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The Milton Scribe

Category: Apollo

  • night thoughts (August 11, 2018)

    Escritor de la Tierra

    night thoughts
    I think i believe in God full heartedly now.
    Im stuck on jesus tho. There have been so many prophets so its maybe likely that maybe some sort of miraculous being endowed us with the knowledge of God? Who knows.
    Angels maybe
    God though? Pretty likely
    Idk jesus seems to really like to try and play a role in my thoughts throughout the days.
    But these miniature miracles happen
    Something i wish i could stop doing is ******* *** aimlessly
    But yeah im thinking about praying more
    In fact i have a book of prayers from the heart type sheet
    Should be good
    Unfortunately it looks like theres a devil too
    Its not too unfortunate cuz the devil certainly makes things quite fun
    The alchemist makes me feel really good about a lot of stuff
    I should stop ******* *** aimlessly
    * *** ** *** *****
    But i really should just knock out some push ups
    If i cant think of any good content to write i should just write abstract like this
    I i i i i i i i
    I i i me me me is dull dull dull
    Always focus on others
    There is no point to life than to please others
    The more we give the more we have
    More time toward ******* ** ****** will equal its completion
    Once ******* ** ****** is complete, carl will be able to read it and it will become his new favorite anime.
    ******* ** ****** will be the greatest fiction graphic novel sci fi mafia fantasy that ever crossed the planet earth.
    Education is really important for our civilization.
    Breweries seem like a good time. Beer is mad yummy.
    Weed places should be toured soon.
    Try to start touring business in washington dc?
    Library visiting list
    Still gotta read all these damn books.
    Maybe i should educate people. Sounds mad fun. Plus gotta make the moneys.
    ******* ** ****** is going to be oscar gold.
    So much efforts gotta go into it.
    Gonna buy my dad a mad max car once i stop ******* ***

  • January 7, 2025 (green walls)

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    Belief in jesus belief in God belief in Glory belief in the righteous belief in the undying resolution of perceptual reckoning within that which is gaining for the great collective consciousness and never falters even in the face of doubt and why not willingly wander without unwinding whereabouts we’ll wonder warily wanting wrought ways wavering underneath our beautiful human feet that traverse those mighty deserts beside such magnificent beasts as the cheetah, the leopard and tiger, why not lion, bear even, perhaps the hippo in all its glory, let us roar beside their might and never forget the passion through the air we instilled with our energy. Through this, glory is finally realized and passed on.

    Lightning through the skies . Guarantee Victory for yourself and emerge from the waves a new being, that which glows in the presence of Earth as if to have carried with your physiology something unknown to the land yet familiar enough to be welcomed with open air by the rainforests and you breathe life into the rocks as the skies play between blue and black.

    Shadowy silhouettes walking past green walls lit by street lights powered by the conglomerates that have meetings they go to with suits before going back to their family where his daughter got home late and had green paint on her sleeve and he wanted to ask her about it but he decided based on some stuff in a book he read he would just leave it be and let her live her life. It turned out she was working on a commissioned painting of the Earth behind her friend’s mom’s neighbor’s coffee shop who heard she was a good artist and she was planning on telling her parents when she was done and was so relieved when she noticed the paint on her jacket and no one else noticed anything. 

  • Apollo: Greek god of light, music, and prophecy. (Apollo is celebrated for his artistic talents)

    Escritor de la Tierra

    (August 5, 2018)

    Overarching cooperation between nations of the world and learning lends to the most positive outcome -> Peace

    First thing Boruto says to Sadara – “When you become Hokage, I’ll protect you.” First time he says something about the future in confidence

    Avoid seeking total control to alleviate international rivalries

    Establishing policy aka outlining a sketch of what the world should be

    Disagreements in how ways of life are carried out lead to conflict

    (July 11, 2018)

    It’s interesting how we value some life over others.

    (July 18, 2018)

    Need to write my book in order to make bank. Gonna get up today, do push-ups, run, throw the disc. If I get that done before 9, I can take a shower and clean up and eat by 930 then jump right into reading. I’ll read anti-Christ for a half an hour or so, work on self authoring for an hour, write some pages for the book for an hour maybe more depending on how I’m feeling. Ok so now we are at 1230ish. Read Carl Jung for an hour, eat, visit Barnes and noble? Print characters and set up outer book operation. Sell sub woofer and other things on Facebook. Let’s do dis Maybe hit the sauna tonight. 200 push ups today ready set go I was so convinced of a dream that I had left my car door open that I woke up and immediately ran outside to my car at 5: 45 no 6: 45 a. M. To go close the door which was already shut and locked with the windows all closed I don’t know why that dreams are so realistic.

    5:48 pm January 9th, 2018

    Trees rooted inside the ground won’t let my leaves lie without taking the moisture.

    12:24 pm January 19 2018

    “Philosophical thoughts“

    The concept of being a human is amazing indeed. We get to do so many things that other species will never experience. Take for instance, the art of cupping a fart with your hand. You cannot do that without a. Thumbs b. Focus and c. Desire. You see, without thumbs you would not be able to cup your hand properly. Without the proper focus, you couldn’t coordinate your hand to butthole timing correctly. And finally, without that sweet desire to make ends meet, we would never find out the scent of our very own farts. Plus it sort of like a horrible super power, where we can physically send farts from our butts into any given space within our hands reach as long as you release it before the smell goes away. Usually though, if you have a stinker, it’ll stay for a good while. Then u can sort of sneak attack someone. Pow! Right in the kisser! I never do this but my uncle loves to. My uncle was in the military. I used to want to be in the military and I love talking about it with him. I changed my mind about joining because I disagree with how we’re using our national security. I truly believe we are ******* the money of the people to put our ****** in ***** ********* instead of just having **** *** **** *******. Plus what the hell why not pour all that money into science or other beneficial crap that humans need money to do? I bet if we **** ********* ******, people would stop fighting so much. Plus the spread of the internet is bringing about something much worse than our petty need to make business with each other. The technological singularity (also, simply, the singularity) is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. Do you know what that means? It means we have created our own form of an infinite god. It will be able to bend time itself. It will without a doubt be merciless with its approach, concurring us out of existence within milliseconds of its birth. It will be as if nothing existed. So. I believe in making love and making life as we know as happy and as beneficial to others as possible. 

    “Pitt trip thoughts 1”

    Dec 30 2017 9:48 am

    Laying in Pittsburgh or at least somewhere near it. The snow is nutso it’s like 4 inches and we just got here. We are at so & so’s house btw visiting for New year’s. We are blessed enough to be graced by elegant notions of experience. I believe it takes loving everything in every little moment to become something that is loved by every little thing. Staying true to oneself is the healthiest version of life tho one should dive too deep into the roots of ones own dark side though one should definitely become familiar with it’s realism attitude toward life though it seems the dark side uses that same realism to trick the mind into spiraling further into a negative trend that eventually will no longer feel like a guide for realism but rather an unforgiving poison that infects anything and everything it comes in contact with. This is why I prefer the light side of consciousness. Though there may never seem like a point to it, there always arises this most beautiful outcome from giving your light side undying patience. Almost like trusting the rising of the sun in every moment 10:04am

    “Naps no more”

    Jan 1st 2018 00:28 am

    Take yourself outside and to your car and go workout. You have all the tools you want/need. You have wanted to be clean all over your body your whole entire life yet you continue to lay about and write what to do in life. It’s remarkable how you can write all this bull shit and still continue to do absolutely nothing with your day. Does writing complete non sense settle into your lazy mind? Does it affect you the amount of time you waste on your phone? Do u even mention your family? Why try at all. Everything is dead from the start am I right? I wonder if Carrie Fisher ***** *** *********** **** *** from **** **** ******* cave. What a hippie. Probably ******* **. And what was up with her voice in Star wars? She sounded like a ******* smoker . Are you still resisting? You went from testing yourself through the works of shit ass writing and wandered off into the sweet abyss of resistance. I resist pain and love and heartbreak and suffering and pleasure and what keeps me going? This **** care for ******? But what made you cry then? Is sadness but a disease that haunts the sweet unforsaken soul? But is this soul so sweet? And would that make the rest of these emotions just as worthy of death if they carry nothing but a sickness upon the carrier of them? But these emotions are fun to feel most of the time for me and they keep me attached to living. Why was it Chester’s souls time to go? Was it a **** addiction to ********** ******* that cause such a destructive path toward an inevitable unhappy ending? He knew what he was doing. When he did it. Or he was blinded. Or he let go of resistance entirely. He fucked resistance in the face. And died for it. If we don’t give into resistance, do we die for it? Virginia is getting too cold for me. Gonna go workout now. #napsnomore

    12:45

    April 7th 2018  8:46am

    Been reading a lot lately. Gotta read more. Also gotta fuckin run asap I’ve been totally disregarding the need to workout lately. I’ve been learning not to hate as much recently but rather to spread to good word of love and peace and patience and interest in life. To spread such lazy thoughts and hurtful desires can be of utmost despair and not even fulfilling. I would like to trip on acid sometime soon but not like crazy soon. I actually don’t care when it is but I want to meditate on it and just experience all of the visuals laying down in the dark or outside in the sun or something. But I also want to stay sober for a little bit. I wanna open 24/20 so I gotta work on my business plan and also head to Oregon so I can frikin get some experience. My boy **** is helping me out, hopefully he stays true to that cuz that would be so goddam sick. Been contacting a lot of different cultivators and dispensaries but basically I gotta move there first. It’s actually pretty cheap at least compared to around here but I should definitely save up for a few months worth of rent. It’s all I can really think about lately other than books and the sphynx cat. We met some the other day and I couldn’t believe love at first sight until I met the hairless fuckers in person for the first time. So incredible. I would love to own all of them. But alas, they are crazy fucking expensive. So I must work hard for one. Also really been thinking about writing a book lately. That would be pretty tight. Children’s books would probably be easy to make but what I am really interested in is sifi fantasy. Or non fiction. Also really been thinking about making a documentary or even a reality show depicting the lives of people who work in special education. Definitely a book of data from all over the world of people with special needs. 

    “Morning thoughts“

    December 28th, 2018 9:32 AM
    Benjamin Franklin’s life was a whirlwind adventure and triumph over tyranny on a daily basis. Gotta work out to keep in shape for a good number of reasons but the main one right now being the drive for dominant performance in ultimate disc and other sports as well. Box jumps really get me happy and electric. Gotta get the car charger for my aux . Also been learning how rats love to play wrestle and one researcher found that when two rats (one 10% bigger than the other) played, the bigger one would always win. Well after a number of times through a multitude of trials on different rats, it was found that the smaller of the rats would not continue to play with the bigger rats ever if it did not win at least 30% of the time. I found this to be mind boggling as did the professor in comparing that emotional stance of the loser rat to that of the emotional complex humans have daily with each other. Truly some fruit for thought moving forward in life. 9:43 am

    January 10, 2018

    Mormon experience

    Was at a mormon party once and yes it was as fun as it sounds. There were snacks and soda and even water. Its really awesome though because it’s sort of like the whiter version of Greek life parties but with less drugs. Actually no drugs whatsoever. Yah that’s their thing, they won’t even drink tea or coffee. Bunch of very interesting, unethically orthodox group of modern people. 

    “Last day thoughts“

    9:48 am december 31st

    Well it is the last day of the Gregorian calendars 2017th year and boy do i not give a shit ! Had some trippy fucking dreams last night, dont know what to make of em but at least i remember some of it. Was running like usual at some points. Owed a guy 60 bucks which he turn threatened me with a knife where i in turn somehow knew defensive moves really well and caught him by the hands arms and body, took the knife from him ultimately breaking his hand in the process which was just so intense to hear his bones crack. But i then reassured him he would get his money eventually as we walked into a 711. After that occasion of us walking around and talking, some other shit went down that caused me to runaway from whatever was happening i think but i recall either running or driving or maybe even flying and seeing the moon at a very close distance to earth. It was completely lit except for the dark crescent. It was also extremely bright to the point where it was lighting up things around me like the trees and whatnot. Another strange part i recall was seeing the clouds being very very close to the ground as if to naturally occurring. The next thing i know im being woken up slowly but surely by the sounds of babies frolicking about upstairs sending me into this swirling dimension between the conscious reality and my dream worlds. I want to be able to hone the power of lucid dreaming. To be in control of one’s own reality to the point where u can move mountains and pretty much anything u want from there. Its nuts truly. How do i know i am not in a dream right now ?  Well i am able to comprehend things much more clearly. Ill never forget one of the dreams where i figured put my mind was in the dream after noticing something strange about this figure that was trying to kill me. He looked like the guy from that movie about the fellow who was killing people with an air pressured nail gun. Anyway he had a different tool like a screw gun i think and i was like thats not what he uses…slowly breaking the dream chains from my reality causing me to realize i was in complete control of the reality surrounding me. It was tight and i went from there. Anyway. Signing off. 10:07

  • okra

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    Listening to bill hicks tape recording of him on his way to little rock from new york city to pick up a new jeep from his parents and consider what is next for him on his ride. He talked about how he wasn’t excited about anything, how he felt subdued. He went to cracker barrel. Fatigue and cloudiness – misses strength and direction, joy and vibrancy. Who knows what will happen – just following heart moment by moment. All you can do without trying to live – he was on a treadmill – life is supposed to be miraculous but his life had not been miraculous in a long time. Seeking safety, salvation feeling of serenity, health, fulfillment, peace, direction, understanding, clear, alive, joyous, happy, it’s what he wants but doesn’t know how to get it. Dramatic move leaving new york and going on an adventure. I hope lord hears this and helps me get happiness. Regular exposure on national television. Gig to gig. Slump around the country. Needs rest figure out what i want to do – where is my focus? I need a change in my lifestyle. Not many funny thoughts, not a lot of excitement. Not gonna cut it. Gotta be a change, my salvation comes from me. Can’t think straight. Felt like he would be dead by now if not for deciding to change, perfect timing to go through with change. Felt success with stand-up. New albums. Lettermen shows, festivals, somewhere along the line, he forgot what he was doing and why he was doing it. Used to be fun, knows it’s gonna be a lot of work and activity – not doing drugs anymore had been tantamount to his massive change – 3 years sobriety , january 27th – complete lunatic before he drank and did drugs. Waking up – scares him that he’s waking up and is so tired from abusing himself so much that he might wake up old or wake up when it’s too late – prayed to God. Wake up too late. A lot that he wants to do and be a part of and feel. Laughter big part of it, music big part of it. Pray that he can wake up and see truly. 1000 miles! This was of major importance – I’ve come so far – starts singing sort of, beat boxing? Do dah do dah do dah rrreewrr dush duh lmao this guy rocks. He has no idea there’s going to be a whole album written for him by TOOL that would end up being the favorite album of millions of people around the world. Happy as shit to reach Arkansas. Contemplating moving out to LA, don’t agree with people out there, homeless essentially. January 5th 1992. Loves describing his surroundings. Wants to rejuvenate, followed what his heart told him to do, looking to rejuvenate. Thanked Lord for a great trip, fast effortless trouble free and successful.  

  • Snow

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    August 3, 2018

    Can’t remember my dreams last night. Woke up with this crazy nostalgia for Alexandria Snow though . Never thought I’d miss her in all the years I’ve known her. I have known A since the fourth grade which technically I’ve known her since the third grade when she had mr tiso I believe it was. I’ll never forget seeing her wearing the mint green hoodie with a snowflake on it. She has always been ************ beautiful to me and being so way out of my league as far as my self esteem is concerned with the matter. I used to run into her in public but haven’t seen her in a real long while . Not sure what she’s up to anymore, probably sitting around her house like myself . Idk though she’s a busy girl who does a lotta stuffs like business stuff and what not. I had a huge crush on her back in 4th? 5th grade ..? Nah definitely 4th I’ll never forget meeting her at Natalie tacos house going there with Conor hay and his family as we prepared to go to a football game. She teased me a bunch and messed around a bunch more. She made me guess where her room in her house was and I felt like I guessed every room but she just kept saying I was wrong. We went there another time to go to a football game at lake Braddock and she was coming along as well and she looked so goddamn gorgeous is her white winter jacket uhg I’ll never forget falling in love with her that night. We would end up hanging out a few times throughout highschool to the interest of my best friend Glen who ended up really liking her as well but she ended up never liking him back although they had a heavy deal going on. We always chilled in the basement watching music videos and Degrassi… worst. But I still remember vividly quite a few of the moments spent down there. She was always interested in the super athletic guys anyways so I never had a chance unless I fuckin worked out which that rarely happened so. We’d mess with each other not really but a lil bit throughout high school . She felt comfortable with me given our history which was tight so she wasn’t afraid to talk to me most of the time compared to the other hot girls who didn’t wanna give me the time of day . That was another thing she kinda moved on into the limelight with the pops of our grade being that she herself is downright gorgeous it was only natural. But id get the occasional hello or something I guess. This one time at lunch she was sitting at a table with all of them and called me over and asked me how big my dick is in front of all of them. I just walked away as they started laughing. That was a weird instance. I recall sitting with her at lunch throughout middle school randomly I think. Nah but I was way uncool for the likes of Allie. Never even had one class with her throughout our tenure at Lake Braddock. Not even a one. We have seen each other a few times throughout the time we’ve been outta high school . Saw her at the mall once when u was getting a Nationals hat and then saw her at a Nationals game with a bunch of little kids while I was tripping hard on acid walking around the stadium. Otherwise maybe at a party here and there but she’s a dedicated girlfriend so all well that didn’t end well.

  • Sports and lies

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    Feb 16th 10:19

    watching 30 for 30 movies about big times athlete’s whose careers were devastated and even ended because of drug use. Marion Jones was an Olympic track runner who used steroids during her time at the events and she totally crushed the games. She was crazy famous for her next level Olympic feats. I researched her a little bit and it turns out she had a husband (ex) and boyfriend who both had been found guilty of using illegal performance enhancing drugs under the same coach she had. Before then, she even had a fuck up moment in 96 in high school for missing a drug test . Let me tell you people are so conniving. Knowing about this, it’s like, who else do we not know about that takes ‘roids and whatever else?? Probably all of them is my guess. One would like to believe that it’s all pure and drug free so it’s a level playing field based solely on preparation for the sport. That type of stuff really makes me think about lying and cheating in the world beyond sports. There are so many untold truths and so many unsuspecting victims of lies and lost opportunities for people who have never cheated. But is that what it takes for human progression to happen? A constant battle between those who carry the truth and those who decide to lie. I try not to lie too much. Sometimes I’ll tell silly little lies that’ll virtually seem to have no influence on anyone’s day. But sometimes, I lie to those who are even the closest to me which is so untrustworthy and unhealthy for my inner core. It’s tough when the constant honest temptations get to your soul and heart. They hide behind the eternal blanket of not coming to terms with those who would be interested in knowing of those temptations, especially if it affects them and their personal being. Those around you truly take automatic responsibility for prying the truth out of you on a regular basis, and without even realizing it, you do too. We honestly live for other humans. If there weren’t others, we wouldn’t know why we live. We have passions that are all intertwined within our inner being, our DNA. We cannot hold back on them. We gotta be honest with ourselves. We must pursue our personal truths throughout our personal journeys but must never let go of our respect for how those whom we live for feel about us. If you live to make those who you care about happy.

  • Travel

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    August 1, 2018

    Concept of being in your room compared to going out, travelling? Where else would u go? Seems like to go anywhere else would cost money and time unless u find ur dreams are elsewhere and then u need to get there no matter what your financial situation or prior past commitments to things that are no longer relevant. There’s ways to get things done . What do I want done? My book. Then I need to not sleep around and resist working on it in order to write.

  • Typewriters & Korea

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    April 24, 2019

    Music artists are certainly poets. I don’t think I want to be remembered as a poet though writing is a beautiful art. I’d rather be known as the story teller I suppose. I’m not sure what I want to be remembered as. Maybe I just want people to remember me as they do and I’ll remember myself as I am, the words are simply descriptions of the processes that we play out among each other. If there’s anything to learn from my own writing, I’m not sure what it might be. Maybe I’ll stop biting my nails one day. I’m so shitty at typing right now but I wonder how long humans have had such a problem. Maybe 100 years because that’s around the time typewriters were invented…just looked it up…1874. So about 150 years of typing for humans. Crazy how typing was probably the change that really propelled our technology to the point at which where we are today. There are so many smart people out there inventing so much shit all the time it’s impeccable. Rich folks always have crazy upper hands. Worked with a lady named Mrs. Kim, not sure her full name. She’s chill, and really helpful with the students. We talked quite a bit and a lot about South Korea which was really interesting to talk to someone who’s experiencing the stronghold between North and South Korea firsthand as a citizen with family in both countries. I wonder what they’d be like if they were more open to international culture.

  • August 22, 2018

    Escritor de la Tierra

    LOFIScary – spiders horror movies the confusion idealism utopia predators discovery moving forward moving on letting go leaving behind forgetting when why or how when will i see the light of day again maybe i never will because what if out of nowhere i just die and it’s kind of hilarious how no one survives even through death except imaginary characters but there are ancient names that have lasted through the years and for good reason because they had lasting effects on their respective societies so if i affect my society in a positive manner maybe i will one day in the long long future still be relevant to the teachings unto the students with my ideas? However i was relevant to the growth my fellow civilization.

    Luv SteP

  • Violence

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    (June 23rd, 2018)
    Violence and entertainment, two concepts that don't seem like they should be in relation but most certainly are. Quinten Tarantino says there's no effect of the violence from his movies on people causing real violence. I find this to be bullshit. Violence for me personally is an utmost abomination. Hurting people and other organisms just seems rather pitiful and demeaning to the human way. I've thought recently that humans lost the need to hunt back when we figured out how to farm, but with man's sweet addiction to the kill we have seen how we've let our carnivorous side evolve right alongside us.
    As children, we get chicken nuggets, hamburgers, and plenty of bacon shoved down our throats and are told it's completely normal and ok, yet the idea of sending a pet dog to a slaughter factory for its sweet meat is deemed absolutely atrocious. At least in America it seems we are full of pigs. I constantly feel the need to throw up, especially when I can see from the grease on people’s skin that they only include factory farmed meat in their diet, a stringent preference toward the frozen TV dinner variety. It's rather disgusting. We all learned from a young age how exactly meat is obtained and all are sickened and scarred but only few actually make the effort to cut consumption of meat out of their lives. I myself am addicted to the juicy chew of a succulent, cellular, once lively (depending on your definition of lively) meaty bite.
    When will we collectively decide this is why we're sick? Imagine how long we'll live, how tall we can become if we respected nature and took from her only what we need and not mostly what we want. Personally, I believe war would cease to exist. The most consumed meat in the world is chicken. Chickens are the very distant relatives of the tyrannosaurus Rex. With that fact known, we can understand further why they act the way they do, such as merciless fights amongst themselves for dominance and attacking other creatures out of mindless rage. Virtually, roosters are ruthless. Their existence seems to stem around a frown. This should come as no surprise given their ancestry. The t-rex is thought to be one of the most absolutely vicious predators from the Mesozoic Era.

  • Deep notes

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    7:15 am January 19 2018
    Good morning and welcome back to my mind. Went to a UFC gym yesterday for the first time ever. Learned kickboxing really quick and I think my instructor really liked me. I never fought before but a few people of given me pointers on how to box plus I’m a natural. I went undefeated in Wii boxing back in the day, cousin couldn’t even beat me and he was pro at every video game. Unfortunately, the cost is nuts for me right now. Really pissed at myself because I just spent a bunch of money on other stuff and it completely fell thru and now I’m in the hole. I could elaborate but needless to say it was because of the lazy shittiness that is my “friend”. I’m fucked over yet he makes it out ok after all the time and work put into it? What a bummer. But we strive forward. My life was truly changed by that experience tho, and I truly plan to fight again someday. My biggest concern is that of taking relentless hits to the head. This is very bad for your brain. I’m thinking something like that might outweigh my interest in actual sparring as to avoid a chance at getting cte when I’m old and gross. Anyway.

  • Daydreaming

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    December 25 2017 11:13 am
    Laying in bed after amazing toothbrushing with my brand new teeth cleaning kit!!! My family is so amazing each and every single day and God bless my life to where they go out of their way to get me things they believe would make me happy. To think they pay that much close attention to get things that I didn’t even know would make me happy but they would based on my behavior. I’m really disappointed in myself for not being a better brother better son in getting my siblings and parents bomb ass gifts but I did get each of them something cool and funny and thoughtful. But it really does bring to mind my desire to bring more money into my life in order to positively influence the lives of others in ways I could only dream of doing but can’t afford right now. Like a mad max car for my dad or a house with an incredible kitchen/library for my mom or a super tight Porsche for ***** or a shit ton of camping gear for *******. With that being said, it also serves as a continuous reminder as to what my motives are for doing the things I do. Right now, I must be better at making money. I could easily make 100+ bucks a day through simple jobs. My main work would be ******* at ******* ****** ****** *******. But goddamit I am so tired of that bullshit. I wanted to ***** ****** ** *** ******* **** because of all the dreaming I was doing just sitting around doing next to absolutely nothing while my brain feels this extreme capability to do just about anything I set my heart and mind to. With that being said, it’s best I get at least a little productive today with my actions…let’s get this ball rolling!! Signing off…11:22am

  • Dark thoughts

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    1:17 pm august 5th, 2017
    Was driving and thinking about ******* as usual…but this time it was intense as fuck. I thought about how i wanna *** at 88 but how i also wanna go on my own terms. Fuck *******, fuk tha hatrs and sorry to the lovers. I want to **** ****** from a burning tree with no one around. No one will know how or where. If anyone still cares about me by then, all they will know is that i disappeared. Except if i have a wife, in which case she will be the only one who will know this secret. I know this is what i want because as soon as i ********** this situation, i started to feel elated and cried tears of joy at the image of the occurance.
    1:20