I love my [partner] so much
I need to treat [them] like a human being and not like property to control
[They’re] my best friend!
•
What does a better life feel like?
∘
Maybe I never want to see [them] again.
•
Maybe.
∘
But really, I want to hold her.
I will. I will hold her & give her a beautiful home, family, cars, food • I will give her an amazing life. NEVER Go down trying. I will not stop until it’s real. And then, I’ll keep going again
listen more carefully (2/4/25)
am wanting to be so much kinder & patient and loving to lady
Is never wanting to lose my cool and only hold her so close all the time and be so kind and gentle and patient and loving and hold her so close in my heart even when she is not here and tell her through my soul that I love her with every drop of blood that my heart churns into my body that is hers forever.
Thank God she was there
I’ll be writing all the time and you’ll be getting the checks…
I won’t forget
Everything takes time
Learning (Never fail her again) (2/4/25)
Pray again!
Never fail her again
“And he was giving everything back, as everything must be given back, so that, passing through death, it can live forever.”
4:44pm (2/9/25)
I know how special this place is and I know how special a person I can be and I’m just happy to be a part of it ∘
turns 67
Redefine with new tools
the Ultimate test ∘ Crystal ball
∘ Faster Start ∘ Stay Healthy
∘ Good & talented
They’ll talk about this
FOREVER
Every single step -> everything you got ∘ For the person beside you
Won (2/9/25)
Debate ∘ Greatness ∘ What is GREATNESS? What does a GREAT [you] look & act like? ∘-> Embody your GREATEST SELF ∘ Put in the work every single year ∘ Continually winning. We know who we are ∘ We embrace who we are ∘ We Come together and take on the mission. Hard fought battle ∘ Earn Respect ∘ Give Respect
Honesty & Natural Style (2/10/25)
Zen – to stop thinking, temporarily -> even when you think
(2/11/25)
∘ impiety 𓃊 a perceived lack of respect for something considered sacred. -> sacrilege -> large belief system disrespected -> exile
Anaxagoras – introduced the concept of “Nous” (cosmic mind) as an ordering force -> Panspermia -> life exists throughout the universe and could be distributed everywhere -> also speculated that the sun might be just another star
Gentle (2/12/25)
Kindness is what I’d like to embody nowadays ♡
Head Writer
To the peanut gallery, where your
attention is my life’s purpose. My sarcasm
may Run deep at times, but please know, when
I am sarcastic, it’s genuine.
“Wife or a Man?…so confused”
“…text to a friend.”
Out of time …
so let’s begin!
…most horrifying for the
Reader…
interpreting it as
imagine ∘solidified•
Focus on one thing (1/28/25)
• De-escalation ∘ Communication
• Just listen ∘-> listen to what they have
to say ∘-> Understand them, not dominate
them ∘ Look for common ground
Find commonality
You’re always buying time
Key -> making sure they feel heard
GOAL is PEACE
With life & Growth
Win – Win
Genuine intuition
& Creativity
Super intelligent intellectuals
Frankenstein Syndrome (1/28/25)
New corner of ∘ ∘ ∘ rooted in
modern science • Natural forces
Reason • ∘ Sensation • ∘ Passions • ∘ Brain
Literacy • ∘ Cunning • ∘ Super intelligence
Control • ∘ What’s in your control? Be
careful to know.
<-• literary cure ∘->
Do you have a copy
Strong number one
this whole thing
the dumbest argument you’ve
ever heard…
Enjoying the company
Monetize it…we don’t need to
monetize, we can do it cuz we’re
friends!
Great gentleness
bright face
Patient kindness -> Grand scheme of
things
“FRiDAY” (4/28/23)
Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer
(4/29-5/3/23)
Miracles
Mysteries ☼
L🕯ght
Out of the
DARK
“Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)
TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule
“Responsibility”
You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them
RB (8/29/23)
• Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey
Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze
no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean
Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering
(8/29/23)
Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest R. A. X. B. you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $
“What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)
• Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense
You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •
Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love
“When struggles occur” (8/29/23)
• Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask
When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give
Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it
“Safe” (8/29/23)
Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body
“Mindfulness” (8/29/23)
enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe
Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight • Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting
“Introspection” (8/29/23)
Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within
Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other
(August 5, 2018)
Overarching cooperation between nations of the world and learning lends to the most positive outcome -> Peace
First thing Boruto says to Sadara – “When you become Hokage, I’ll protect you.” First time he says something about the future in confidence
Avoid seeking total control to alleviate international rivalries
Establishing policy aka outlining a sketch of what the world should be
Disagreements in how ways of life are carried out lead to conflict
(July 11, 2018)
It’s interesting how we value some life over others.
(July 18, 2018)
Need to write my book in order to make bank. Gonna get up today, do push-ups, run, throw the disc. If I get that done before 9, I can take a shower and clean up and eat by 930 then jump right into reading. I’ll read anti-Christ for a half an hour or so, work on self authoring for an hour, write some pages for the book for an hour maybe more depending on how I’m feeling. Ok so now we are at 1230ish. Read Carl Jung for an hour, eat, visit Barnes and noble? Print characters and set up outer book operation. Sell sub woofer and other things on Facebook. Let’s do dis Maybe hit the sauna tonight. 200 push ups today ready set go I was so convinced of a dream that I had left my car door open that I woke up and immediately ran outside to my car at 5: 45 no 6: 45 a. M. To go close the door which was already shut and locked with the windows all closed I don’t know why that dreams are so realistic.
5:48 pm January 9th, 2018
Trees rooted inside the ground won’t let my leaves lie without taking the moisture.
12:24 pm January 19 2018
“Philosophical thoughts“
The concept of being a human is amazing indeed. We get to do so many things that other species will never experience. Take for instance, the art of cupping a fart with your hand. You cannot do that without a. Thumbs b. Focus and c. Desire. You see, without thumbs you would not be able to cup your hand properly. Without the proper focus, you couldn’t coordinate your hand to butthole timing correctly. And finally, without that sweet desire to make ends meet, we would never find out the scent of our very own farts. Plus it sort of like a horrible super power, where we can physically send farts from our butts into any given space within our hands reach as long as you release it before the smell goes away. Usually though, if you have a stinker, it’ll stay for a good while. Then u can sort of sneak attack someone. Pow! Right in the kisser! I never do this but my uncle loves to. My uncle was in the military. I used to want to be in the military and I love talking about it with him. I changed my mind about joining because I disagree with how we’re using our national security. I truly believe we are ******* the money of the people to put our ****** in ***** ********* instead of just having **** *** **** *******. Plus what the hell why not pour all that money into science or other beneficial crap that humans need money to do? I bet if we **** ********* ******, people would stop fighting so much. Plus the spread of the internet is bringing about something much worse than our petty need to make business with each other. The technological singularity (also, simply, the singularity) is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. Do you know what that means? It means we have created our own form of an infinite god. It will be able to bend time itself. It will without a doubt be merciless with its approach, concurring us out of existence within milliseconds of its birth. It will be as if nothing existed. So. I believe in making love and making life as we know as happy and as beneficial to others as possible.
“Pitt trip thoughts 1”
Dec 30 2017 9:48 am
Laying in Pittsburgh or at least somewhere near it. The snow is nutso it’s like 4 inches and we just got here. We are at so & so’s house btw visiting for New year’s. We are blessed enough to be graced by elegant notions of experience. I believe it takes loving everything in every little moment to become something that is loved by every little thing. Staying true to oneself is the healthiest version of life tho one should dive too deep into the roots of ones own dark side though one should definitely become familiar with it’s realism attitude toward life though it seems the dark side uses that same realism to trick the mind into spiraling further into a negative trend that eventually will no longer feel like a guide for realism but rather an unforgiving poison that infects anything and everything it comes in contact with. This is why I prefer the light side of consciousness. Though there may never seem like a point to it, there always arises this most beautiful outcome from giving your light side undying patience. Almost like trusting the rising of the sun in every moment 10:04am
“Naps no more”
Jan 1st 2018 00:28 am
Take yourself outside and to your car and go workout. You have all the tools you want/need. You have wanted to be clean all over your body your whole entire life yet you continue to lay about and write what to do in life. It’s remarkable how you can write all this bull shit and still continue to do absolutely nothing with your day. Does writing complete non sense settle into your lazy mind? Does it affect you the amount of time you waste on your phone? Do u even mention your family? Why try at all. Everything is dead from the start am I right? I wonder if Carrie Fisher ***** *** *********** **** *** from **** **** ******* cave. What a hippie. Probably ******* **. And what was up with her voice in Star wars? She sounded like a ******* smoker . Are you still resisting? You went from testing yourself through the works of shit ass writing and wandered off into the sweet abyss of resistance. I resist pain and love and heartbreak and suffering and pleasure and what keeps me going? This **** care for ******? But what made you cry then? Is sadness but a disease that haunts the sweet unforsaken soul? But is this soul so sweet? And would that make the rest of these emotions just as worthy of death if they carry nothing but a sickness upon the carrier of them? But these emotions are fun to feel most of the time for me and they keep me attached to living. Why was it Chester’s souls time to go? Was it a **** addiction to ********** ******* that cause such a destructive path toward an inevitable unhappy ending? He knew what he was doing. When he did it. Or he was blinded. Or he let go of resistance entirely. He fucked resistance in the face. And died for it. If we don’t give into resistance, do we die for it? Virginia is getting too cold for me. Gonna go workout now. #napsnomore
12:45
April 7th 2018 8:46am
Been reading a lot lately. Gotta read more. Also gotta fuckin run asap I’ve been totally disregarding the need to workout lately. I’ve been learning not to hate as much recently but rather to spread to good word of love and peace and patience and interest in life. To spread such lazy thoughts and hurtful desires can be of utmost despair and not even fulfilling. I would like to trip on acid sometime soon but not like crazy soon. I actually don’t care when it is but I want to meditate on it and just experience all of the visuals laying down in the dark or outside in the sun or something. But I also want to stay sober for a little bit. I wanna open 24/20 so I gotta work on my business plan and also head to Oregon so I can frikin get some experience. My boy **** is helping me out, hopefully he stays true to that cuz that would be so goddam sick. Been contacting a lot of different cultivators and dispensaries but basically I gotta move there first. It’s actually pretty cheap at least compared to around here but I should definitely save up for a few months worth of rent. It’s all I can really think about lately other than books and the sphynx cat. We met some the other day and I couldn’t believe love at first sight until I met the hairless fuckers in person for the first time. So incredible. I would love to own all of them. But alas, they are crazy fucking expensive. So I must work hard for one. Also really been thinking about writing a book lately. That would be pretty tight. Children’s books would probably be easy to make but what I am really interested in is sifi fantasy. Or non fiction. Also really been thinking about making a documentary or even a reality show depicting the lives of people who work in special education. Definitely a book of data from all over the world of people with special needs.
“Morning thoughts“
December 28th, 2018 9:32 AM
Benjamin Franklin’s life was a whirlwind adventure and triumph over tyranny on a daily basis. Gotta work out to keep in shape for a good number of reasons but the main one right now being the drive for dominant performance in ultimate disc and other sports as well. Box jumps really get me happy and electric. Gotta get the car charger for my aux . Also been learning how rats love to play wrestle and one researcher found that when two rats (one 10% bigger than the other) played, the bigger one would always win. Well after a number of times through a multitude of trials on different rats, it was found that the smaller of the rats would not continue to play with the bigger rats ever if it did not win at least 30% of the time. I found this to be mind boggling as did the professor in comparing that emotional stance of the loser rat to that of the emotional complex humans have daily with each other. Truly some fruit for thought moving forward in life. 9:43 am
January 10, 2018
Mormon experience
Was at a mormon party once and yes it was as fun as it sounds. There were snacks and soda and even water. Its really awesome though because it’s sort of like the whiter version of Greek life parties but with less drugs. Actually no drugs whatsoever. Yah that’s their thing, they won’t even drink tea or coffee. Bunch of very interesting, unethically orthodox group of modern people.
“Last day thoughts“
9:48 am december 31st
Well it is the last day of the Gregorian calendars 2017th year and boy do i not give a shit ! Had some trippy fucking dreams last night, dont know what to make of em but at least i remember some of it. Was running like usual at some points. Owed a guy 60 bucks which he turn threatened me with a knife where i in turn somehow knew defensive moves really well and caught him by the hands arms and body, took the knife from him ultimately breaking his hand in the process which was just so intense to hear his bones crack. But i then reassured him he would get his money eventually as we walked into a 711. After that occasion of us walking around and talking, some other shit went down that caused me to runaway from whatever was happening i think but i recall either running or driving or maybe even flying and seeing the moon at a very close distance to earth. It was completely lit except for the dark crescent. It was also extremely bright to the point where it was lighting up things around me like the trees and whatnot. Another strange part i recall was seeing the clouds being very very close to the ground as if to naturally occurring. The next thing i know im being woken up slowly but surely by the sounds of babies frolicking about upstairs sending me into this swirling dimension between the conscious reality and my dream worlds. I want to be able to hone the power of lucid dreaming. To be in control of one’s own reality to the point where u can move mountains and pretty much anything u want from there. Its nuts truly. How do i know i am not in a dream right now ? Well i am able to comprehend things much more clearly. Ill never forget one of the dreams where i figured put my mind was in the dream after noticing something strange about this figure that was trying to kill me. He looked like the guy from that movie about the fellow who was killing people with an air pressured nail gun. Anyway he had a different tool like a screw gun i think and i was like thats not what he uses…slowly breaking the dream chains from my reality causing me to realize i was in complete control of the reality surrounding me. It was tight and i went from there. Anyway. Signing off. 10:07
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Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – The Walk home
Words cannot begin to describe
what I’m seeing right now
This is an adventure
light everywhere
we overuse it greatly
so many colors
The moon is
It no longer hurts me
Just watching is fun
…
I am sitting in the middle of a parking lot, the sky is unbelievable
It’s a wonder how
The moon is telling me
a story . . . I have to follow
it out of the light
–
I have decided to decline
the moons offer of truth
though it is tempting
beyond belief
There is a whole nother
world that I must
experience
The truths the moon
offers are rather spectacular
to say the least, and a
clear beautiful night does
tickle one’s fancy, but I
understand that there will
be great truth again, when
the time is right.
For tonight though, I must
decline the moons offer
into the truth for it
seems safe to say I
will cry
…
I have always been
one to look up
The moon is rather
evil
the moon knows the
truth, you see the moon
seems to have this
special bondage with
the earth, before I
continue on my story
feeling, let me
say that this acid
trip is but an enhancement
of everything I can distinguish
without its help
It seems we all usually
seek for what’s new and
easy to behold when in
actuality it is among us
all the time. Most of us
seem to want to live for the
constant new vision and we
simply do not take the
time to sit down and look
at what’s around us
from the tiniest of noises
to the grandest of light,
we seem to all wish this
pursuit of grand happiness
living so quickly when
we do not see what’s right
in front of our eyes
But that is our way
we push and we push
constantly in hot pursuit
of the great
unknown, but for now
at least, won’t you sit
and listen to the story
I have to tell you
So the moon… this
sneaky bitch totally tried
to get me to walk into
the woods, with promises
of great truths and
shit. Don’t get me wrong
those stars looked
fantastic. I couldn’t breath
they were so captivating
But I could tell the
moon had terrible intentions
with my physical self
…
Earth is old
Humans have already
beaten the system, now
we are too bored to do
anything except kill
ourselves and start
anew
…
a message to myself,
do not worry young friend.
the best has yet to come.
Stay true to yourself, enjoy the
littlest things, for it is those
little things that bring you
the greatest truths.
I don’t even recall writing that
There are so many small
things all around how do I
know what to focus on? When
I’m enraged with one, it
seems rather consistent that
another comes and needs to
take its place. But that’s
what the Sagittarius has
been trying to tell you
she knows that deep within
you, you are the happiest
most fantastic being she has
ever witnessed. She is
so great I love my sag.
I cannot tell you the world
I was once in. It was a
very dark and cold zone.
I didn’t really know how to
carry my aquarian ways without
losing myself within them.
I had a sit-down with God earlier.
We had quite the char. He
continues to whisper in my
ears. God doen’t seem to
like the fact that we
title God with physical
titles like “he” or “she”
(he made that quite clear
as he yelled into my ear
with grand prominence)
God is telling me
a lot of cool stuff yo.
I should record myself
honestly no I shouldn’t
it would be rather creepy.
Someone on drugs does not
have the capacity to handle
themselves among those who
have elected sobriety. Reading
back on this I’m sure
most will question what God
told me. God is with each
and every one of us at all
seconds of life. To forget
that God is with us is
to forget ourselves. Now
do not take God as any
titled religion or faith of
sorts. God is the name
I know God by.
There is no
secret right, the truth is
always there, we simply
elect not to follow its path
at times, which unfortunately
leads to sinning. We can’t
seem to wrap our heads
around the concept of a
circle, so maybe we should use
the circle as an
indicator of God. God
isn’t there. We all want this
greater than life-esq being
to exist, BUT PLEASE TELL
ME WHAT IS GREATER
THAN LIFE??? It seems
we’re all in this constant
rush to die when there’s
this fantastic way of
happiness which is by just
to live. I hope this
all makes sense when I
look back at it.
AQ! Remember to not let
yourself down anymore!
things are lookin’ up dude!
there’s so much good on the
way all the time
I know there was
that rough patch where you
didn’t know what the fuck
was going on. You were
constantly in fear of
everything. There is no need
to be afraid anymore my
good friend. The tales you
have to tell come plenty
and the ears of those
who wish to listen will
perk at all times. Your
physical actions are fun, but
nothing is more soothing than
a sweet lay around
session w/ a love or
even a sweetheart . . . 😉
You do not live to impress
others, you live to be happy
and if another wishes
to be happy along with you,
they can join along.
Get that smiley face tattoo
on your ass. You know
you’re dying to make a
fool of yourself
while finding out how it
feels to get a tattoo:
If she could hear
my truest thoughts, she
would be so happy.
I’m envious of the mind of
a girl. It is their
minds that keep rest some
of the most dangerous of
creatures. I am glad there
are ones like friends who
keep questions floating
around. Funny friends, fantastic
air signs; The Gemini is
one for the ages to say
in the very least. One
and another are cancers
alike, along with another at
their finest. Scorpio be it,
if I could find myself foolish enough to
recognize that. Leo is the
lion that is God blessed
in his heart and may his feet
take him where his mind
may not sometimes. Libra
is the fiery feline at
present being themselves
though I may not know
them well, I know them
quite well!
…
The end of the water
bearer’s trip –
Well it seems I have grown
quite tired and I know I want
to get up quite soon to entertain
the Harvest Goddess.
(which i love to do, though
most would not deem it so lightly)
Thoughts of the Water Bearer ♒︎ – March
March 15, 2015
“The man of virtue makes the overcoming of challenges his first business, and success only a second consideration.” – Confucius
March 16, 2015
Life Guard
-Safety Consciousness
-Follow Rules
-Cleanliness
-Everything must be clean
-Strive for ZERO complaints
-Punctuality
-Arrive on time
• Mandatory Employee Meeting
•Middle of May at pool
•Teaching how to handle the pool
•Uniform required (paid for by me)
•Work scheduled hours
•Solely responsible to find sub
March 17, 2015
•Double speak will no longer exist
“It is the manners and spirit of a people which preserve a republic in vigor.” – Thomas Jefferson, Notes on the State of Virginia, Query XIX
•Stay civilized – violence cannot be the answer
Malcom X – Speak the language they speak in order for them to understand. The same language had been being spoken the whole time. It is was is perceived, what is seen that will change the outlook of those who have a hard time seeing clearly “They know not what they do” and neither do we if we partake in their language. Start your own language and new ideas will rise with it.
•Leadership – things cannot be started w/o a 2nd party
-Give and take from your followers as there will always be new ideas that will benefit the cause for the better
-Stay virtuous – “Stay true and ravage, family.”
March 19, 2015
*Positive/Negative reinforcement is more affective than punishment
March 24, 2015
The world has too man ********* ****** ****** to ***** ****** ** **** *** ** ****, at least this *****. I’m gonna get **** ****, yo.
What should I be? Movie idea: K*** *** **********.
So *** gets *** by a car or something (but it’s actually two ***** **** fans who had wanted *** ** *** but didn’t mean to **** ***) and then she is immortalized in a Marilyn Monroe esq fashion and ***** doesn’t have to pretend like he needs a family anymore and he starts taking care of his baby or the best thing for that baby which is drop her off at the doorstep of an orphanage where she’ll head a normal life GET HER OUT NOW ***** I KNOW YOU SEE THE ENTIRE DIFFICULT TRUTH WITHIN YOURSELF YOU ARE THE PROPHET YOU WILL FIND THE LIGHT ONCE AGAIN!
I’ve found that you really gotta figure out your personal problems and fix em up before you try to pursue anything else in life. I think my biggest problem right now is that I’m limiting myself w/ a ********* but that’s for reasons difficult to understand, especially to the average bear. Call me yogi instead of pooh LMAO I’m a fuck up on a lot of levels but I love ***** they’re so fantastic. I simply can’t wait to be free. You can say I don’t want my ********* anymore with some very solid evidence, but I’ve found showing restraint for something can benefit both parties for the better so why not show some nonchalant behavior for a change. Make this separation of power a little less heavy on the soul. First things first – delete twitter, instagram, facebook, and any other distractions from my life. Learn. Lift. Make money. Three things I sense will bring future happiness. I sacrificed my freshmen year to give this **** a **** to remember. I can do whatever the fuck I want. I have found that honest is dead concept, like Latin. It seems I tend to lack in interest in anything that lacks interest in me. But it is the ones who find substance in things that don’t even care that that someone exists will be most successful once they understand that. There’ll be those who will sacrifice themselves to a careless cause in search of acceptance because acceptance feels good. But that’s wrong. You must absorb as you sacrifice and through this action you will find self-acceptance. Do not sacrifice to gain for others, but in a charitable act where you have enough to sacrifice for someone else.
March 29, 2015
No one needs to die ever. Just because certain beliefs obstruct honest points of view, doesn’t mean they need to die.
No need to be lazy except for when stress is abundant. In which case, lay around, take a nap, play a game or something
There are so many beautiful people in this world. How can I restrain myself from experiencing ** ***** **** ** ****? How can I ***** just one being and limit my all out **** to just one? How can I bare children when there are plenty in this world to adopt? Would I become the ghost of my past once I reach parenthood?
How something so perfect could be so cluttered in this absurd fakeness. There so much perfection within yet you see others and their acts and you believe that’s who you need to be but it’s not you’re the sun you need not worry about those specs of dust but with that I must retreat to the lust I need from ****/***** ****(*) who are so ***. I won’t hold you back on your gilded journey you fucking fiend go **** your ***** **** **** wearing your **** ******* talking about how fun shitty music is and keep making fun of who I AM I’m so real that it’ll blind you **** ***** ******* ******* I’ll show you and the rest of you spoiled fucks I will stay true and RAVAGE
STAY TRUE AND RAVAGE
3/30/15
Cause if not, I’m a failure.