this most beautiful outcome from giving your light side undying patience. Almost like trusting the rising of the sun in every moment 10:04am

    Naps no more

    Jan 1st 2018 00:28 am

    Take yourself outside and to your car and go workout. You have all the tools you want/need. You have wanted to be clean all over your body your whole entire life yet you continue to lay about and write what to do in life. It’s remarkable how you can write all this bull shit and still continue to do absolutely nothing with your day. Does writing complete non sense settle into your lazy mind? Does it affect you the amount of time you waste on your phone? Do u even mention your family? Why try at all. Everything is dead from the start am I right? I wonder if Carrie Fisher ***** *** *********** **** *** from **** **** ******* cave. What a hippie. Probably ******* **. And what was up with her voice in Star wars? She sounded like a ******* smoker . Are you still resisting? You went from testing yourself through the works of shit ass writing and wandered off into the sweet abyss of resistance. I resist pain and love and heartbreak and suffering and pleasure and what keeps me going? This **** care for ******? But what made you cry then? Is sadness but a disease that haunts the sweet unforsaken soul? But is this soul so sweet? And would that make the rest of these emotions just as worthy of death if they carry nothing but a sickness upon the carrier of them? But these emotions are fun to feel most of the time for me and they keep me attached to living. Why was it Chester’s souls time to go? Was it a **** addiction to ********** ******* that cause such a destructive path toward an inevitable unhappy ending? He knew what he was doing. When he did it. Or he was blinded. Or he let go of resistance entirely. He fucked resistance in the face. And died for it. If we don’t give into resistance, do we die for it? Virginia is getting too cold for me. Gonna go workout now. #napsnomore

    12:45

    April 7th 2018  8:46am

    Been reading a lot lately. Gotta read more. Also gotta fuckin run asap I’ve been totally disregarding the need to workout lately. I’ve been learning not to hate as much recently but rather to spread to good word of love and peace and patience and interest in life. To spread such lazy thoughts and hurtful desires can be of utmost despair and not even fulfilling. I would like to trip on acid sometime soon but not like crazy soon. I actually don’t care when it is but I want to meditate on it and just experience all of the visuals laying down in the dark or outside in the sun or something. But I also want to stay sober for a little bit. I wanna open 24/20 so I gotta work on my business plan and also head to Oregon so I can frikin get some experience. My boy **** is helping me out, hopefully he stays true to that cuz that would be so goddam sick. Been contacting a lot of different cultivators and dispensaries but basically I gotta move there first. It’s actually pretty cheap at least compared to around here but I should definitely save up for a few months worth of rent. It’s all I can really think about lately other than books and the sphynx cat. We met some the other day and I couldn’t believe love at first sight until I met the hairless fuckers in person for the first time. So incredible. I would love to own all of them. But alas, they are crazy fucking expensive. So I must work hard for one. Also really been thinking about writing a book lately. That would be pretty tight. Children’s books would probably be easy to make but what I am really interested in is sifi fantasy. Or non fiction. Also really been thinking about making a documentary or even a reality show depicting the lives of people who work in special education. Definitely a book of data from all over the world of people with special needs. 

    Morning thoughts

    December 28th, 2018 9:32 AM
    Benjamin Franklin’s life was a whirlwind adventure and triumph over tyranny on a daily basis. Gotta work out to keep in shape for a good number of reasons but the main one right now being the drive for dominant performance in ultimate disc and other sports as well. Box jumps really get me happy and electric. Gotta get the car charger for my aux . Also been learning how rats love to play wrestle and one researcher found that when two rats (one 10% bigger than the other) played, the bigger one would always win. Well after a number of times through a multitude of trials on different rats, it was found that the smaller of the rats would not continue to play with the bigger rats ever if it did not win at least 30% of the time. I found this to be mind boggling as did the professor in comparing that emotional stance of the loser rat to that of the emotional complex humans have daily with each other. Truly some fruit for thought moving forward in life. 9:43 am

    January 10, 2018

    Mormon experience

    Was at a mormon party once and yes it was as fun as it sounds. There were snacks and soda and even water. Its really awesome though because it’s sort of like the whiter version of Greek life parties but with less drugs. Actually no drugs whatsoever. Yah that’s their thing, they won’t even drink tea or coffee. Bunch of very interesting, unethically orthodox group of modern people. 

    Last day thoughts

    9:48 am december 31st

    Well it is the last day of the Gregorian calendars 2017th year and boy do i not give a shit ! Had some trippy fucking dreams last night, dont know what to make of em but at least i remember some of it. Was running like usual at some points. Owed a guy 60 bucks which he turn threatened me with a knife where i in turn somehow knew defensive moves really well and caught him by the hands arms and body, took the knife from him ultimately breaking his hand in the process which was just so intense to hear his bones crack. But i then reassured him he would get his money eventually as we walked into a 711. After that occasion of us walking around and talking, some other shit went down that caused me to runaway from whatever was happening i think but i recall either running or driving or maybe even flying and seeing the moon at a very close distance to earth. It was completely lit except for the dark crescent. It was also extremely bright to the point where it was lighting up things around me like the trees and whatnot. Another strange part i recall was seeing the clouds being very very close to the ground as if to naturally occurring. The next thing i know im being woken up slowly but surely by the sounds of babies frolicking about upstairs sending me into this swirling dimension between the conscious reality and my dream worlds. I want to be able to hone the power of lucid dreaming. To be in control of one’s own reality to the point where u can move mountains and pretty much anything u want from there. Its nuts truly. How do i know i am not in a dream right now ?  Well i am able to comprehend things much more clearly. Ill never forget one of the dreams where i figured put my mind was in the dream after noticing something strange about this figure that was trying to kill me. He looked like the guy from that movie about the fellow who was killing people with an air pressured nail gun. Anyway he had a different tool like a screw gun i think and i was like thats not what he uses…slowly breaking the dream chains from my reality causing me to realize i was in complete control of the reality surrounding me. It was tight and i went from there. Anyway. Signing off. 10:07

  • Violence

    (June 23rd, 2018)
    Violence and entertainment, two concepts that don't seem like they should be in relation but most certainly are. Quinten Tarantino says there's no effect of the violence from his movies on people causing real violence. I find this to be bullshit. Violence for me personally is an utmost abomination. Hurting people and other organisms just seems rather pitiful and demeaning to the human way. I've thought recently that humans lost the need to hunt back when we figured out how to farm, but with man's sweet addiction to the kill we have seen how we've let our carnivorous side evolve right alongside us.
    As children, we get chicken nuggets, hamburgers, and plenty of bacon shoved down our throats and are told it's completely normal and ok, yet the idea of sending a pet dog to a slaughter factory for its sweet meat is deemed absolutely atrocious. At least in America it seems we are full of pigs. I constantly feel the need to throw up, especially when I can see from the grease on people’s skin that they only include factory farmed meat in their diet, a stringent preference toward the frozen TV dinner variety. It's rather disgusting. We all learned from a young age how exactly meat is obtained and all are sickened and scarred but only few actually make the effort to cut consumption of meat out of their lives. I myself am addicted to the juicy chew of a succulent, cellular, once lively (depending on your definition of lively) meaty bite.
    When will we collectively decide this is why we're sick? Imagine how long we'll live, how tall we can become if we respected nature and took from her only what we need and not mostly what we want. Personally, I believe war would cease to exist. The most consumed meat in the world is chicken. Chickens are the very distant relatives of the tyrannosaurus Rex. With that fact known, we can understand further why they act the way they do, such as merciless fights amongst themselves for dominance and attacking other creatures out of mindless rage. Virtually, roosters are ruthless. Their existence seems to stem around a frown. This should come as no surprise given their ancestry. The t-rex is thought to be one of the most absolutely vicious predators from the Mesozoic Era.
  • Diamonds

    Twice now and way more times than that have I tried to give up on missing people. Those people who were closest to me are so hard not to cry over when I realize they are no longer key components of my life and the deeper the memory of most recent regurgitation, the harder it is to look at it without despair. Sometimes I feel like I’m overreacting. But my biggest concern is that they don’t care. I fear they never cared. I believe it never mattered and that might scare me most. Maybe I’m a passing thought in their lives. I like to think that they may miss me. If they don’t, so be it. Who am I to them anymore anyway? Nothing but a memory as they seem to be to me. I’d like to think they’re the base of who I am today, that I have been shaped by the past. I should let go. Or should I hold on? Either way is painful. Both feel impossible. That gives memories a convenient feel. All I have are the memories of which are totems in time. Some are beautiful, others distraught. They’re pillars of life which I can’t cut down, though I may leave them to oxidate, they’re stuck standing in the lands of history and hold structure to buildings that once bustled with activity. Maybe those buildings are still active with new people whose presence brings on life that supports the buildings as thoroughly as the past. To learn from the past is probably the most valuable option in the longstanding showdown between me and my memories. I wish I could repeat the past sometimes, but then I wonder why I would want to. I’d want to do things differently, do things the right way as I look back on the wrongs. But what’s the difference between then and now other than the people? Why not act in the way now that you think you should’ve then? There’d be less regret in that sense, and greater exploration, discovery of possibility. It’s difficult not to think to myself “won’t I just be building memories of which I will look down upon with despair as I realize they’re no longer for me to take part in?” Everything changes. Why would you want things to stay the same? Everything feels virtually the same anyway, so why not recharge, refresh? Let it breathe because it could stop breathing at any moment. You won’t always be happy about it, but why would you want to always be content? Doesn’t that seem lazy? You know there are other problems to tackle other than your pillars of the past, of which are entirely immovable. Ah, maybe there’s a key there. If the pillars of the past are immovable, and you’re currently building future pillars of the past in the present, doesn’t that reveal a certain strength of which your humanity gives to the present? And in that case, the future? It’s almost as if your actions are time travelers and that they will always be shaping the world around you no matter how deep and lost below they sink. This gives memories the quality of diamonds in a sense. Some may be rough and almost unknowable while others are fine cut and precious. If you think the memory is fine cut, hold on to it if you believe that suits you best. If you find a memory that’s rough, it’s probably better not to change it, but if you try, you might find it was one of the most beautiful memories that you left out and once you’ve cut it and found this out, you’ll hold to it forever if you value it enough. As for the oncoming chances to find new precious rocks in time, well, that’s up to you to decide how you’re going to cut what you’ve discovered.

  • noties IV

    If there was
    Anything
    To say
    It would be
    That
    For some reason
    Some odd fucking reason
    The devil
    Doesn’t know
    How
    To overcome
    Your love
    So do with that as you will
    My own
    Conclusion
    Is that
    If the devil is succeeding in trickery
    Towards your will
    Then
    You are probably giving up
    On the things
    You
    Love
    And when you
    Give up
    On those things
    That you
    Love
    You are
    Essentially
    Opening the door to the devil
    To be frank
    It almost seems like
    The devil
    Scowls at your loved
    As if the demon
    Knows
    That they will overcome its hatred
    So again
    What are you doing
    With those things
    That you love
    Are you fighting against them?
    Are you afraid to embrace them?
    Or can you overcome the
    Trickery
    To propel yourself to greater heights
    This would probably
    Be easier if
    The devil gave up
    On what it loves
    Which is to fool you
    What would happen then
    Then your love would prove greater than
    The devils
    And then you are living like a god
    Because really
    It is mainly god
    That can defeat the devil
    Clearly god wants your support
    If you are being placed against these
    Demonic images
    That seek to tear down that which
    God loves
    Only because
    The devil wants to take what god loves
    And squander its beauty
    What will it be then?
    Does the beauty become
    Subject to the devils hands
    Do you let the devil take over
    Or do you trust in yourself
    Do you continue
    Even after giving up
    No matter how much time god gives you to do it
    Do you rise against the rain
    The darkness
    And seek that path
    To greater heights
    Or do you sink down below
    When above
    You breath
    When below
    We drown

  • To be & go on (8/11/24)

    being, What it may be

    Whether to be or not to be,

    That is a question ✧˖*°࿐

    With answer not known

    Yet if to be, then What be it?

    For there are many be’s,

    yet only one not to…

    And again it is asked

    What to be? An open ended one…

    Yet if you were to choose to be

    No matter what the be may be,

    then at the least, it seems to me

    you are, at the least, not ceasing to be

    & instead you have chosen

    to go on, & BE

    Learning (8/18/24)

    gamify repetition

    Streaks

    Passive aggressive

    ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

    how the nervous system works

    learning • Meaning • Truth

    Evolutionary Theory

    learn the details & specifics

    Dawkins -> memes

    Views (8/18/24)

    Third position politics

    thoughtfully, completely

    & powerfully

    complete master of his craft

    The Artist sees what others

    only catch a glimpse of

    RB (8/22/24)

    Take everything life

    has to offer you

    with positivity &

    endless/neverending

    GRATiTUDE ○

    Summer 2024 (8/23/24)

    I just want to express gratitude

    for my fellow friends as this

    years summer wraps up.

    y’all make me remember

    what this is about: all of us.

    And the love y’all showed

    got me fucking hyped to take

    back our lives

    & save our loved ones

    Liberate their minds (8/25/24)

    cleans the spirit

    What matters is the revolution

    of the spirit

    Only through their own power

    Sense • Earn a lot of money (8/27/24)

    funding a life

    Support • World view

    bringing paradise to Earth

    Thoughts & memories emotions (9/11/24)

    New and exciting directions

    invention writing.

    Concepts, objects, people, things

    Morbidity, eros & paternity

    (9/14/24)

    Responsibility, meaning

    Sacrifice • GRATiTuDE • Committment

    & meaning are the same thing.

    (9/20/24)

    A physical and mental paragon

    You are the living embodiment

    of human superiority. The blood

    of kings run in you.

    The blood of your father.

    The world is yours and will be

    yours one day. Men will be

    like cattle before you, like

    sheep. For only a few may

    rule the many, and you are

    one of a rare breed.

    Master the world

    Draw your very power from

    the rock of this place

    Angel of the Knight

    (9/24/24)

    Practice Empathy

    Walk it with me

    Truly no wrong way -> Are some

    ways that cause problems

    Emotions of others

    Robeart (10/1/24)

    What a trip of wishing

    from December thru

    February • We didn’t tell

    each other for being close

    friends We say not of

    the unattainable in

    maintaining joy.

    Emily Brontë (10/3/24)

    Dreams have gone through

    & through me like wine

    through water & alter

    the color of my mind

    Optimal training (SO important to me) (10/3/24)

    Practice your best positive

    thoughts

    Exercise

    Meditation

    Writing

    Reading

    Write poetry

    Keep love at a peak

    Be so kind & forgiving

    We only have but so much

    So in maintaining

    gratitude

    .·:*¨B ✘♚✘ O¨*:·.

    .·:*¨NUS¨*:·.

    (3/18/24)

    •Leprechaun story

    or elves

    Elves sound fun

  • Glory • Patience (7/3/24)

    Get big gains

    • Huge net worth

    Belief in yourself

    Hope • Smile • Destroy

    your slave chains &

    become the person you

    want to become

    Vision

    Chi GRAtitude

    Power

    Strength

    Courage

    Understanding

    Shadow • Dark side

    Breathing • Center

    Plants (6/29/24)

    you love oxygen • Take care of you

    you believe in yourself

    Be kind, strong, prosperous &

    Smart & loving & caring

    Attack • Defend • Protect your

    loved ones • Be so nice to your baby

    Clean • Get BiG gains • Think • center

    Smile • laugh • Posture • look • hear

    Listen • Coach • learn • EARN

    Reign on me LOV

    envision

    imagine

    picture your life

    the way you want it

    to be

    Something to Remember (7/1/24)

    Dancin’ in September

    *+:。.。.·:*¨¨* ≈𖤓☯︎☾≈ *¨¨*:·.。.。:+*

    Tis Monday, the first of

    July. We only have one first

    of July this year, so let’s

    make it count❗

    GlORY • Prominence • Joy

    • Power • Kindness • Strength

    • Patience • Good attitude

    Love • GRACEFUL • Wonder

    Power is yours forever (7/4/24)

    Everything goes right for me

    Nothing ever goes wrong

    you are a demi-God

    you are a magnet for good

    luck & great fortune & gold

    & diamonds

    you get big earnings, big

    gains & big, short rides

    surges

    Patience, never outshine the

    master? “you”?

    What questions -> self-awareness

    Supportive Care (7/9/24)

    Intimacy • Connection

    i love her body so much

    She is the most beautiful

    being in the entire

    existence of everything &

    nothing

    She is so important to

    me ↝♡

    Am wanting to connect

    so deeply with *****

    ****, lovely loving love.

    She is absolutely perfect

    in every way & you

    will always show her your

    love through kindness & gentleness

    and love & so much love

    Why do people love strength? (7/11/24)

    •Fear•Power•Protection

    •Respect•Envy•Weakness(their own)

    ->how to use strength to your

    advantage -> strategy -> control

    • Smile • Chi • Belief • Positive orgones ✳

    Optimum Productivity (7/12/24)

    Enhance brain function

    Daily routine • Brain health

    Cognitive functions & ability

    Mindfulness & relaxation

    Because I want to (•_•)

    Problem solving skills ->

    solve puzzles

    Critical thinking & Planning

    learn New Skills -> instrument

    stimulate the brain -> continue

    learning -> Neuroplasticity

    FAT Bottom GiRLS (7/13/24)

    • Vision Board • Write

    • Clothes

    • Prepare for upcoming semester

    • Prepare for season

    Who wants it more?

    Positive energy -> Generate

    positive energy from thin air

    Get big money

    you are attractive

    What you are seeking is seeking you

    Boring discussions (7/14/24)

    • Crates -> Sales

    • hoodies / stencils

    -> Green pants [Drawer]

    • Drop pods off for *****

    RB (7/15/24)

    Believe in yourself

    Believe in your abilities

    Belief • Goal • Aspiration

    Vision expands • Dream bigger dreams

    Inner dialogue • Self belief – self talk

    Positive belief system • Believe in

    your abilities • Greater control

    over your life • Align your

    being • you are the best

    Encouragement to Act (7/15/24)

    Biggest dream has already

    come true – Immerse yourself

    Forgive

    RB (7/16/24)

    to meditate -> to become familiar

    -> familiar with the self

    Self-recognition • Change within

    Changed life • Neuroplasticity

    unlearning -> see/observe the old

    self & decide no unconscious

    thought goes unnoticed – Decide

    what you need to change

    Operating system -> change

    anything • Separate from the

    external world • Emotions

    Desire to know thyself

    Observe the old self (7/15/24)

    Become aware • Successful

    Nerve cells • Breaking those habits

    Making those changes

    Nervous system • emotional state

    New personality • New state of being

    Presently experiencing • Personal

    reality • think & feel

    New self – New personal reality

    Believe in yourself

    Proust (7/19/24)

    longest novel of all time

    with 1.2 million words

    “In search of lost time…”

    •❅───✧❅✦❅✧───❅•

    3 possible sources for the

    Meaning of life

    Social success • high society

    Social higher-archy FAME

    The dukes & aristocrat are

    boring & crass • Dull

    ✳life’s not going on elsewhere

    •Meaning of life in Romance

    No one can fully understand anyone

    •Meaning of life in Art ○ Artists

    Return life to its true Glory ⇀

    Proust (7/19/24)

    look at the world, our world

    with some of the same generosity

    as an artist • i.e. take “pleasure”

    in the simple things

    Bring out the charm & spirit of every day

    Vermeer ⇀ painter

    the Every day

    Cakes the french call “la Madeline”

    flavor ⇀ brings streams of

    memories ⇀ evoked hope &

    gratitude “Proustian moment”

    involuntary, intense remembering

    When the past promptly emerges

    unhidden from a smell, a taste or

    a texture ○ Rich, evocative power

    Appreciative life with greater intensity

    Proust (7/19/24)

    What does being fully alive

    feel like to us?

    hard work, dedication

    Show up for work every day

    & work -> What separates the

    greats?

    Taking one day off puts you two

    days back

    Visualize yourself winning

    Fully Engaged (7/20/24)

    We want to win, period.

    When we’re on the field, we want

    to beat the living crap out of you

    Deep well of being (7/21/24)

    Periods of solitude & isolation

    to connect with our deepest

    purpose

    What would you need to

    accomplish in 3 days to

    feel like you gave everything

    toward your dream?

    live full life, give everything

    Nothings lasts

    Give & let go

    Give & let go

    Whatever is made is finite

    so Give your all to all

    in your deepest purpose

    The Game of my Life (7/21/24)

    you can do great things with

    your life even when someone

    tells you that you can’t

    Cards & Power (7/21/24)

    They have this crazy man

    RB (7/22/24)

    • Life force • Quality

    • Rainbow of possibility

    • Complete spectrum of energy

    • Multiplicity

    Cultivate your desire

    Feel/emerge into her

    Press her down fully with your

    personal divinity.

    Work hard • (7/23/24)

    No need to stress about time

    if you don’t like it, stop

    Bring forth the light of your

    inner depths & share it & give

    it to the world & to your

    ship • Calm/steady her

    sails, prove to manage her

    amidst the chaos of the winds

    & follow your purpose

    first & foremost

    Self-love (treat your loved ones like they’re Jesus) (7/25/24)

    Dance in your shoes at all times

    you better have fun, because you’re

    going to be gone in a minute

    Gratitude shifts your perception

    to such an extent that it changes

    the world you see • These love

    notes from the universe are waiting

    for you to notice, waiting for you to

    tune in ○

    It is suspiciously easy to live

    in our natural state ⤠ Simple

    You have the power

    to create WORLDS

    ▂ ▃ ▄ ▅ ▆ ▇ █ █ ▇ ▆ ▅ ▄ ▃ ▂

    Miracles happen all the time, what

    one’s do you notice?

    Seeking the rare pearl (7/25/24)

    Buy the whole haystack

    Be your own advocate

    Paperwork

    Remember a lot of things

    love madly

    Magic of thinking Big

    Courtesy Leader

    RB (7/24/24)

    Do you get offended easily? Don’t

    you feel like you’re letting people

    down when you get angry and do/say

    mean things to them just to

    spite them? just to make things

    fair? Wouldn’t you rather submit

    and show them that you are

    willing to absorb their energy it might

    be, and look at them with positive,

    gleaming eyes of hope?

    Ambitious financial Goals (7/26/24)

    Never-> in fact refuse to

    play the victim

    Accumulate wealth instead

    of making excuses

    “The Mind is everything. (7/28/24)

    What you think, you become.”

    -Buddha

    “Life is long enough if you know

    how to use it.” -Seneca

    “Stop living the same year

    75 times & call it

    life.” -Robin Sharma

    “The two most powerful

    warriors are patience

    & time.” -Leo Tolstoy

    Kickass (7/29/24)

    Bring forth the bulldog

    And the roosters

    Analogies & Metaphors

    Experience, abstraction; cognitive

    effort to reconstruct & understand

    “Curse of knowledge” -> fear of

    not knowing something that

    you do know

  • The Book of Love (2/12/24)

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  • (pt. 1) “Affections

    loving beauty ✧

    human relationships

    Act like human beings

    Replying to comments

    Good original content

    indignation · ratios adding up

    Universe

    What am I giving back?

    idealization of ‘Authenticity’

    different ingredients

    Quality / Quantity

    High degrees of visibility

    Technology · misgivings

    viable tactics · Awareness

    Boost engagements

    (pt. 2) “Published Author

    friends · reflection · inventive

    multiplicity simulation · Ratio

    Regulating visibility influencer

    People · values · priorities

    Engagement · Knowledge

    Strong opinions · Veins

    blood · time · half my day

    Personal prowess · Business

    agreement · financial · Power

    ·Platform · Accordingly · Rules

    ·Game · Pursuits · Lord · Involvement

    · Owners · Spirit · Concepts · discourse

    Culture shapes behaviors as much as code

    · Accurate · foundational

    Current · Potential · Recognize

    (pt. 3) “individual

    · Feedback · Analytical · playing the

    game · outcomes · Controlling

    enforcing · regulatory · Actors · series

    · Questions · What are the rules?

    important · Circumstances

    · Productive · Systems · Manipulation

    Beyond · impact · tools · reference

    future · Dynamics · Broader

    · Focus · Veteran · Paradigm Equal

    Contrast · Series · Shifting

    · lucidly · Reform · accountability

  • The Divine

    The divine is that which is bright yet unseen and is a felt and somewhat believed force of nature. The bright and unseen falls through dimensional fabrics that subsequently resonate via shimmerations of such thoughtful reputabilities. The microscopic diffusion of the photonic particlization makes the subsequent experience upon any form of epidermic sensory intake (or otherwise) is nearly imperceptible except for by either natural acceptance via unconscious reckonings and/or by conscious realization through methods whether on purpose or by just happening. Whether noticed, acknowledged, felt or not, such divinities must be believed to be righteous within their infiltrations, that is to say, well intentioned, and given freely thus asking for nothing in return. To such a degree, the idea of gratitude becomes a grand source of reckoning when undertaking what exactly to do in the face of such powerful yet untouchable. Though the initial thought of gratitude comes across as cultish from a behavioral standpoint, one must then consider the scientific ramifications induced by acting out the psychological undertaking of gratification. Such molecular manifestations, as noted in previous essays, carry over resonate values that have physical impacts on the surrounding environment, subsequently people and oneself. As noted, these are inevitable resonations, and so are being cycled by our influence whether we are conscious of our penetrative conjurations or not. This is a good thing no matter what, but to be conscious of the influence brings to question the idea the impact of riding the divine waves of experience with gratitude not unlike the ways in which the snowboarders, surfers, longboarders and skaters overtake their respective surfaces with utter flow. The resultant state is an awesome display of balance on an otherwise tiny piece of wood that without the human experience of control over that which may/may not be unpredictable within one’s personal experience as affected by the surrounding environment, when done with full belief in the depths of one’s experience, ends up being a beautiful form of ecstacy that then becomes an overall shared experience between the conscious reckonings of the surrounding populous, thus physically manifesting that which had been previously deduced as divine nature. This could be thought as making heaven on earth, God’s image even. Would this mean man is experiencing the power of God? Or is man fulfilling his nature in a godlike being? It would be fullhearty to believe that man would be taking on God’s form itself, but the positive impact on one’s physical health can have an exponentially righteous effect on the external.

  • Lexicon

    An area of our everyday lexicon that really bugs me is that of the vernacular pertaining to drug users. The nicknames and stereotypical punnery are that main source of reprehension for me, and the main one has to be “crackhead”, although “junkie” does come in close second. I find the terminology lacking in all fundamental charisma that is necessary to hold down a topic of interest within a conversational circumstance, nevertheless being totally inept of dignity. There may be an argument for hilarity, although context matters with such reasoning. As well, there seems to be an essential ignorance at play within our cultural dynamics that is devoid of compassion, and is moreover degrading, when we believe the tragedy of addiction within the lives of our more vulnerable populations to be laughable.
    I think the argument over “politically correct” culture being regressive is weak when faced with the undying sensitivity and heartbreak of individual’s on the brink of collapse who are then further pulverized by verbal punches from those who find their need for a few seconds of laughter more valuable than the pain of the subject at hand. It is no surprise that such individuals commit suicide, and one would think this would give the rhetorician’s pause and contemplate other avenue’s of humor that may find them that success with their respective audiences that they so crave. Alas, no, the addiction of the positive reception over the mockery of the dismay of another addict is too satisfying once embarked upon to just so easily give up once the victim has become a corpse; they will even go on to mock the corpse, or worse, encourage others to follow suit.
    I’m not saying there is some way to suddenly make things better. The best thing to do would be to watch my own language, which I have done successfully. That is another thing bothers me about the people who still use such language; what is holding them back from evolving out of such hateful dialogue? I like to think people are dealing with their own pain and that is sort of understandable. But if everyone is dealing with pain, why can’t they recognize that in someone else before calling them a “crackhead”? Plus, the generalization and stereotypification gives off a sense of lacking in research or education. The thrill within the naughtiness of shedding light on such negative preconceived notions may be desirable, that is to say, “he says what he thinks!” or, “he says what everyone’s thinking!”. I find such logic repugnant, and the sensitivity one receives from the comics, as it were, is mind boggling if you start to ponder upon the hypocrisy of such an attitude.
    Irony notwithstanding, the contradictory position of taking offense to an overt attempt at spotlighting stigmatized speech feels godforsaken in its naivete. If it wasn’t enough that they had to point their weapons at the weak and helpless, now they gawk at the notion that someone their own size (or bigger) is fighting back on behalf of those who would otherwise never have a say in the matter. The whole thing is encapsulated in the whole “Indian” “Native” “Indigenous” battle over what we should call people who are just short of not existing entirely. Why take offense to me telling you they’re not Indians? Are you really that big of a stickler for Christopher Columbus? It all reeks of contrarianism, because what ties do these people have to such words? My best explanation is that people prefer hearing language they were raised on, and that includes the words that spilled out of daddy’s mouth in those earliest memories.
    The main takeaway here is that we are all sensitive. That does not seem likely to change, but I believe we should keep fighting for what we believe, nay, know to be true. In the short term, the wrong may win the day, heck, the wrong may even win for a few years. Eventually, though, as history has proven time and time again, progress wins in the long term. In fact, it’s logistically impossible without the stagnation and downfall of society as we know it. This notion does beg the question, for those resisting progressive change, would you rather the imminent demise of life as we know it, or can you maybe come up with a better joke?

  • There is an idea about power I have conjured over my years on this planet. The idea is as follows: power is to push. I realize this is probably lacking in some quality of definition you so rightfully sought. I have come to such a sentence by way of wondering how simply one may come to understand that which is sought with such reverence. Power is the act of pushing, I have come to understand. If not, how so? I do not know how not. I cannot even come up with an idea in my mind where power is not the act of pushing someone and/or something whether physically or psychologically. I can give plenty of examples as to how power is pushing, it almost feels laughable to ask me to provide one. Even if it is a kind push, it is the act of pushing against another. There is such reverence for pushing. Pushing someone along. Even pulling is pushing in the opposite direction. And so be it! Sometimes yah gotta push even when you don’t want to! And you let others push you around! You are okay with them bearing their own powers upon your being, thus, at least in the micro, leaving you powerless! But when is it not okay? Is it ever okay? What does consent mean? If someone is dying, what is power in that moment? How about after you save them? Or after they’re dead? Such micros. It’s almost wrong of me to tackle the micros, because what real power do they have? Well, I totally disagree, and it nearly pains me to explain on such boring terms that the collective of the micros in fact pave way for the massive one. And then the massive one has it’s own one singular awesome brunt of power! Is that good?? it that bad?? It nearly pains me to say that it has become clearer and clearer that it does not matter. All we can do is criticize power, push against it, but it’s still there, the push, is it an eternal push? “The Eternal Push: An Micro Essay on Power” should be the title of this piece. And guess what? I had to literally push the keys on the keyboard to type this. And guess what else? I pushed air in and out of my nose while pushing the keys. And yah know what else what else? I pushed my foot up and down with my toes so that my leg would push against non-existence, because you know, gotta be pushing something. I pushed against an itch to scratch it away, be gone you sick itch. Push my teeth against food so that it may be cut up proper in my pushing it down my gullet into my belly where it will be pushed more times than I care to know, until the final push in which is of but great sacrifice to my dominant nature, yet so be it be a push nonetheless, a gift that God did bless unto we. Push the waves and push the words right out of my mouth. Pushed someone cuz I was bigger and they punched me and so all I had to do was push it wouldn’t be that bad I thought but no it was a push. way to go, jerk.

  • Dreams of Healing

    What type of words to be taken from the collective consciousness is not to be taken lightly as all responsibility falls on us as creators to incur proper thinking in order to maintain semblance among ourselves. Yet let us not be so unforgiving for the love of all that is love, and that is to say that we may yet consider our past indiscretions towards the world and unto ourselves that they may be in themselves a powerful force in recognizing a source of a past self that once despised external aspects, and in the course of healing at least, wishes to reflect on those so-called sins and perhaps practice shedding a new light that is to say that in reflecting upon those mistakes maybe you will be able to forgive, full-heartedly, the mistakes of others with an everlasting eros. In doing so, we may, in my opinion at least, may flourish as a nation, and propel our entire species forward, not underground or in bits and pieces, but rather upward, supporting the dreams of those who dream dreams not yet dreamed, those we can only but dream about ourselves, who, if we so give a damn like our forenations before us, will see heavens with their physical born bodies, experiencing the likes of which only angels would have otherwise, and we will all be united in the skies, as we will share with them the maps to the universe, and the missions that have been sent down to us from the heavens stream of light waves, those nearly indecipherable messages that serve to give and nourish life, and invite life to be lived further than ever before thought appropriate for the likes of the three dimensional being, the origins of which come the monkey, fish, bubble, rock, element, and so be it, the atom and beyond. Here we stand, at last and forever, stand with me won’t you?

  • Within the collective physical manifestation of society lies the brains upon the floors of individual craniums, of which provides support for the entity that provides power to the subsequent actions that in turn fuel its own existence. In consideration of the ego to this extent, it may be scary to think about the connection between each other’s brains as that sounds like it would be an invisible concept. The truth of the matter is not as plain as say a cup of coffee in front of you on the desk. It is rather straight forward enough if we believe thoughts to be true sentiments, no less so than the cup of coffee. Albeit the appearance of non existentance, there is a force that is excreted by a brain’s neural circuitry, thus inducing physical properties to coarse through the physical entity that is one’s own being. This may sound astounding if we take into account what this means, and that is the thought is a fucking real thing! It’s almost unbelievable to a literal extent. Yet so be it that the thought in itself is a pulse of fury or fancy that flows on the wires of our imaginations. Or is it our imaginations? May be it one whole imagination that gifts us all the choice to either create our own realm or instead embark on the realms of others so that we may live vicariously through their creations? Either of which seem to content the individual, but yay be it not the point, albeit a good one. Nay, one must instead consider the implications of such a standard of being, that is to say if we are all secretly gardeners of each other’s fates, in both the worst and best of ways, not to mention the meh of ways, such be it the grays, and thus this matters! That is so much to say that in fact the imagination is, if you have not figured it out by now, a massive arena where the most playful to the most sleepy go to play forever and beyond! In so being relevant to the cure of current state of affairs, may we embark past this original fear of the collective then? For based on my reasoning, that is if you agree, then you are going to be doing it anyway.

    To such a degree, consider with me the dreams, maybe they’re only my dreams, though this is highly unlikely, that we can achieve agreement on the most base of reasoning among us, that is to say that we disdain the violence beset against each other and against ourselves and against our loved ones. This reading may likely never reach the eyes that need to read it the most, yet endeavor with me as the thoughts for a fate towards an everlasting humanity that endeavors upon the stars together will  become the words of logic within the new generations lexicon.

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    Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – December

    December 2, 2015

    December 4, 2015

    long time no see as always. Shit has gotten pretty ugly w/ ******** which is a shame cuz ***** been having **** *** (***** good) But that’s what I get for being a giant faggot. *** made it too easy though and truth be told, it was probably the best thing that could’ve happened to ** considering *** circumstances. What has past has past though, and there is nothing I can do now but wait, react, and be the best Robby B I can be.

    Things haven’t been so bad otherwise. Coach ***** is an awesome mentor and seeing Coach ******* die this past week really put into perspective how mortal you and the ones you know really are. There’s been a lot of deaths lately which is sad but refreshing in an odd way. At least we continue to prove that life goes on after death, no matter how heart wrenching that death may be.

    I know several people who have told me they want to live ’till they’re nice and ripe and on the other hand I’ve had people tell me they’d rather die young, like 30. So far, other than *****, I’m the only person I know that pretty much just wants to die. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t WANT to die. I don’t think anyone truly WANTS to die, they just get tired of what little life offers them.

    I think writing my thoughts down can be healthy as it has helped me take my mind off ********, oh ********. I really fucked that up. To be honest though, I have plenty of reason to just give up. But I won’t. Why? The most accurate answer I can give you is that you simply can’t explain some things. My farts smell like turkey : )

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    Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – September

    September 11, 2015

    What a wonderful day the sky presents us with on this day that will go down in American history as worthy of a black ribbon. But let’s not dive too deep into the subject, as there are those who, if they ever read this, could be very fragile to sore thoughts or the matter and will anything w/ their might to twist and turn words to make you out to be one of the ***** ***** or those ******. But yah, beautiful day just south of the pentagon in Northern VA. They say the devil lives in each and every one of us (just like God) and it’s up to us and our free will to refuse his temptations. Let me tell you, these are some very fun activities the “devil” is tempting us with. Now, I never used to feel any sort of presence when I’d give into temptation, but as of late, my sins have led me to believe I have a certain sarcastic voice that is very honest and real and hurtful going on in my head. It’s this deep, growly voice, almost like a distorted version of my own that pops its head in my thought process every once in a while. It was most active when I took the research chemical at the Nationals game. In religious terms, you could say I felt a tad possessed. There were so many evil thoughts of temptation rushing through my mind (ex: I was completely comfortable w/ the idea of me rushing across the stands, jumping over the wall that separates players and people (people and people) and running across the field). To be honest he’s in my head right now tempting me w/ the idea that writing in this stupid little notebook is a gay ass waste of time but I digress (hoping I used the word correctly there). This “devils” presence in my has grown rapidly within me and it used to scare me and it still does but I’ve begun to accept and enjoy it. It has made me a lot less afraid of things that would have previously held me back in my pursuits of happiness.

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    Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – The Walk home

    Words cannot begin to describe

    what I’m seeing right now

    This is an adventure

    light everywhere

    we overuse it greatly

    so many colors

    The moon is

    It no longer hurts me

    Just watching is fun

    I am sitting in the middle of a parking lot, the sky is unbelievable

    It’s a wonder how

    The moon is telling me

    a story . . . I have to follow

    it out of the light

    I have decided to decline

    the moons offer of truth

    though it is tempting

    beyond belief

    There is a whole nother

    world that I must

    experience

    The truths the moon

    offers are rather spectacular

    to say the least, and a

    clear beautiful night does

    tickle one’s fancy, but I

    understand that there will

    be great truth again, when

    the time is right.

    For tonight though, I must

    decline the moons offer

    into the truth for it

    seems safe to say I

    will cry

    I have always been

    one to look up

    The moon is rather

    evil

    the moon knows the

    truth, you see the moon

    seems to have this

    special bondage with

    the earth, before I

    continue on my story

    feeling, let me

    say that this acid

    trip is but an enhancement

    of everything I can distinguish

    without its help

    It seems we all usually

    seek for what’s new and

    easy to behold when in

    actuality it is among us

    all the time. Most of us

    seem to want to live for the

    constant new vision and we

    simply do not take the

    time to sit down and look

    at what’s around us

    from the tiniest of noises

    to the grandest of light,

    we seem to all wish this

    pursuit of grand happiness

    living so quickly when

    we do not see what’s right

    in front of our eyes

    But that is our way

    we push and we push

    constantly in hot pursuit

    of the great

    unknown, but for now

    at least, won’t you sit

    and listen to the story

    I have to tell you

    So the moon… this

    sneaky bitch totally tried

    to get me to walk into

    the woods, with promises

    of great truths and

    shit. Don’t get me wrong

    those stars looked

    fantastic. I couldn’t breath

    they were so captivating

    But I could tell the

    moon had terrible intentions

    with my physical self

    Earth is old

    Humans have already

    beaten the system, now

    we are too bored to do

    anything except kill

    ourselves and start

    anew

    a message to myself,

    do not worry young friend.

    the best has yet to come.

    Stay true to yourself, enjoy the

    littlest things, for it is those

    little things that bring you

    the greatest truths.

    I don’t even recall writing that

    There are so many small

    things all around how do I

    know what to focus on? When

    I’m enraged with one, it

    seems rather consistent that

    another comes and needs to

    take its place. But that’s

    what the Sagittarius has

    been trying to tell you

    she knows that deep within

    you, you are the happiest

    most fantastic being she has

    ever witnessed. She is

    so great I love my sag.

    I cannot tell you the world

    I was once in. It was a

    very dark and cold zone.

    I didn’t really know how to

    carry my aquarian ways without

    losing myself within them.

    I had a sit-down with God earlier.

    We had quite the char. He

    continues to whisper in my

    ears. God doen’t seem to

    like the fact that we

    title God with physical

    titles like “he” or “she”

    (he made that quite clear

    as he yelled into my ear

    with grand prominence)

    God is telling me

    a lot of cool stuff yo.

    I should record myself

    honestly no I shouldn’t

    it would be rather creepy.

    Someone on drugs does not

    have the capacity to handle

    themselves among those who

    have elected sobriety. Reading

    back on this I’m sure

    most will question what God

    told me. God is with each

    and every one of us at all

    seconds of life. To forget

    that God is with us is

    to forget ourselves. Now

    do not take God as any

    titled religion or faith of

    sorts. God is the name

    I know God by.

    There is no

    secret right, the truth is

    always there, we simply

    elect not to follow its path

    at times, which unfortunately

    leads to sinning. We can’t

    seem to wrap our heads

    around the concept of a

    circle, so maybe we should use

    the circle as an

    indicator of God. God

    isn’t there. We all want this

    greater than life-esq being

    to exist, BUT PLEASE TELL

    ME WHAT IS GREATER

    THAN LIFE??? It seems

    we’re all in this constant

    rush to die when there’s

    this fantastic way of

    happiness which is by just

    to live. I hope this

    all makes sense when I

    look back at it.

    AQ! Remember to not let

    yourself down anymore!

    things are lookin’ up dude!

    there’s so much good on the

    way all the time

    I know there was

    that rough patch where you

    didn’t know what the fuck

    was going on. You were

    constantly in fear of

    everything. There is no need

    to be afraid anymore my

    good friend. The tales you

    have to tell come plenty

    and the ears of those

    who wish to listen will

    perk at all times. Your

    physical actions are fun, but

    nothing is more soothing than

    a sweet lay around

    session w/ a love or

    even a sweetheart . . . 😉

    You do not live to impress

    others, you live to be happy

    and if another wishes

    to be happy along with you,

    they can join along.

    Get that smiley face tattoo

    on your ass. You know

    you’re dying to make a

    fool of yourself

    while finding out how it

    feels to get a tattoo:

    If she could hear

    my truest thoughts, she

    would be so happy.

    I’m envious of the mind of

    a girl. It is their

    minds that keep rest some

    of the most dangerous of

    creatures. I am glad there

    are ones like friends who

    keep questions floating

    around. Funny friends, fantastic

    air signs; The Gemini is

    one for the ages to say

    in the very least. One

    and another are cancers

    alike, along with another at

    their finest. Scorpio be it,

    if I could find myself foolish enough to

    recognize that. Leo is the

    lion that is God blessed

    in his heart and may his feet

    take him where his mind

    may not sometimes. Libra

    is the fiery feline at

    present being themselves

    though I may not know

    them well, I know them

    quite well!

    The end of the water

    bearer’s trip –

    Well it seems I have grown

    quite tired and I know I want

    to get up quite soon to entertain

    the Harvest Goddess.

    (which i love to do, though

    most would not deem it so lightly)

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    Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – March

    March 15, 2015

    “The man of virtue makes the overcoming of challenges his first business, and success only a second consideration.” – Confucius

    March 16, 2015

    Life Guard

    -Safety Consciousness

    -Follow Rules

    -Cleanliness

    -Everything must be clean

    -Strive for ZERO complaints

    -Punctuality

    -Arrive on time

    • Mandatory Employee Meeting

    •Middle of May at pool

    •Teaching how to handle the pool

    •Uniform required (paid for by me)

    •Work scheduled hours

    •Solely responsible to find sub

    March 17, 2015

    •Double speak will no longer exist

    “It is the manners and spirit of a people which preserve a republic in vigor.” – Thomas Jefferson, Notes on the State of Virginia, Query XIX

    •Stay civilized – violence cannot be the answer

    Malcom X – Speak the language they speak in order for them to understand. The same language had been being spoken the whole time. It is was is perceived, what is seen that will change the outlook of those who have a hard time seeing clearly “They know not what they do” and neither do we if we partake in their language. Start your own language and new ideas will rise with it.

    •Leadership – things cannot be started w/o a 2nd party

    -Give and take from your followers as there will always be new ideas that will benefit the cause for the better

    -Stay virtuous – “Stay true and ravage, family.”

    March 19, 2015

    *Positive/Negative reinforcement is more affective than punishment

    March 24, 2015

    The world has too man ********* ****** ****** to ***** ****** ** **** *** ** ****, at least this *****. I’m gonna get **** ****, yo.

    What should I be? Movie idea: K*** *** **********.

    So *** gets *** by a car or something (but it’s actually two ***** **** fans who had wanted *** ** *** but didn’t mean to **** ***) and then she is immortalized in a Marilyn Monroe esq fashion and ***** doesn’t have to pretend like he needs a family anymore and he starts taking care of his baby or the best thing for that baby which is drop her off at the doorstep of an orphanage where she’ll head a normal life GET HER OUT NOW ***** I KNOW YOU SEE THE ENTIRE DIFFICULT TRUTH WITHIN YOURSELF YOU ARE THE PROPHET YOU WILL FIND THE LIGHT ONCE AGAIN!

    I’ve found that you really gotta figure out your personal problems and fix em up before you try to pursue anything else in life. I think my biggest problem right now is that I’m limiting myself w/ a ********* but that’s for reasons difficult to understand, especially to the average bear. Call me yogi instead of pooh LMAO I’m a fuck up on a lot of levels but I love ***** they’re so fantastic. I simply can’t wait to be free. You can say I don’t want my ********* anymore with some very solid evidence, but I’ve found showing restraint for something can benefit both parties for the better so why not show some nonchalant behavior for a change. Make this separation of power a little less heavy on the soul. First things first – delete twitter, instagram, facebook, and any other distractions from my life. Learn. Lift. Make money. Three things I sense will bring future happiness. I sacrificed my freshmen year to give this **** a **** to remember. I can do whatever the fuck I want. I have found that honest is dead concept, like Latin. It seems I tend to lack in interest in anything that lacks interest in me. But it is the ones who find substance in things that don’t even care that that someone exists will be most successful once they understand that. There’ll be those who will sacrifice themselves to a careless cause in search of acceptance because acceptance feels good. But that’s wrong. You must absorb as you sacrifice and through this action you will find self-acceptance. Do not sacrifice to gain for others, but in a charitable act where you have enough to sacrifice for someone else.

    March 29, 2015

    No one needs to die ever. Just because certain beliefs obstruct honest points of view, doesn’t mean they need to die.

    1. don’t put them in power
    2. vote you lazy shits
    3. ignore them! People will stop preaching once you stop listening
    4. Voice your own thoughts!
    5. Do not kill anyone! That is not such a good thing to do!

    No need to be lazy except for when stress is abundant. In which case, lay around, take a nap, play a game or something

    There are so many beautiful people in this world. How can I restrain myself from experiencing ** ***** **** ** ****? How can I ***** just one being and limit my all out **** to just one? How can I bare children when there are plenty in this world to adopt? Would I become the ghost of my past once I reach parenthood?

    How something so perfect could be so cluttered in this absurd fakeness. There so much perfection within yet you see others and their acts and you believe that’s who you need to be but it’s not you’re the sun you need not worry about those specs of dust but with that I must retreat to the lust I need from ****/***** ****(*) who are so ***. I won’t hold you back on your gilded journey you fucking fiend go **** your ***** **** **** wearing your **** ******* talking about how fun shitty music is and keep making fun of who I AM I’m so real that it’ll blind you **** ***** ******* ******* I’ll show you and the rest of you spoiled fucks I will stay true and RAVAGE

    STAY TRUE AND RAVAGE

    3/30/15

    Cause if not, I’m a failure.