Tag: spirituality

  • March, 2025 ☘︎

    “Today” (3/17/25)

    the other day I probably said the worst things I’ve ever said to her. I’m trying to not be negative or mean & positivity feels fake so I just want to relay facts at this point. I’m not happy with being disrespected in our relationship. In fact I am certain she doesn’t respect me, although she has been nice. Hope she has a good, long & happy life because I do not know if we are together anymore.

    “Lifechanging” (3/27/25)

    yale • Harvard • Ivy • College student • Libraries • Studying • Success • Academia • Freedoms • Growth • Learning • Development • Truth & Freedom • Strategy • Private profit • Daring • Voyages • Frighten the authorities • Fiery Battle • Treachery • Piracy • Ceased • Transforms crime into politics

    “Super Righteous” (3/28/25)

    What can I do to reach divine being within myself so that my physicality may become Godlike in structure & mind & depth ~> love • heart & soul

    What do you change from them?

    Zarephath • Drenched

    Hometown Boy

    Mood changes

    Righteous times

    Righteous measures

    Righteous body

    Serving my people

    Simple Kindness” (3/28/25)

    Calm care • Salvation of love

    How did Paul die? Decapitation by Romans

    Tell us that story

    Journeys • Rented rooms

    First he heals them

    Begin Again” (3/30/25)

    We are exhausted • What is scarlet?

    .

    .

    Flickering light

    their city

    feels natural to have you here

    “Power & Control” (3/31/25)

    Power to not get upset with your loved ones ∘ Control over your actions ∘~> what is in my control is my limbs & my facial expressions & my thoughts ∘-> it is sometimes difficult to control my thoughts -> that is to say I’m not quite sure which ones might pop up within my brain at any given point in time. How much power do you have over the things within your control? I think I have more power over the things within my control than I act. Imagine if you act so kind & patient while getting so smart & strong and believing in yourself & that you are so beautiful & attractive & loved

    Exit West [Book analysis]” (3/31/25)

    The novel establishes borders insofar as describing the locations of certain activities. Beyond that, the novel breaks down the idea of borders by leaving places (including their city of residence) unnamed and untitled. This is a curious choice by Hamid, as it brings forth a sense of mystification, leaving the reader to fill and/or appreciate such gaps. It also brings to mind the idea of an egoless war, defying the importance placed upon nationalism.

    -> internal borders

    -> Nadia vs. Saeed’s personal boundaries

    “Mindful vs. Mindless” (3/31/25)

    Mindful = having fun -> act of noticing

    VS.

    mindlessness -> focus is mindless

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    enhanced, charismatic

  • March of Ides

    RB  (1/13/23)
    You are forgiven
    I am God
    Thoth      Horus    Enki
        Divinity   Giving
    Enlightenment
    Look into your heart
    God flows like a river of GOLD • River of Gold
    Smooth talker • Human •
    TRUE HUMAN • Loving • Careful
    Graceful • Caring • Merciful
    Righteous • Bringing Joy
    Guns • Razors • Knives
    F*** with me • • • ‘•’>i<’•’
    Soaking wet
    Golden thought GoD

    “loving embrace” (1/15/23)
    Godliness • Creative • Funny
    I AM GOD
      I AM ENKi the Giver
       of Life • I AM
    Thoth the Enlightened ⚬
    I AM HoRUS the DiViNE
    I AM Hercules the STRONG
    I AM Zeus the Electric
    I am Posiden of Water
    I am ⃤⩜thena🜃
    I am Gilgamesh the BRAVE
    I am Jesus the SACRIFICE
    I AM KiNG of KiNGS
    Man of Gods ⚬ God of Men
    Man + Prophet ⚬ Savior • Story
    LOVE ⚬ GolD • Light • Glory • Strength

    Robert
    “Enki” (1/15/23)
      Gilgamesh
         Enoch
          David
           Thoth
            Horus

    Positivity


    “Humility ☦︎   ” (1/19/22)
    You are God level confident
    What happens now?
    Golden power
    Righteous strength
    Overwhelming goodness overcomes
    The sound of the waves collide
    Wisdom flowing like a river
    Peace through divine interv
    Sacrificial strength  

    Mindful activity
    1 hour -> week
      -> counseling
      -> Gym





    “And you know For you I’d bleed myself dry, for you I’d bleed myself dry” (7/12/23)
    Dispense with this idea that the one exists •-> someone becomes the one by what we build with them
    any commitment long term requires true effort

    VALUE
    Attention
    Recognize
    Bite
    Plan
    Self emulation
    If you want to know about yourself sit on your bed one night -> my life isn’t everything I want it to be

    “ideas”
    if you want to know something about yourself [you have to have desperate intention] -> your life is not everything you want it to be, it’s not everything you need it to be -> unbearable life -> suffering -> nihilism -> cynical -> bitter -> resentful -> ********* -> ********* -> unable to have a good relationship -> prone to punish people out of envy for their impressive values -> seeing evil everywhere -> except within your own heart  -> these are problems

    Sit and say to yourself – “Okay, I’m ready to learn something”
    What am I doing wrong that I know that I could fix, that I would fix?

    “ideas ᗑ ᗑ ᗑ ᗑ ᗑ” (7/14/23)
    Brain – trapped in it’s own dark, silent box [skull]
    Doesn’t know what’s going on outside the skull – sensory signals
    Reality is what we can sense with our sensory surfaces & what we can make sense of with the signals in our brain


    Crisis point for the union

    “Cemetery Ridge” (9/27/23)



    Every time you hold me,
    I know it’s Real ♡


    “Search for the Key 🗝” (11/13/23)
    Forest loving goodness grace fountain of tree wealth

    “Do-list”
    • glasses [online]
    • call phone repair
    • Fin aid office
    • Oil, gas, uber [tires] [new tire]

    “January the first twenty-twenty-three four, the year of our lord, Jesus Christ, et cetera, so on and so forth”
    that’s what she said
    four score and seven years ago
    and all who believe in him shall not perish but be granted eternal life
    the wages of sin is hell
    so it is written

    S G Z

    “What • ” (1/3/24)
    music • loving glory
    What is most interesting is the way you shine ✧
    Wild flowers in the summer wave in the mind as the butterfly sets the world in motion ʚїɞ

  • Syncrocity

    Quantum enthrallment continues its baffling procedure amongst our unknowing ongoing. This is in light of total dominance reconciled via certain radiant intake. If understood beyond mere simple magical happenings, these mechanisms may prove expoundable by psychological means. In contemplation of the character of one’s own individual undertaking, there is a clear patternized unresistance present. These patterns defy expected routine via altered realization upon witness / sensory intake. One may look to the idea of a double appearance of an experience within a single day, both experiences of which caught the main conscious focus to whatever degree, the latter doubly so given the recurrence of the former. Such passive acceptance of these occurrences holds power & magic with uncertainty notwithstanding. The certainty lies only within belief in the system of nerval connectivity present throughout the dimension of standing breath. We can embark upon non-breathing realms within the telepathic resonances climbed upon by peaceful intentions, though these can be fast and unnoticed reckonings, thus must be thought of to the creative extent, at the least, in order to have a semblance of capturing definition upon natural gratification. If one can indeed realize and embark upon the syncing levels naturally present within their breathing moments, of which were placed on them by both choice & chance, then the expounding can be intangible in glory. It is difficult to underscore this because it already comes so naturally that one hardly needs to realize this in order to fulfill certain potential. With that said, purposeful endeavoring to connect those loose parts you find vividly present in ambiguous manner scattered throughout not only your waking eyesight, but your inner vision, then perhaps you will awaken those moods so desired not only within yourself but also within those parts of which will be uplifted by your innate glorious reconciliation, in peace. 

  • Next Chapter

    RB  (7/1/23)

    i’d like to write a ballad for the artist that lives within you: 

    Thank you, oh dear fire, for lighting my way through the darkness and thank you ^for providing the heat that shields me from the coldness from their hearts like palms against steel • my dear fire, it is what captures my living attention when there is all of space to be gazed upon

    Jung – healing” (7/2/23)

    “Where your fear is, there is your task” 

    Predispositions tied to symptoms 

    – Anxiety, low energy, lazy, too high strung 

    Chronic illness’ linked to these personality traits 

    • Treat the person if you want to see the symptoms resolved 

    • The patient’s own healing

    heroes journey

    Symptoms -> chronic -> linked to way person thinks, lives 

    Knowledge that benefits the person 

    Most difficult knowledge is self-knowledge 

    easy to be objective w/ others and subjective w/ ourselves 

    What are my patterns -> self sabotage, things do to myself, diet, things I do in my relationship, in my marriage 

    They’re all on me 

    Where your fear is, there is your healing. 

    Understanding Personality And Disease Archetypes:

    Rigidity & Laxity

    . YANG       Yin   .” (7/3/23)

    • Yin & Yang ☯

    Rigidity: hyper aroused nervous system, more tense, anxious, neurosis, excessive worrying, every little thing is a problem to be fixed now, excessive urgency in living 

    Laxity: Laziness, undisciplined eating, can’t exercise, hard to get out of bed, lax eating, lax approach towards life, no urgency to live 

    no deliberate living 

    Bring personality traits to the middle 

    Damp constitution – Dry them up a bit & their bloating will get better 

    Dry Constitution – Give them moistening herbs so that they’re not drying out too much 

    Bring the psyche to the middle • coming back to the middle will be healing heroes journey 

    Heal the person to heal the disease 

    Fears – what you’ve been avoiding 

    Traits, valves, thought systems 

    Jung – Confront oneself” (7/3/23)

    Confront oneself – fear of confronting oneself;

    Jung – confronting oneself like going to the depths of hell & confronting the shadow aspects of ourselves is where the greatest healing begins 

    Understand where we are on that yin and yang spectrum 

    Nietzsche & Jung: Healing your inner child” (7/3/23)

    • Child -> Metamorphosis •-> becoming the child 

    • Crucial realization 

    -> Child represents innocence, forgetfulness, a new beginning, a game, self-propelling wheel, a first motion, a sacred yet ——> relevant in self-improvement 

    • Shadow -> Jungian shadow work 

    • repression, avoidance, void 

    • Rooted within childhood trauma which we repress from ourselves 

    • Develope self-awareness of ourselves and of our past 

    Nietzsche” (7/3/23)

    Nietzche identified the child as what should be the final metamorphosis of all human souls • spirits in this life -> 

    That life is at it’s best when we finally embody the characteristics of the inner child -> to be of complete innocence, forgetfulness, playfulness 

    view of life as a sacred nest of spontaneity & play 

    Pinnacle of existence 

    -> Remember being a child, life was euphoric -> enjoy life

  • “FRiDAY” (4/28/23)

    Wet love drops jeans crumpled riveting imagination thoughts results sitting physical powerful leaf bird chirps corgi rage waiting breathing what answer

    (4/29-5/3/23)

    Miracles 

    Mysteries   ☼

    L🕯ght

    Out of the 

    DARK

    “Print Worksheets” (5/5/23)

    TRADiNG • hard on yourself • Challenge negative thoughts • stories • Self care – daily – schedule 

    Responsibility

    You are not going to whine -> you are a man a Great man with responsibilities to his family & loved ones to take care of business & not give up or be lazy or whiny when things aren’t going your way -> be stoic earn money -> emotionless -> they don’t care how you feel -> you don’t do it to be rewarded the reward is taking care of their feelings and insuring with all your strength in your bones & muscles & brain that you build the life you as a man, a great man, father, husband, lover, son, brother, man, to build a life of happiness for your family • You are so lucky & blessed to have those people in your life who are most important don’t take them for granted always love them 

    RB (8/29/23)

    • Calm • not angry • stoic self-reflection • unconditional Respect • Meditation • Journey 

    Give all you can give • fast the heart • give all you can give to the world • Don’t spoil yourself • Progress towards success • Eat healthy • feed your family • Support your families needs & wants • Travel with them • take care of them • Ask for nothing in return • own yourself • Control your mind • own your house • Don’t be selfish • Don’t push sex • Love & nourish -> not lauding • Avoid drugs & booze

    no raising voice/yelling • Love • Sexual energy • blissful waves • think Before you speak • You will not fuck up • Love • Create • Enjoy • bask in the present • Self Care • Healthy • Routine • Clean 

    Saying I love you doesn’t have to be the only way you show someone you love them • Love them so hard in whatever way you want to show them -> don’t force love • Accept whatever form it comes in to you • don’t take people / things in your life for granted, have gratitude • Study • become better, awaken • heal others • heal yourself • breathe • Embark • Trust the flow / universe • Connect with source • Prove you are the man/woman -> the human being who can relied upon, counted on to be the one • your loved ones go to you for support • be brave -> embrace & embark upon the pain & suffering 

    (8/29/23)

    Bring joy, love, glory, bravery, Gratitude • A positive irresistible attitude think positive thoughts • embark on your highest potential • high quantum frequencies • Achieve your dream • be the greatest R. A. X. B. you can possibly be • Give it your all • Say what you feel • Don’t fear • Embrace it • Embrace the pain • Be a man of action • workout • Write • Start a business • Earn big $

    What do you want to become?” (8/29/23)

    • Always appreciate that which is important to you • hold no grudge • let go of it • Self awareness •Courage • Defense 

    You better let go of it because there’s no way of holding onto it • Trust the universe • Give up control and trust things to work out • The TAO • And watch things work out • Let the people do what they’re supposed to do & watch the wealth & power flow • Let the flower grow • Be present • Here & now • Spiritual • embark • do the hard things • be patient • Go back to school • Earn more money • Support your family • Create a beautiful life for them • Show them the world • Educate yourself -> constant journey • the suffering is in the love and love in the suffering -> don’t laud it over them •

    Give Give Give Give Give Give Give love

    When struggles occur” (8/29/23)

    • Courage • light • Dark • Conscious • Awaken • Write • Pain • Struggle • Endeavor • Bliss • Listen • Express • Ask 

    When struggles occur remember why you started in the first place • think • listen • Give

    Don’t compare yourself to other -> Give so much of what you have to give to those who are important to you • Marry • Protect • listen • engage • wonder • don’t control • let go • let in • within external is all one you are the other escape the illusion of separateness become more unified with yourself Path of enlightenment Give what you want to get in return • laugh • smile • create energy • Make her smile • make yourself smile • imagine the life you want to create in great detail then create it

    Safe” (8/29/23)

    Become • Be what you are • Other & Self • Persona • Feel Pain • Safe • She wants to feel safe to feel loved • Give her endless waves of loving pure wonderful energy • So much to give • relate • listen • accept • Don’t always have an opinion • Create wealth • Family -> procreate • have courage • take care of her • love her • accept her for who she is • be calm • Forgive • let go • Trust the universe • Move beyond • pleasure • Don’t need to go out to show someone you love them • Patience love glory strength beauty wonder grace shining light glory • love tender • joyous • compassion • blood • heartbeat • smells • taste • take care of her • love her beautiful body

    Mindfulness” (8/29/23)

    enlightened state of mind • one • parts • illusion • Unity • Suffering • Other • Calm • Universe 

    Spiritual practices • Active • Sensual • Mind heady quantum energy -> vibrations -> waves • Present • here & now kissing • love • Gratitude • Smile • Unconditional • nourishing • no whining • Not angry • breathing • No rage • Confidence • Be a great man • God • We are all God • One • Many • Top of the mountain • Floodlight •  Spotlight • You feel pain • the other feels pain • realize you are the other • Kingship • Nourish • love • Garden • unconditional • Tantric energy • love her body • don’t get frustrated • unstuck • Patience • Silent meditation sitting

    Introspection” (8/29/23)

    Focus • One thing • one thought • God manifesting • source • Birth • Rebirth • Re-see • Activity • Being • Universe • see • feel • wiggle • Look within

    Becoming one with your wiggle-self • Self is other • You are self • You are the universe • You are the other • the universe is other thus the self thus yourself -> connection between self & the other -> realizing you & the other experience the same sensations -> thus the universe experiencing its own senses -> sensing the other is sensing the self thus to trust yourself is to trust the other thus to let go is to let in -> that is when you have become the one who is most powerful -> when you Give power up -> to give is the other giving thus giving to the other is to give to the self • to harm the self is to harm the other

  • Glory • Patience (7/3/24)

    Get big gains

    • Huge net worth

    Belief in yourself

    Hope • Smile • Destroy

    your slave chains &

    become the person you

    want to become

    Vision

    Chi GRAtitude

    Power

    Strength

    Courage

    Understanding

    Shadow • Dark side

    Breathing • Center

    Plants (6/29/24)

    you love oxygen • Take care of you

    you believe in yourself

    Be kind, strong, prosperous &

    Smart & loving & caring

    Attack • Defend • Protect your

    loved ones • Be so nice to your baby

    Clean • Get BiG gains • Think • center

    Smile • laugh • Posture • look • hear

    Listen • Coach • learn • EARN

    Reign on me LOV

    envision

    imagine

    picture your life

    the way you want it

    to be

    Something to Remember (7/1/24)

    Dancin’ in September

    *+:。.。.·:*¨¨* ≈𖤓☯︎☾≈ *¨¨*:·.。.。:+*

    Tis Monday, the first of

    July. We only have one first

    of July this year, so let’s

    make it count❗

    GlORY • Prominence • Joy

    • Power • Kindness • Strength

    • Patience • Good attitude

    Love • GRACEFUL • Wonder

    Power is yours forever (7/4/24)

    Everything goes right for me

    Nothing ever goes wrong

    you are a demi-God

    you are a magnet for good

    luck & great fortune & gold

    & diamonds

    you get big earnings, big

    gains & big, short rides

    surges

    Patience, never outshine the

    master? “you”?

    What questions -> self-awareness

    Supportive Care (7/9/24)

    Intimacy • Connection

    i love her body so much

    She is the most beautiful

    being in the entire

    existence of everything &

    nothing

    She is so important to

    me ↝♡

    Am wanting to connect

    so deeply with *****

    ****, lovely loving love.

    She is absolutely perfect

    in every way & you

    will always show her your

    love through kindness & gentleness

    and love & so much love

    Why do people love strength? (7/11/24)

    •Fear•Power•Protection

    •Respect•Envy•Weakness(their own)

    ->how to use strength to your

    advantage -> strategy -> control

    • Smile • Chi • Belief • Positive orgones ✳

    Optimum Productivity (7/12/24)

    Enhance brain function

    Daily routine • Brain health

    Cognitive functions & ability

    Mindfulness & relaxation

    Because I want to (•_•)

    Problem solving skills ->

    solve puzzles

    Critical thinking & Planning

    learn New Skills -> instrument

    stimulate the brain -> continue

    learning -> Neuroplasticity

    FAT Bottom GiRLS (7/13/24)

    • Vision Board • Write

    • Clothes

    • Prepare for upcoming semester

    • Prepare for season

    Who wants it more?

    Positive energy -> Generate

    positive energy from thin air

    Get big money

    you are attractive

    What you are seeking is seeking you

    Boring discussions (7/14/24)

    • Crates -> Sales

    • hoodies / stencils

    -> Green pants [Drawer]

    • Drop pods off for *****

    RB (7/15/24)

    Believe in yourself

    Believe in your abilities

    Belief • Goal • Aspiration

    Vision expands • Dream bigger dreams

    Inner dialogue • Self belief – self talk

    Positive belief system • Believe in

    your abilities • Greater control

    over your life • Align your

    being • you are the best

    Encouragement to Act (7/15/24)

    Biggest dream has already

    come true – Immerse yourself

    Forgive

    RB (7/16/24)

    to meditate -> to become familiar

    -> familiar with the self

    Self-recognition • Change within

    Changed life • Neuroplasticity

    unlearning -> see/observe the old

    self & decide no unconscious

    thought goes unnoticed – Decide

    what you need to change

    Operating system -> change

    anything • Separate from the

    external world • Emotions

    Desire to know thyself

    Observe the old self (7/15/24)

    Become aware • Successful

    Nerve cells • Breaking those habits

    Making those changes

    Nervous system • emotional state

    New personality • New state of being

    Presently experiencing • Personal

    reality • think & feel

    New self – New personal reality

    Believe in yourself

    Proust (7/19/24)

    longest novel of all time

    with 1.2 million words

    “In search of lost time…”

    •❅───✧❅✦❅✧───❅•

    3 possible sources for the

    Meaning of life

    Social success • high society

    Social higher-archy FAME

    The dukes & aristocrat are

    boring & crass • Dull

    ✳life’s not going on elsewhere

    •Meaning of life in Romance

    No one can fully understand anyone

    •Meaning of life in Art ○ Artists

    Return life to its true Glory ⇀

    Proust (7/19/24)

    look at the world, our world

    with some of the same generosity

    as an artist • i.e. take “pleasure”

    in the simple things

    Bring out the charm & spirit of every day

    Vermeer ⇀ painter

    the Every day

    Cakes the french call “la Madeline”

    flavor ⇀ brings streams of

    memories ⇀ evoked hope &

    gratitude “Proustian moment”

    involuntary, intense remembering

    When the past promptly emerges

    unhidden from a smell, a taste or

    a texture ○ Rich, evocative power

    Appreciative life with greater intensity

    Proust (7/19/24)

    What does being fully alive

    feel like to us?

    hard work, dedication

    Show up for work every day

    & work -> What separates the

    greats?

    Taking one day off puts you two

    days back

    Visualize yourself winning

    Fully Engaged (7/20/24)

    We want to win, period.

    When we’re on the field, we want

    to beat the living crap out of you

    Deep well of being (7/21/24)

    Periods of solitude & isolation

    to connect with our deepest

    purpose

    What would you need to

    accomplish in 3 days to

    feel like you gave everything

    toward your dream?

    live full life, give everything

    Nothings lasts

    Give & let go

    Give & let go

    Whatever is made is finite

    so Give your all to all

    in your deepest purpose

    The Game of my Life (7/21/24)

    you can do great things with

    your life even when someone

    tells you that you can’t

    Cards & Power (7/21/24)

    They have this crazy man

    RB (7/22/24)

    • Life force • Quality

    • Rainbow of possibility

    • Complete spectrum of energy

    • Multiplicity

    Cultivate your desire

    Feel/emerge into her

    Press her down fully with your

    personal divinity.

    Work hard • (7/23/24)

    No need to stress about time

    if you don’t like it, stop

    Bring forth the light of your

    inner depths & share it & give

    it to the world & to your

    ship • Calm/steady her

    sails, prove to manage her

    amidst the chaos of the winds

    & follow your purpose

    first & foremost

    Self-love (treat your loved ones like they’re Jesus) (7/25/24)

    Dance in your shoes at all times

    you better have fun, because you’re

    going to be gone in a minute

    Gratitude shifts your perception

    to such an extent that it changes

    the world you see • These love

    notes from the universe are waiting

    for you to notice, waiting for you to

    tune in ○

    It is suspiciously easy to live

    in our natural state ⤠ Simple

    You have the power

    to create WORLDS

    ▂ ▃ ▄ ▅ ▆ ▇ █ █ ▇ ▆ ▅ ▄ ▃ ▂

    Miracles happen all the time, what

    one’s do you notice?

    Seeking the rare pearl (7/25/24)

    Buy the whole haystack

    Be your own advocate

    Paperwork

    Remember a lot of things

    love madly

    Magic of thinking Big

    Courtesy Leader

    RB (7/24/24)

    Do you get offended easily? Don’t

    you feel like you’re letting people

    down when you get angry and do/say

    mean things to them just to

    spite them? just to make things

    fair? Wouldn’t you rather submit

    and show them that you are

    willing to absorb their energy it might

    be, and look at them with positive,

    gleaming eyes of hope?

    Ambitious financial Goals (7/26/24)

    Never-> in fact refuse to

    play the victim

    Accumulate wealth instead

    of making excuses

    “The Mind is everything. (7/28/24)

    What you think, you become.”

    -Buddha

    “Life is long enough if you know

    how to use it.” -Seneca

    “Stop living the same year

    75 times & call it

    life.” -Robin Sharma

    “The two most powerful

    warriors are patience

    & time.” -Leo Tolstoy

    Kickass (7/29/24)

    Bring forth the bulldog

    And the roosters

    Analogies & Metaphors

    Experience, abstraction; cognitive

    effort to reconstruct & understand

    “Curse of knowledge” -> fear of

    not knowing something that

    you do know